I WAS THE THIRD PERSON
The Forty Six
"But just lost the news of Mas Syafiq while I was thinking bad, it turns out that what happened was not as I thought. I am indeed not a Fura who can calm down and sincerely share. I'm full of bad thoughts. Is this a sign that I should avoid this kind of relationship," Shofi's inner self again churned in the middle of their dinner.
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At 21:05 APV Syafiq entered the courtyard of the house. He continued to ring the words of Fatir who asked him to repent for his lies and apologized to his two heresies.
Not going to Fura or Shofi's room, he went to his second room. Omar and Hana seemed to have fallen asleep with the lights on. He went to the bathroom and held a prayer mat. Meeting His Lord was the main thing he had to do after the encounter with Fatir enlightened him.
Shafiq raised both hands to the full of khusyuan, the implementation of the delayed isya prayer and continued prayer sunnah repentance.
As he made every movement with his mouth that continued to say prayers, the shadow of mistakes appeared in his brain to make his soul was washed away by the fading value of faith, he surrendered with regret. The deeper the tightness he felt the more steady each move he made, hoping the Creator would knock open the door sorry for him, the prayer that flowed in the heart was increasingly soft and slashing until the circle continued to force out of the fertilizer.
The sound of clinking seconds the clock continues to spin until the greeting is finally spoken. His face then turned right and left alternating with a tightness that had not subsided.
Shafiq raised both his hands up, the chanting of istigfar was said.
"Astaghfirullahal ladzii laa ilaaha illaa huwal hayyul qayyumu wa atuubu ilaihi." Syafiq continues to chant the istighfar with sincerity and regret.
(That is: I ask forgiveness from Allah for whom there is no god but He is All-Living and Stand Alone and I repent to him.)
Shafiq continues a do'a after.
"Allahumma anta robbi laa ilaaha illaa anta, kholaqtanii wa ana ‘abduka wa ana’ahdika wa wa wa’dika mastatho’tu. A’udzu bika min syarri maa shona’tu. Abuu-u laka bini’matika ‘alayya, wa abu-u bi dzanbii, faghfirlii fainnahuua laa yaghfirudz dzunuuba illa anta."
"Yes Allah ... You are my Lord. There is no god but You. You created me, and I am your servant and I am on your promise and will carry it out as I can. I take refuge in you from all the evils I have done, I confess you for your favor towards me and I confess my sin to you, so forgive me. Verily, no one forgives all sins but You ...."
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In a different place a body is thinking. She was the second woman who was forced to be a thorn in a relationship that was expected by 2 people but not expected.
He who is at the crossroads between continuing his relationship with many consequences must accept or he retreat with consequences that are no less strange.
His heart can not be lied to want to always lean on the shoulder of the owner of the heart. After many trials in his life, the presence of Shafiq is like a lamp that illuminates and warms. Although lately the truth is open about the existence of another heart owner, his heart does not want to move. He still wants to hold the heart ..the heart that belongs to him who has sown the seed firmly in his womb.
His mind does not accept. The thing that he hated so much became his destiny. Life seems to play tricks on him, this is said the bad side. But the good side whispers many times, the way God loves sometimes we can not guess. It is possible that from togetherness which is an unwanted sunnah will appear a lot of goodness.
Shofi's soul was worried .. what decision he would take. Moreover, a soul is increasingly perfectly formed in his womb. Is it fair for an innocent body to be affected by the faults of its parents?
Suddenly remembered the story of Siti Asiah conjured up Fir'aun who blatantly prevented the wife from worshiping and often tortured her. Siti Asiah never crossed to separate, she was patient until the end of her life until the blessing of patience she became one of the wives of Rasululloh Sholalloh 'Alaihi Wasallam in Heaven. And Shofi thinks that even Shafiq is not a despotic husband in matters of religion, he has enough knowledge as a priest. Although yesterday had lied, but Syafiq certainly can not be equated with Fir'aun. Fura the first wife is also not a hard and cruel figure that will complicate his life. Shofi kept thinking. Would he be proud to turn around?
And if he turns around with Fura's condition that he can't serve. It's not impossible there will be another Shofi. Shofi who will shift his position in the heart of Shafiq and fill the needs that Shafiq does not get. Things that even made him stale to imagine. No. .. This is not true!
Shofi, who is increasingly confused, recalls the speech of Farida's mother, her teacher during her teenage years. The advice to submit all problems to the owner himself when he is on the edge of despair. With earnestness Shofi got up from his seat to the bathroom, washed the members of the ablution and spread the alphabet. He fulfilled his istikharah.
A do'a was offered by Shofi afterwards ...
"O Allah, verily, I invoke Thee with Thy knowledge, I invoke Thee with Thy power and I ask Thee of Thy great grace. Verily, Thou art Almighty, and I am powerless, Thou Knowest, and I know not, Thou art the All-Knowing of the Unseen.
O God, when You know that if I am separated it is good for me in my religion, my life, and the end of my business, then decide for me, ease the way and bless me in it.
And if You know that if I am separated is bad for me in my religion, my life and the end of my business, then keep it away from me and keep myself away from it, determine for me whatever is best, then make me hide with him."
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