Last Prayer

ICU - Grieving

"Assynolajet. Good morning, Mr. Heru! Can you answer my greetings?"

Maya doctors who were close to Heru mas immediately greeted to find out the response from Heru mas.

"Getishalight."

Although the look of his face looks still confused and dazed, it turns out that Heru mas easily and eloquently return greetings from Maya doctors.

'Alhamdulillah O Allah ... Mas Heru really realized.it's a miracle! Power from God! It makes me feel so small in front of him! MashaAllah ...'

The doctor further examined the condition of Heru mas. His distinctive smile while his hands fix the glasses that are always attached to his face, tells that the condition of Heru mas is completely stable. Soon Maya's doctor told sister Tania to remove the device that was still attached to Heru's body, and replace the oxygen mask only with a hose attached to the nose. Then allow us to be able to approach the Heru mas.

"Aris .." he said in a voice that was still very weak and restrained, like stuck in his throat.

"Yes, abi ... I'm right here."

As soon as he heard his name called, Aris who was next to me quickly approached Heru. He immediately held the hand of Heru mas which he then gently kissed.

"I'm sorry abi, son. Sorry, abi."

"Sorry for what, abi?"

"Aris is fine, son. Take care of umi, take care of grandma, keep Aris prayer as well. Be a righteous child, who is ever firm with the teachings of God."

Heru's tears slowly trickled down. Make me tear up.

"Yes, abi. Aris will always remember abi's words. Aris wants to be a good boy. Aris wants to make Abi smile. Abi don't cry!"

"Russia ... Why talk like that? You must be strong. You must be healed! We'll take care of each other. I will keep trying to get you good care. So that you can recover quickly and come back with us!"

"Mas ... We all expect your recovery. We all still need a figure like you! Especially Aris, my. Fight, mas, for Aris."

Mas Heru looked at us one by one. His face was so angry. The clear circle that has dripped a lot to wet the pillow, further adding to this heartache when returning his gaze.

"Mother ... I'm sorry, ma'am. I'm sorry I haven't been able to make you happy."

"Yes, Heru. Mom was so alone with everything. It is precisely the mother who wants to apologize to you, Heru. Mom is neglecting to be a parent. You are negligent about your rights as a child. Forgive Mother who only thinks of the lusts of the world!"

"I'll take Wulan and Aris, ma'am. Please please please please happy them, ma'am. Be my substitute to make them happy."

"We'll be happy together, Heru. You don't keep talking like that! You must be strong!"

"Mas Heru .." said I who could not control my tears. My voice is starting to sound.

"Deck ... I-i'm sorry! As long as you're my wife, I never make you happy. Never gave you a good life. Thanks, deck. Thank you for being the perfect wife for me. Being the perfect mom for Aris. I'm sorry that there are so many shortcomings in being a husband. I'm sorry, deck."

"Name ... Why is everyone crying? Abi is awake. Why is everyone crying? Abi, abi why are you crying?"

"Navis ... Abi, erghhhh."

Heru's voice suddenly stopped, his breathing was tight. When he breathed, it was like pain. Very difficult and painful. His breath was very audible. Heavy and restrained. Seeing what happened, everyone panicked. I hurried to call the doctor Maya who had returned to her study. Just wanted to turn around and take off the grip of Heru's hand, my hand restrained. Mas Heru held my hand, as if I did not want to call the doctor Maya.

"Oh Allah, my mother ..."

"Abi ... Huhuhuh ... Umi ... Abi why, umi?"

"Heru ..."

All panic. Everybody crying. I who do not want Heru why-why, now trying to surrender. Maybe it's time for Heru to leave. I bowed. I close my face next to his face, with my left hand rubbing his forehead, while my right hand holds my fingers tightly against Heru which I think has begun to cool down. I whispered softly in Heru's right ear.

"Mas ... If it's time you have to go, I'm sincere, mas! I'm sincere! Some things you should know, sir. I love you so much! There is no sense of regret in marrying you. I'm very lucky to be able to match you, ma'am. Aris, will be your successor. I'll try to make it as you want. You've managed to educate Aris to be my proud son, mas. Go, mas. I'm sincere. Don't worry about mom, I'll take care of your mom. My time for you, I will continue to be with your mother, who has been my mother since we were married. Take it off, mas. By Allah, I'm sincere, ma'am!"

It's getting harder to breathe. It was like being silent for a few seconds, then breathing again with a breath like being stomped. Repetitively.

"Mas ... Follow me yes, mas. Laa Ilaaha Illallah."

His tongue spoke without sound. But I know, mas Heru is able to recite it even without a sound.

"Again, mas. Laa Ilaaha Illallah .." My voice this time with trembling lips.

Mas Heru had already started to exhaust his pull and exhale. I, who saw and felt his last breaths, found it difficult to breathe. It feels stuck at the base of the neck. Slowly, I saw his eyes begin to close. The neck that was still strong to hold the head, now droops weakly. No more breathing. No more breathing sounds. The mouth that had been open instantly clenched. His lips seemed interested, incised a smile on the pale face that felt cold I was holding.

"Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Rajiun's. Mas Heru ..."

I kissed her face that was as white as cotton. What an amazing man. Now go away leave me forever. Go to face the Divine.

"Inna Lillahi Wa Inna Ilaihi Rajiun," said my mother-in-law who immediately embraced and kissed Heru who had been lying.

"Umi, abi why, umi? Why is abi sleeping again, umi? Huhuhuhu, abi wake up ... Look, I brought the prayer mat I bought for me. Wake up, abi ..."

I pressed a special button to call the nurse or doctor in case of emergency.  Long enough to wait for him to come to this room. Actually I prefer to call directly to the doctor's room rather than calling through this special caller button. What power, my legs feel stiff and my body is very weak, not strong if you have to walk even run to just call the doctor Maya.

"Navis ... Here's umi sayain, son. Abi is now with God, and she no longer feels pain. Aris must understand, yes. This is all a path from God. Abi is no longer in this world. Aris must be sincere. Yeah, boy!"

"What does that mean that Abi is dead, umi? So abi's gonna be buried? Poor abi, umi. Abb ... Abi wake up, abi ..."

"Aris wants to go to heaven? Aris would, right, abi proud of Aris? Aris also wants to, umi not cry anymore?"

Aris nodded, her tears still continuing to drip. Sometimes his body swayed with a hiccup. It was very sad, seeing Aris's face full of tears. This time, I held my cry for Aris.

"Then, Aris don't cry anymore. Ikhlasin abi yes, son. Just pray for abi, for abi to smile in heaven there. Aris got it, right?"

"Yes, umi,"

Tears dripping, he wiped by wiping it using the clothes he pulled up near the face. Aris then hugged me who was standing on my knees.

"I will remember abi's message, to always take care of umi and grandma. Don't cry anymore!"

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