I WISH THERE WAS HAPPINESS

PROLOGUES

This story starts from all the anxiety that made me finally lulled.

A person's life never goes backwards, never tries to turn towards the beginning, always forward without knowing in the end what will happen.

A story that tells the experience of me, who tried to go further on some company to simply disguise my plight.

Always hiding over all circumstances that invite every one of those who are curious about my life. I always managed to disguise my circumstances that were a little different from others.

Circumstances forced me to believe every coming, but in the end I always regretted all my plans that seemed to run smoothly with this camouflage.

After a long time, I began to understand that life is about survival and sustaining life, now I am in a phase of survival. Where all the things I want begin must be fought for and accounted for.

I think it's all been right, this trip I believe will be very easy. Everything will go as I wish, according to the list of expectations I want to achieve. On the basis of all that confidence, I started trying to find a job, said the person this phase is the toughest, to me the same.

I started walking gontai after graduating from an educational institution that I took for four years. Finally I got recognition, got a degree and got honors through a piece of education certificate.

After that confession, it turned out that I had to go through one more hurdle and had to get recognition again in another place called the company. Just like the others, I had to find work from one company to another.

Tired, that's how I felt in this search, I think schoolwork is the one that made me lose my way the most, it turns out that finding a job can make me lost and unguided.

To my mind, that back in school with all the tasks of each subject that sometimes drove me almost crazy, was much happier than the outside life I started living now, here is full of surprises whose answers I never get from just reading theories and journals.

My footsteps always stopped at every company to just ask for job vacancies, awkward indeed, should after getting a certificate on admission I have education, jobs will be easily obtained, it turns out the estimate is far off.

From there, I began to think that time was always childish, toying with my footsteps. Now I started to feel weak, tired and my mouth started not to stop complaining, it used to be very rare.

I don't know when I feel like everything's okay, complaining never brings me a job. Complaining actually makes all problems come without warning, with frequent complaining actually began to add to my burden that is not light.

All the things that I felt needed in finding a job I felt I had done, I had prepared all the requirements and I was sure it was complete. I've always been confused by the system, all I can't change.

Day after day ready to chase me with another slump, now increasingly felt, even until nightfall I was unable to just close my eyes. It always crossed my mind, when did that peace come? When did something beautiful come out? When do I smile and not smile anymore?

“Argh ..!” I shouted loudly and full of anger. “Argh ..!” yell again. “Tired cave kayak gini keep!” I complained, still screaming.

As the wind blew across my face, the wind was trying to caress the fatigue that gnawed at every footstep I had gone through. The restlessness I felt was too long, so I no longer knew I had to resign or give up.

“Where else?” ask me to myself. “Until when, Lord?” I asked, looking up at the sky asking for answers, but I also did not get an answer, only the spotlight of the sun that glimpsed my face.

I dropped myself on the field with grass that was blocked by pseudo shadows. I was no longer able to withstand the weight resting on my feet, was weak no longer know which direction I deserve to visit.

“Gua does not care anymore, the cave does not care anymore, the cave does not care anymore,” I said in the grass.

I threw all the letters that had accompanied me to walk far to find a place to shelter. I sat down, turned my head up, saw the beautiful afternoon sky. The view this afternoon was very contrary to what I felt right now, the universe seemed to be playing tricks on me by leaving such a beautiful trail.

The noise of silence interrupts, the ringing that signals a phone call from my cell phone, forcing me to divert attention from this self-torturing activity. I saw the name on my phone screen, immediately I received the call, lifted it up and brought it closer to my left ear.

“Lu where?” There was a male voice on the other end.

“Gua is tired, what cave should it be? Nothing else can cave datengin,” I replied softly, ignoring his question.

“Okay, relax first. Where are you now? Please, where are you now?” the question sounds frustrated.

“In a wide place, alone, a lot of grass and again ridiculed the same sky,” I replied.

I sighed, circulating my entire gaze, I heard the man on the other end also sigh heavily.

“Cave knows the place, diem you there! Don't go anywhere, okay? Dengerin cave! Don't macem-macem.” I didn't answer.

“Yes! There's diem! Lu dengerin cave, ‘kan? Hello …! Hello ..!” He cried out in panic, his breathing was hunting, I heard him walking in haste.

I turned off the call all of a sudden, ignoring all of the screams on the other end. I was down, my tears were not dripping, my breath was blocked, my chest was tight, it was painful, and other strange feelings that I had never felt before.

Long time I was like that, I roared more and more, but suddenly a big hand rubbed my back, defending me gave comfort. The shadow I could see as I lowered my head, I became more and more, shouting all my heart thump. Cussing at my every suck of life, he continued to comfort me, calming me down by clutching my body from the side.

With her burly body, she clenched my frail body, gently rubbed my hair that was already soaked in sweat, and I felt a sincere kiss she dispersed on my temples. He just kept quiet and said nothing, as if he was feeling the tiredness I felt.

There was nothing I could do but hope, under such a beautiful sunset view. I try to believe again, I try to hope again, may my life be as beautiful as this view.

May his life, his warmth match this heavy hand, his sincerity may be as sincere as all the attention this man has given.

This man who will make me realize the meaning of his presence, this tall, burly man who will give me a new life, this man who will grow strength in my heart, this man is Joseph Salim.