I Secretly Admire You

Episode 1 The beginning of Khairunnisa's Journey

Khairunnisa, often called Anisa. She is a village girl from a simple family who has a high spirit in achieving her goals. She is also an independent woman. From childhood, he was used to being abandoned by his parents.

His parents worked as a farmer. During Anisa's education at the first High School (SMP) she was entrusted to live in a family home, in a village that is quite crowded. The distance between the village and the village is about 3 km.

The rocky road has not been touched by the government, so getting from village to village takes a long time.

Just once or twice a month, Anisa's parents return from the garden to see her daughter's condition. Sometimes Anisa runs out of pocket money. However, what power, Anisa the less fortunate woman could only be patient.

It does not make her a desperate woman, when the holidays arrive, on Sunday she sent a message to the people of one village who happened to come down to the village, ask that his brother come to pick up, because in the village the phone network is still minimal alias still looking for the network when needed.

"Fate, patient Anisa is beautiful in time." Anisa could only murmur, the brother who was waiting to come to pick me up did not come.

"Where are you, brother. Are you busy?" Anisa can only be moody in the room.

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Until one day, the graduation announcement came out.

"Alhamdulillah. Yes, I passed." how happy Anisa was that day.

Anisa and her friends doodled each other until their white clothes look colorful. Don't forget they took pictures together to remember the day.

"Anisa, where are you going?" tanya Humaira and Dion Anisa's friends.

"You don't know yet" said Anisa.

"continue together at BAKTI High School, Yuk. We're together again there," bargained Dion with a faint style of gem.

"Dion, pray, yes. I hope we're together again."

"Oh, Nisa. Just make sure. Let's get in the car together to get the forms. Yes, not Humairah." Dion hit Humairah's shoulder who I don't know who he saw.

"What the hell, Dion? just hit it" Humairah said.

"Let's see what the hell.very serious?" tanya Anisa follows the view of Humairah who turns out to see Rama who is busy talking with his friends.

"Why, Dion?"

Dion lashed and again Dion explained his opinion after being persuaded by Humairah.

"What Dion said is true, Anisa."

"I have not been able to make a decision.You know for yourself the condition of my family and how hard my mother. I hope I can persuade my mother" Anisa told Dion and Humairah.

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Anisa returns to the village where Anisa was born with her six sisters.

Anisa, who plans to continue her studies at High School, decides to convey her intentions to her parents.

Until the day comes, Anisa also wants to express her wishes. Seeing her newly arrived mother from the garden, Anisa temporarily undoes her intentions and looks for the right time.

'May mother change her mind,' Anisa smiled to see Mother Romlah take her luggage out of the garden. There are so many fresh vegetables.

Anisa breezed into the kitchen washing dishes and cleaning up the intention of taking her mother's heart. Romlah's mother was impressed to see her daughter so diligent.

the next day Anisa thought to meet her mother who saw Mother Romlah sitting in front of a sewing machine that was outdated. But it still works well.

"Ah, I work first, cook, wash dishes and sweep, maybe with this your mother's heart will melt and change her mind, Hopefully," he murmured expectantly

Remembering long ago, long before he had permission to continue, but his desire was rejected by the Mother.

At nightfall, after dinner Anisa sat down beside her mother.

"Mother?" call Anisa.

"Why Anisa," said the middle-aged mother, seriously separating the dry chocolate that is considered bad with chocolate that is worth taking and will be sold.

"Emak, Anisa wants to go to high school." Anisa ventured to express her wish.

Mother Romlah fell silent and stopped her hands working. Laku, look towards Anisa. Anisa looked at her mother.

"Emak, Anisa can ya, continued High School?" repeat Anisa expectantly.

"What's? No!" the harsh repulsion of a mother made Anisa so disappointed.

"But, Mother. Anisa wanted to continue again," she expressed her desire, a sense of disappointment that was so deeply felt now.

"Anyways, I don't want you to continue your school!" push hard from Mother Romlah firmly.

"you're a girl, you're in the kitchen!" anisa's mother snapped with her eyes.

"But mother, Anisa wants to continue, when mother does not understand with Anisa."

Anisa cries out so badly as an expression of Anisa's disappointment at her mother's rejection. In her prayer, Anisa hoped that her mother's heart that gave birth to her was opened.

Anisa continued to look at the middle-aged mother's fingers picking and sorting out the dried chocolate harvest. Anisa also imagined what it would be if she only had Junior High School.

'Oh no way, ' Anisa's inner.

"I also want to be like the people out there who have a bright life, mother," he said.

Anisa's mother turned her head and stared intently at her daughter. Back to saying,

"Many students also return to their gardening village, Anisa. Some even came home as regular farmers. How's it? Some did not even finish college. There's also said school, Eh not until school.they're just crawling out there. You want that too? Yeah, would you? make money!" the middle-aged mother paid no heed to her daughter's cries.

"Not to look at outsiders.your brother, the Word. College's only semester three and quit."

"They stopped because it was good too. When Brother Firman asked for the semester money, the mother who asked him to return," Anisa protested with courage.

"You've been good at protesting, haven't you?"

