Itinerantur Temple

TEMPUS 26: The Jealous Second Brother

Of course hearing the words of Brother Eagle earlier, still enough to make me speechless. I looked again at the radiance of the eyes of Eagle Brother who seemed to show a wounded look. The thing I concluded myself was, Brother Eagle was probably jealous of me when I was more concerned about Dad.

“I think the affection of parents is always the same for all their children. Why did Brother Eagle say that?” How dare.

Brother Eagle looked at me. “Entaihah, but I feel nothing like it.” He said, then turned around. Maybe going to his room.

“Kak, don't dodge!” My firmness. Success made her step stop, then looked at me again.

“I didn't dodge.”

“Keep why go?”

“You go to the room, read a book. You also have to rest again.” Said Brother Eagle.

The advice moved me a lot. Because now Brother Eagle wants to show his side of attention, not his cold side anymore. Yes though still occasional and not so intense.

“I still want to talk to brother.” My love. And we looked at it for a moment. I waited for Eagle to answer.

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For 18 years I lived, only this time I stepped into the bedroom of Brother Eagle. Yes, he eventually agreed to my request and invited me into his room.

Once inside the comfort zone of Brother Eagle, I couldn't help but be amazed. How not to be amazed, if my second brother's room is like a bookstore under the guise of a bedroom.

Kak Eagle's room is square in shape. The two right and left sides of the entrance, dominated by a light cream-colored bookcase. And of course both shelves contain a lot of books and are arranged neatly by sorting the title letters and categories of genres or types of reading.

Those two bookshelves were completely the size of a wall and half the height of a room wall. Of course I amazed and repeatedly said ‘wah’.

“Sit anywhere you like.” Said Brother Eagle.

My mouth was still slightly gaping, and I nodded small. Seeing his bed wrapped in sage green sheets with leaves motifs, I was reluctant to sit there. And I chose to sit on a single sofa that was beside the Eagle Brother study table.

It seems like this single sofa is where Brother Eagle is while reading. Because this single sofa there are parts to support both feet to make it more comfortable.

“But very big brother. Fragrant as well. I am the girl who feels defeated. My room is not this neat and often does not smell good, hehe.”

Brother Eagle smiled little at me. “Yes, who diligently clean and clean. The bedroom is our best place to rest. Not even just a break, but we spend time alone in the room, often. So yes make it as comfortable as possible. Also arranged like each taste, until really comfortable. After all by arranging or decorating the room also to train our imagination or creations.”

“Hmm, but you know for yourself. I'm a slacker.”

“Ya already, it's up to you. The appearance of the bedroom also illustrates how in the owner of the room. Means you said slacker is suitable for you.”

Hearing that I immediately snorted softly. Look at that face, he was very proud of the appearance of his own room. But it's good anyway.

I almost forgot that I asked to talk. I also looked at Eagle. “Indeed why do you think Daddy loves me more?” I asked, I'm still talking about that thing.

“Because since you were born, my father has never paid attention to me, Ravi, and Bang Wara. Coming home from work outside, I must be directly samperin you. Carry you, bathe you, nyuapin you fit already mpati, anyway father seemed to replace the role of Mother when she met you. Okay maybe it's trivial, but for me it's not. Maybe for Bang Wara the same Ravi, it is also common. But somehow for me it was unusual.” Obviously Brother Eagle.

From here, I began to recognize the personality side of Eagle Brother that had been invisible. That is the personality of Kak Elang who turns out to be spoiled and want to be noticed more. It's worth it all this time he's sniffed and cold on me, as well as on others, except for Mom. Because maybe Mother only understands Brother Eagle, but Mother is silent about it.

“I miss Dad too. Hugely. At that time I was about seven years old, I also wanted to play with my father. But dad tends to you on. Even Ravi who was then four years old was also less noticed by his father. But Ravi is ordinary, because he does not understand jealousy too much, Ravi is closer to Mother.”

“If Bang Wara?” my many.

“Bang Wara is nine years old if not wrong. He if you have returned home after school, immediately diligently do the task. Sometimes he plays with the neighbors children outside, so not too lonely as I feel.”

I nodded in understanding. Trying to understand the small wound that Brother Eagle felt. As a result of talking about this, my headache subsided a little. Though the prescription medicine from Dr. Airin had not been redeemed in the pharmacy.

Maybe my head should be made to think. “I'm sorry if my presence made my father distinguish his attention to the brothers. Especially Brother Eagle. But I don't feel guilty at all, brother. And don't blame me again.” My word.

The Eagle looked at me while frowning. “You mean?”

“I was still a toddler then. I think about two years. Just talk I have not been smooth, and the memory of the moment at that time I can not remember at all until now. Frosted. Maybe. Dad did pour more affection on me, because I'm the youngest child and I'm the only daughter. I think it's normal to happen in the family. And maybe you're expecting a daughter after having three boys. I'm not defending myself, but it's a fact. If at that time I could talk and understand the situation, father I have advised to be fair. So now, I ask Brother Eagle to remove that inner wound. Conditions are now different, even father has not returned.”

I saw Brother Eagle silent for a moment. And I felt a little worried that her reaction would hate me. Afraid that my words were wrong for him.

His face looked at me again after a moment. “Sister is not expecting, you are more mature thinking.” He said with a smile.

I am also glad to hear it. I also smile.

“But... What do you mean about the last sentence? Dad not back yet?” Ask Brother Eagle, even though I have not had time to reply to his previous words.

“Eh, a-anu. Gituuu..” my alibi while putting on a grin.

Brother Eagle seemed to frown. “You sure you want to say that?”

I nodded straight away. “Iya would like to say that. Ah, I-this prescription drug from Doctor Airin must be redeemed at the pharmacy sak. Can I have a hand?” I asked who directly shifted the topic of conversation.

Honestly, I'm still not ready to talk about why and where. Especially from Bang Wara herself still hasn't told me anything. So now I just shy away from talking in that realm.

Huft. He immediately moved and went outside to redeem my medicine at the nearest pharmacy. And I went straight back to my own bedroom.

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