JIHAN Best Friend's

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jeonghan pov's

Maybe everyone doesn't know how I feel right now , holding out by yourself waiting in our usual place together , please worry I'm waiting for you to come hugging me saying the love stanzas you used to tell me 'maybe if it's someone else will get bored but I'm not at all , your beautiful voice delivered my sleep .

I miss sleeping on your arms, I miss your singing, I miss everything you have, not at midnight I wake up dreaming about you ,, I've always hugged your shirt, felt the scent of your body that still feels, I might have gone crazy because every time I saw your shadow wander in every corner of our room .

you're where Shua_ah is, are you eating well ? you're not picky sure you're eating well but you can't eat regularly without anyone else regulating, is your sleep soundly while with me ? shua_ah I always looked at the pillow beside me, the pillow you used to wear and looked at me lovingly, now I reach it feels cold like never before .

every night I waited for you to come when there was a sound of footsteps I woke up and thought it was you but it turned out to be another member, until this month every night I couldn't sleep , I always hoped that when I opened my eyes you would be right next to me and smile at me .

one month you left me with my mistake that you thought was fatal , I couldn't think clearly at that time , I'm sorry if my words hurt you I'm sorry please come back .

enough you to torture me like this, I'm really not strong anymore . don't overflow your anger by leaving me. , you better maki me , hit me if it'll make you better but please don't leave me like this .

shua_ah the day has passed so quickly , what is your anger not subsiding with time otherwise , please give me a chance to apologize to you , please come over for a while to see me , you promised you'd always be by my side now where are you ?

you once said, You've come this far because of me, right ? but why can't you hold out for a little while by my side, why can't you just give one chance to the guy who made you stay on the seventheen ,?

jisoo_ah, I'm sorry that it hit your hand that wanted to hold my honest hand I didn't accidentally just want you to persuade me to say something beautiful to me so I don't get mad at you anymore , but why aren't you as smart as you used to be 'you left me with a million regrets .

you are not as usual joshua_ah, why did you change so big , you will understand all my mistakes but has this time my mistake crossed the line , making you hurt ?

do you not love me anymore joshua_ssi, until you can make me like this if indeed you are reluctant to go home, pick up the phone from me, I miss your voice , misses every soft word from you, misses your sweet smile, misses when you smile your eyes will disappear, until when will you torture me ?

come back not only do I miss you but also your sister here, do you not pity , you were the one who loved them the most when me and the scoups got mad at them you were ready to put up a body to scold me, but now do you not care anymore about them , ?

it's still winter outside, are you wearing the coat I gave you ? I'm now wearing the Dior necklace you gave me on my birthday, look at me I'm wearing it, you're always mad if I don't wear it , now don't be angry anymore because I've been wearing it every day ' I opened it when filming just because our shipper will be very excited if I see I always wear it .

so go home me and your sisters are now waiting for you , if you don't go home I'll spend your black cards in a day oh no you're the rich guy in your wallet I just see there's five black cards you won't fall poor if you lose one your black card .

if you still don't want to go home, I'll throw your beads and bracelet-making tools into the sea so you have to buy them again .

I want to feel like I'm yelling at everyone that you're mine

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on the first day I left the dorm I was loud and sure that I could pass it alone but after the day changed I felt more and more claustrophobic , living alone is fun, but not for me right now .

I miss you so much jeonghan_ah but the pain you gave me made me think twice about going home , are you happy right now , I've disappeared from your sight these few days, isn't this what you want jeonghan_ah ,,

The wound you gave me wasn't as big as my love for you, but your word is really piercing, the first word came out of your mouth , the first words I heard from your mouth, maybe some people are common but I don't think it's something to be taken lightly .

you remember jeonghan_ah I adore you so much I wanted to make you happy but you easily destroyed the trust I just put together again for you , twice you destroyed it twice also I have to suffer . whether I lack patience to face you .

now we should be just as brooding . brooding over each other's mistakes, don't say if I don't love you anymore, that's a big mistake , I still love you so much but for now let me choose my own path, I have my own way to heal my wounds .

though in plain light I say I exist because of you but you still are, do you not feel my sincerity, miss you jeongahan_ah

I miss you in every inch of your body, hugging you, smelling the scent of vanilla in your neck alcove, I miss everything about you , it feels like my feet are stepping for you no matter in front of the camera I want to hug you, it turns out holding back the longing is very difficult ,

are you still in my room right now jeonghan_ssi, if you fill that room with the smell of your body because if I come back I can feel your presence there . you remember that tiny hand would be gone if I held it but right now I can only hold the coat jacket you gave me , I can't feel your presence I'm lonely tampa you .

so please stop being overprotective and possessive of me, because all your bad thoughts will never happen , don't make our fans realize our disharmony , ' he said , when you refused to hold your hand, instead of me being ashamed of my fans I only got hurt when you refused .

I'm sorry if I made you feel overwhelmed by jeonghan_niee

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