"The fact is, isn't it, Mom? And Kak Najwa, still want to continue, but has been betrothed to Kak Fajar until they get married," said Anisa.

"But you are happy" said Romlah mother did not want to lose the debate.

'Where Mother knows they are happy or not.' Inner Anisa tang no longer dares to argue with her mother. Anisa's tears just escaped.

"Tomorrow you will come to the garden!" Said the middle-aged mother again seeing her daughter crying.

"But mom ...." With a rather soft voice he spoke again, "Anisa wants to continue. Let's just get to high school, Mom. All of Anisa's friends continue, Mother. It was only Anisa who was not advanced," Anisa continued to whine at the middle-aged mother.

"Anisa, listen to me! Mom doesn't want to know that. Anyway tomorrow the day after tomorrow follow mom to the garden. Your father's been waiting for us there." Romlah's mother did not care about his daughter's whining. Mother Romlah remained in her stance and view.

"Emak, why, anyway. Mommy doesn't understand?" Anisa stays strong.

"Anisa, it's not the mother who doesn't understand. But look at the facts. And mom won't, you're like that. You should also understand the circumstances and conditions."

"What condition, Mother, is not the provision of God arranged."

"You're smart, Mom." Romlah's mother saw Anisa.

Mother Romlah still on his stance and principles. It was as if his heart was not easily torn down by any temptation. For the middle-aged mother, "it has been able to read it is enough" It never occurred to her that just reading is not enough to represent for future life.

"Mom, don't you think about my future?" ask Anisa again.

Mother Romlah looked back at her daughter. "Mom is thinking about your future. Staying at home while learning to cook, so that later you can mate does not disappoint your husband and also does not make you ashamed in front of your mother-in-law. Understand you!"

Anisa grew sobbing hearing the word soul mate. Just imagine Anisa has not been able to at a very young age.

"Anisa, listen carefully. Once I say no, yes no."

Anisa's heart and feelings are broken and so disappointed. The mother who gave birth to her had actually buried her dream.

Anisa could only cry and could do nothing for now. Giving understanding for the moment to her mother, is just a waste, Anisa thought.

Anisa went from her place to her room and mourned her fate. Anisa thought about her unlucky fate.

Anisa keeps thinking about what she should do so she can get the blessing of her parents.

His heart of sorrow chose to face his heart to the owner who throws his heart. Anisa stepped up to take the water of ablution, washing all her face, as if the water of ablution calms the soul, until Anisa put a face as a body cover facing the owner of the heart to carry out his duties as a servant.

such a strong belief that there is still a God who will give clues to the problems he faces now. God knows best for him.

Actually, his parents are people who are quite capable in financing their children's school. However, because the thought factor of parents who are unstable is the biggest obstacle in the life of Anisa as a woman who has determination and high spirit.

Trying to reconcile in remembrance, adore and praise his acid. Tears endlessly hoping for mercy. Recollecting word after word that was thrown out. Instantly, tears escaped just like that.

"Oh Allah, can't your heart be tapped a little. Why would I have to experience the same thing?"

Anisa while looking at her face with great earnestness. He raised his hand with his lips flattened,

"Yes Rabb, if my destiny is for you to lead me still to the next level, at least give me a way to reach it, if my destiny is here, at least give me patience and sincerity not to be disappointed. Rabbi, I believe in you. Every difficulty there must be a way to prepare."

Anisa came back crying without a sound. The sobs that came out seemed so bitter to those who heard them.

𝙉𝙊𝙏𝙀: 𝙨𝙚𝙗𝙖𝙜𝙖𝙞 𝙤𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙪𝙖 𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙖 𝙟𝙪𝙜𝙖 𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙪𝙨 𝙢𝙚𝙢𝙖𝙝𝙖𝙢𝙞 𝘼𝙣𝙖𝙠-𝙖𝙣𝙖𝙠 𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙖. 𝙟𝙖𝙣𝙜𝙖𝙣 𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙖 𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙪𝙧𝙪𝙩𝙞 𝙖𝙥𝙖 𝙮𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙖 𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙠𝙖𝙣 𝙮𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙗𝙚𝙡𝙪𝙢 𝙩𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙪 𝙗𝙖𝙞𝙠 𝙗𝙪𝙖𝙩 𝙖𝙣𝙖𝙠 𝙠𝙞𝙩𝙖. 𝙨𝙖𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙗𝙪𝙠𝙖 𝙖𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙧𝙖 𝙖𝙣𝙖𝙠 𝙙𝙖𝙣 𝙤𝙧𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙩𝙪𝙖 𝙞𝙩𝙪 𝙡𝙚𝙗𝙞𝙝 𝙗𝙖𝙞𝙠.

𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙜𝙖𝙡𝙠𝙖𝙣 𝙡𝙞𝙠𝙚 𝙖𝙣𝙙 𝙠𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣 𝙙𝙞 𝙠𝙤𝙡𝙤𝙢 𝙠𝙤𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩𝙖𝙧 𝙮𝙖𝙖𝙖 𝙢𝙤𝙝𝙤𝙣 𝙙𝙪𝙠𝙪𝙣𝙜𝙖𝙣𝙣𝙮𝙖......

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