I'm Second Also Injured

Worst day

Life is so strange and unfair. One time life catapulted you sky-high, and the next time life threw you so hard on earth.

"I beg you to listen to me Meta." Saif pleaded with Meta to stay and hear his explanation.

But Meta was no longer able to hear Saif's explanation, he just needed to go home.

Saif, who was also frustrated with the situation and especially saw the response of his lover who was more shaken, could only sit dumbstruck on the floor with his head lowered. Saif also deeply regrets the drastically changed circumstances.

Meta wanted to stand up from his sitting position on the ground but Meta's legs suddenly limp. He turned his body looking for a grip to stand so as not to fall. What did Saif say...? His wife....? That woman?.

Meta felt dizzy, as if all the blood in his body was being absorbed out. His hands were cold and besides he could not feel anything. His shoulders were tense, his chest was heavy. His lungs would not function, he could not breathe.

His head felt foggy, unable to think anything.

His eyes were blurry because of tears

His ears could hear nothing.

He turned around slowly, walking absentmindedly away from the place while talking to Saif. Just walking a few steps, his legs were too limp to support his body and he fell back on the floor. His head was against the wall. His eyes stared blankly.

His wife... Saif...

Those words kept swirling in his head.

Then many things sprung up in his memory.

Remembering that when they were friends, when they were at Sila's house Saif received a call. At that time he received a careful call, a call that he said from his mother. It was actually his wife.

And the reason why Saif calls her is always at night so she's free to call her.

And why when going on a date always go to a place that is not generally a person who is dating because he always avoids the crowd that might have met his family or people who know Saif.

Why did he realize it now?.

Why should Saif?.

Meta pressed his palm against his chest.

Be ill.

Meta's crying voice was more audible because he could not help it.

Hearing the cries of Meta who broke again Saif also realized from frustration and rose to approach Meta.

Meta who does not know how and do what. He could not go home in the current state. With trembling hands Meta opened his small bag and tried to find and grab his phone.

In his mind he only remembered the name of his friend Siska. Meta tries to find Siska's name in the phone contact, because of her trembling hand she cannot find Siska's name. Pain, panic and despair he felt so he did not find what he was looking for that repeatedly his phone fell from his grip.

Saif is getting worse who sees the state of Meta like that.

Saif now sits next to Meta. Feeling worried for a moment afraid of rejection from Meta. Saif extended his right hand and did not argue. Meta looked at the outstretched hand, then looked back into Saif's eyes. Quite trembling he welcomed Saif's hand. And a few seconds later he took off Saif's hand and tried to take back the phone that had fallen on the floor. " Sikka... Siska" The name that is now called Meta with his lips are moody. Saif who is still trying to calm Meta by talking "Meta calm down..," he asked.

Meta who keeps staring at the screen and looking for Siska's name on his phone does not flinch anything with Saif's speech.

"I'll take you home, but I beg you to calm down, control yourself." Saif who doesn't know how else should calm Meta down.

"No. I don't want to go home. Siska...I. just Siska." Meta does not speak clearly that can only mention the name Siska.

Because he could no longer bear to see the state of Meta, Saif took the phone from Meta's hand. And understand the desire Meta who wants to be with Siska.

Meta looked at Saif and tried to say his wish "I want to go to Siska's house" Meta said in a short.

Saif again held Meta's hands, this time Meta did not try to let go of Saif's. The warmth of Saif's hand grip flowed into Meta's body, filling his heart and soul, also making his heart feel squeezed. Was this the last time he could feel Saif clasping his hand?

Then suddenly Saif pulls Meta's hand slowly but confidently, pulling Meta closer to him, pulling Meta into his arms.

Meta who was still shaken and crying, stunned, stunned and completely did not dodge or refuse. He let Saif wrap his arm around his body. He lets Saif hold her tightly, just like when Saif hugged her before. Meta lets himself drown in Saif's warmth and his tears keep flowing.

Saif also hopes that time can stop by then.

" I never regret knowing you" Saif murmured. " Trust me."

Meta gulped and his tears grew louder.

Saif loosened his embrace and looked at Meta's eyes. " Just promise me you'll be okay" he said.

The still dazed Meta could not say anything.

" Meta," call Saif. "Promise."

Meta bit his lip. Saif's face looks blurry in his eyes because of blocked tears.

Finally Meta nodded.

