I'm the One who's hurting

Ratmi mbok

Ido staggered, lucky a hospital security benevolent deliver him to Ido's parents' house because he refused to be treated.

Ido seemed hesitant to enter the house of his parents, a house that has a million beautiful memories from he was small to mature.

Memories of his father and mother who loved him so much, but now all bitter.

Ido sat at the door of his house, he was crying like a child, he was tugging at his hair.

He felt very happy, everything that happened because of him.

If he had not indulged in lust, cheating would not have happened.

He caused his papa to die, then his own flesh and blood, and now his mama is like living a life of unwilling death, all because of his actions

"Human like me, O Lord I have sinned a lot" said Ido lirih

Mbok Ratmi who wants to sweep the yard to find Ido who is lying weakly in front of the door, he immediately calls his husband to lift Ido's body, and he will immediately call to her,because only these two old maids are still in this house.

All the maids had already stopped Risya from being able to pay their salaries anymore.

With painstakingly mbok Ratmi clean and treat the wounds on the face of the feet and hands of his foster children, his tears were shed, he felt sad to see the child he cared for became like this.

Ido groaned in pain as Ratmi treated Ido's ruptured lips

"Mr"

"Den Ido is up, want to eat? " ask mbok Ratmi softly

"No mbok, Ido belun hungry, thank you mbok" said Ido staring at the old woman who looked teary

"Why are you, son? mbok does not want to interfere in your affairs, but as a parent who once nurtured you, mbok sad to see your situation now.

Isn't everything that happened to your family enough to open your eyes, son? repent before the door of penance is closed.

while the breath is still in the body, do not let you realize your mistake and want to repent when the end approaches.

It is never too late to realize your guilt and repent, for Allah is merciful.

Pray for your father and ask for His forgiveness, the prayer of the children of Sholeh will be in Ijabah.

to your mama, no matter how much she hates you, she is sure that deep in the recesses of her heart she is deeply hurt and still loves you.

please forgive her, indeed her blessing is divine blessing and her wrath is divine wrath,.

Your paradise's under your mama's feet.

If you can't make your parents happy at least don't make them hard.

do you understand son??

this is a message from a parent who is soon in his life, may love you like a child mbok himself.

Please reflect on everything mbok said.

Your meal has been prepared at the table, eat and rest so that your condition is better" said mbok Ratmi patted the back of Ido's hand and then stepped out of Ido's room.

After Ratmi's death, Ido cried.

He beristighfar then took ablution after that he prayed Isya. berdzikir and spliced tahajut prayer. Ido prayed and begged for mercy, He regretted all.

Mbok Ratmi who peeked out from behind the door smiled and wiped away his tears

The next day

in the court of religion, the trial of divorce

Sofie has been present at the hearing accompanied by her adoptive parents and her biological parents and her lawyer.

Ido was accompanied only by his lawyer.

Beyond suspicion Ido admitted all his mistakes in front of the judge and granted Sofie's divorce suit so that the court process runs smoothly only the verdict and the issuance of divorce certificate.

After leaving the courtroom, Ido's lawyer approached Sofie's lawyer and saw them talking something, and Sofie's lawyer expressed the intention of Ido's lawyer.

Prakoso feels objection, but Sofie convinces his papa if Ido will not do anything to him, given this in public places and in religious courts.

Sofie walks after Ido's lawyer until they reach a corner of the room, where Ido is standing on his back to Sofie

"What are you asking to talk to me about, I think that in the courtroom you sincerely admit your guilt and grant my divorce, is all just your good sense? if you think that way I feel sympathetic and will come back to you, you are wrong.

For me it's all over" Sofie said firmly

"I don't have such thoughts, but I understand if you're prejudiced like that. I am a human being who is wrong with you.

This time I sincerely want to apologize to you, forgive me for giving you a bad life, even worse than hell.

Forgive me for my behavior, we lost our son, I from the bottom of my heart apologize to you.

Maybe I've done too much wrong to you and I'm not sure you can forgive me, but I'm relieved to tell you whether or not you forgive me.

I pray that you will find your happiness, goodbye for as long as you do. "said Ido stuck out his hand, but Sofie only saw no intention of welcoming Ido's hand.

Ido smiled awkwardly and then pulled back his hand.

"Sorry and Goodbye" Ido smiled and walked away

Sofie for the first time felt sincerity in Ido's speech, he looked at the back of the man he had loved away.

"I've forgiven you, I've explained everything that's happened to my life.

no matter how bad you are, you've been a part of my life, hopefully you can fix your life, goodbye"

sofie said in her heart.

#**If we have not been able to make our parents happy, then never make them difficult and sad.

Their Ridho, your creator's ridho and their wrath is the wrath of your creator

Hopefully we can both make our parents happy while they are still there, not to regret when only the tombstone where complaining.

May both our parents always be healthy and in the shade of Allah SWT. aminnn**

Sorry for the update, it's been overnight because the author is full order and must sauna a day overnight in front of the oven, hehe

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always be healthy and do not forget to be grateful

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