Last Prayer

The Fear of Aris

"Name ... Are we moving into Grandma's house tomorrow?" tanya Aris who is placing a copy between the Qur'an and the collection of books mas Heru neatly arranged on the shelf.

"So, the day after tomorrow, Umi started working in aunt Mira's office. When Aris Umi stay at work later, take care of Aris well, yes! Don't make me and grandma worry."

"Yes, umi. I promise I won't make you worry, let alone cry."

"Aris is already his muroja'ah?"

"Well, umi."

"I'm sorry, son. Umi did not nemenin Aris muroja'ah tonight. Umi has to make sure our clothes, as well as the items that will be brought to the grandmother's house later." I said who was putting glassware into the dusbox.

"Yes, umi. No papa. I can do it myself. Yeah, umi, I'm fucking."

"Yes already. Aris wants to sleep umi accompanied?"

"No, umi. Just keep cleaning it up. I can sleep alone."

Aris's steps look gontai. Aris was already very sleepy.

We've been without Heru for a week. The days I spent felt so lonely. But I try hard. I don't want Aris to see my sadness. Every night Aris always continued his memorization as he had routinely done when Heru was still there. Sajadah given mas Heru also he always made a seat to teach.

"Nr ..."

I, who was saying my greetings at the third prayer of the night, heard Aris calling me. I finished my greetings and ended my prayers.

"Umi .." said the one I heard back.

Ever since Aris got sick, I always accompanied her to sleep in her room. It was heartless to let Aris sleep alone in the room with her condition that still likes to weaken.

"Yes, why, son? Aris's thirsty? Umi get you a drink, okay?" I said as I folded the face I just took off.

"Yes, umi. I'm so limp, I'm thirsty."

"Then get me a drink, yeah."

I sat Aris with her back leaning against the head of the bed. A glass of warm water I will inform him immediately. His face looked tired, a little pale and sweaty.

"Umi why don't you sleep?"

"Umi was asleep. Wake up and can't sleep anymore. Instead of usi just dumbfounded, it is better to get closer to God. Umi can also pray at once abi who is already in heaven, also pray for the healing of Aris."

"Kata abi, that's tahajud prayer, umi. All prayers will be answered."

"InshaAllah ... Sincere prayer will surely be answered by God."

Aris's eyes again I saw frowning. Like holding back the pain. I was getting worried as his face looked even more pale.

"Rubber, is Aris just thirsty?"

Aris nodded and laid her body back with her head against a pillow. His eyes glanced at the clock hanging on the wall of the room, which he then turned towards me and slowly his eyes closed again. Aris is asleep again. I kissed her soft forehead while offering the best prayer for Aris.

*****

"Acrasnodity ..."

"Girlwindsalam! Umi ... Grandma has arrived!"

After breakfast and taking medicine, Aris deliberately sat on the porch of the house. He was looking forward to his grandmother coming to pick him up.

"Vaalaikumsalam. Who is that, mom?" I was curious after kissing my mother-in-law's hand when I came in with two men I didn't know.

I nodded as a sign of understanding. I allowed my mother-in-law and her employees to enter the house. Aris who had been struggling spoiled at mother then released her arms that were circular at the waist of mother.

"Grandma, I'm next, aren't you, Grandma, living in that big, adem grandmother's house?"

"Yes dong, Aris! That's Aris' house too. Aris can stay up anytime at grandma's house. Grandma's house, Aris's house too."

I saw Aris's smile, emanating the pleasure he might have longed for. I smiled seeing him too. Aris's happiness is my strength to keep trying to make her smile.

"Wulan, today so will Aris control the hospital?"

"So, mom. It's been scheduled with Iksan's doctor today."

"Yes already. We go to the hospital first, and then we go home. Let's not go back and forth. The goods let Indra and Randi bring first to the house."

"Yes, ma'am."

"Name ... To the hospital just to check, right, umi? I won't stay there again, will I?"

Aris's face looks riled up. His eyes are already glazed. Aris looked worried when she heard I was taking her to the hospital. I approached her sad face. My hands now frame her tiny face that looks at me clingy.

"Navis ... Don't be afraid. Later Iksan's doctor only checked Aris' condition. The hotshot period umi slammed fitting hear want to be taken control to the hospital? The dong spirit. Aris must be eager to heal. Umi believes Aris is cured. Aris is a strong boy!"

Lips that originally looked flat, now curved and interested. Aris smiled, then laughed revealing her neatly groomed white teeth. Makes me even more anxious to bite his tiny nose.

*****

"Ananda Arise ..."

"Yes, sister," I said after hearing Aris' name finally called as well.

"Please enter, doctor Iksan is already waiting inside."

Immediately we stood up and stepped into the room that read "Doctor Iksan - Internal Medicine Specialist" attached to the door leaf.

"Aris, how's he doing? Still like tight? Does his chest still like pain?"

Aris who was sitting next to me did not reply when asked by Iksan's doctor. He just shook slowly.

"Navis ... Just tell me what Aris feels. Don't be arrested, let alone covered up. I don't want Aris to be quiet. If pain says pain, if tightness says tightness. Let the doctor be able to handle the complaints that Aris feels sooner."

"I'm healed, umi! I'm not sick anymore! I don't want to be checked! I'm healed! I'm healed!"

My breath faltered as Aris spoke sternly and cried. The angry face I had seen at home, I now look back. I looked at her red and watery eyes. It looks very anxious there.

'What are you afraid of, son? What are you feeling? What are you thinking? Your face really makes Umi feel scared. Afraid that something that you do not want will happen, 'my mind that is looking at Aris' eyes fixedly.

"Astagfirullah .." said I who then closed my eyes and shook my head when I realized that what I had to think was good for Aris.

"Mother Wulan, no, no papa. Let it. Let me talk to Aris later on the examination."

Doctor Iksan who was also shocked to hear Aris talking loudly and crying tried to calm me down.

"Already, Wulan. Let it. If Aris says no why, yes already. Let doctor Iksan check. Doctor Iksan will know more about Aris' condition later on."

"Yes, mom. Arise ... I'm sorry umi, yes. Forgive umi who has made Aris afraid and cry. Umi believes Aris, Aris must be honest."

Aris. Dare not look at me. Dare not speak anymore. Then he lay on the bed that was available in the doctor's room Iksan to be examined.

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