" I'll take you to Siska's house."

Saif looks for Siska's name on his Meta phone.

After the second call Siska just picked up Saif's phone.

Siska thought that the one who called her was Meta. " Yes Meta... What's up?,"

"Hello. It's Saif."

" Yes Saif what's wrong?." Siska was quick to notice that it was Saif.

Without speaking for a long time Saif immediately asked. " You're home, right?."

" Yes." Yeah."

" Please sharelock. Meta wants to go to your house and I'll deliver it."

" okay."

Siska felt that there was something strange because it was now nine at night why Meta wanted to go to his house at this hour. It's getting weird because Saif's tone also feels desperate.

" I'll drop off Meta now."

" all right. I'll wait for you."

" Thank you."

Saif terminated the phone call.

Saif picked up a small bag that was near Meta. And ask Meta to stand up with his help. When Meta had stood up and was about to walk he pulled Saif's arm, "I don't want to hear anything."

Saif just nodded.

Saif understands if Meta does not want to hear a longer explanation. Saif decided not to continue the conversation, so as not to hurt Meta even though his lover was already very hurt.

Saif kept hold of Meta's hand as he headed for the car parked in front of the guest house page. Meta did not feel that Saif was holding his hand. His hands are too cold.

Saif intended to open the car door for Meta, but Meta refused to sit in front beside Saif.

Meta switched to the car door that was in the back. Saif can not force Meta's will, because he is well aware if this is indeed the case.

The Lexus RX 350 that drove 60 km/h was quiet, like there was no one inside.

Meta whose mind was still empty sitting in the back seat could only cry and his tears would not stop. He was unable to see Saif sitting in front of him, even though from behind he could only see the back of the man who had broken his heart.

While Saif was driving with a feeling of unease, he more often saw Meta from the rearview mirror. Meta who tries to wipe his tears every time he comes out and Meta does not look ahead prefers to look to the side. And it made his heart hurt and could not bear to see the condition of Meta.

Siska awaits the arrival of Saif and Meta on the porch of the house. When he got the call, he was in the room and was going to sleep. Saif's phone seemed urgent so it made Siska think to wait in front considering Saif himself had never been to his house. In addition, if the condition of Meta is good, of course Saif does not ask for the location of his house.

Although Siska does not know what happened but he knows this is not a good thing.

Almost twenty minutes he waited finally there was a car that stopped outside the fence of Siska's house.

Siska went out to the fence and opened it. Saif looks out of the steering wheel, while Meta is invisible.

" Hey Saif. where..." Siska did not see the back door of the car open. Siska saw the figure coming out of that door was Meta.

Siska just widened her eyes looking at the scene, Saif and Meta were sitting apart. Siska believed that something had happened between them. " Where are you from?" said Siska to melt the atmosphere.

Saif just shrugged his shoulders and gestured for Siska to look towards Meta.

Siska toggle to see Meta. The puffy eyes were clearly visible on Meta's face, Siska could only wonder what this was.

Meta said nothing but silence. " Let's go in." Siska who approached Meta and took his friend's hand, walked into the house.

Saif followed behind them.

After being inside the house Meta asks to go into Siska's room. Saif is waiting in the living room.

After Siska delivered Meta now he met Saif who sat and looked dreamy.

" Why is Meta like that?." Siska asked something natural when she saw Meta coming in a state of chaos.

" I've hurt her." Saif's answer was no less desperate. " I beg you to be with him tonight" he continued.

Siska did not ask further because Saif seemed reluctant to tell her what happened.

Saif stood up and said goodbye to go home. Siska intends to deliver to the terrace of the house. " You don't have to take me, please take care of Meta. Before I go home can I ask for your phone number?." Saif took the phone out of his pants pocket.

" Don't get me wrong, I'll call you to ask Meta later."

" All right." Siska did not think long and wrote her number to Saif's phone.

Saif also just realized that Meta has not been alone to his parents. " Oh yes please also tell Meta's parents if Meta is staying here now. I don't know his parents' number."

" Let's relax I'll call Meta's parents." Siska insists she will do just that.

" Thank you very much Siska."

" It doesn't matter. You be careful on the road."

Saif steps away from Siska's house.

And when the car engine was on Saif still saw the house Siska, where her lover was in a state of slump.

Now he has only one wish,

the wound he gave to quickly disappear from the girl.

Even if it means giving up his whole life.