I'm Second Also Injured

Gender in tabuh.

Inside his office, Saif stood in a large window looking at the dark day. Looking out, the sun which since morning illuminated all nature, now replaced the lights of the buildings around the plantation.

With both hands put in his pants pocket, though silent he was thinking hard about how Meta.

Saif was only accompanied by music on a television screen on one side of his office wall. A special Chanel just to play music, the room was just the sound of music.

He had to rethink everything.

Damaging all parts

which I have been forming lately

Focus on things that don't make sense

I think growing up

it never meant easy

Yeah, I'm used to underestimating things

No matter how others feel

Hiding my pain

in various situations

But what's missing

it won't really disappear

No, you can't let go

Because that's part of you

which will strengthen you

Accept your shortcomings

I'm not going to fight what happened.

I have a wound from where I came from

But I'm not gonna change it

Even though I can repeat it.

I will not hide this beautiful wound

I've been too hard on myself.

Maybe that's why I feel like I'm in hell.

(translated "Beautiful Scars" Maximilian).

Saif thinks however tomorrow he should see Meta.

To give peace of mind to himself and especially to Meta who worries about him. His laptop screen was still open, from the window where he was standing now Saif stepped onto the desk and sat on the chair looking at his laptop screen.

The screen was filled with Meta photos that he had taken before dating and photos of the two of them they took when they left together. Saif in the middle of his busy work always sets aside time to move the photo files on his phone to his laptop. According to him, the photo will be safely stored on the office laptop.

Before the phone is deliberately dispensed fortunately all photos have been successfully moved.

Saif stared fixedly at the lone Meta photo with a typical Meta smile, a spoiled smile that made him unable to forget Meta for a second.

"Meta Kirana I love you, what should I do so that you do not get hurt for my selfishness." Saif speaks for himself in front of Meta photos.

Meanwhile Saif does not let all the family know the figure.

He closes in tightly on his relationship with the girl he currently loves.

In this way Meta will not be dealing with his family, because Meta is never wrong. Saif is aware that it was he who put Meta into the black hole.

After turning off the television screen Saif walked to the desk and took the car keys and left the office.

The clock in his car showed at 19:11 Wib, Saif drove towards the house which was 1.5 km from the office. Unlike usual before returning home he always stopped by his parents this time he chose to go straight home to his own home.

The car entered the garage and Saif entered the house through the garage door, the door in the garage connected with the middle room of his house.

He went upstairs to his house. During this time he chose to sleep in the room that was there, at least for the last two years he always took a place to sleep there.

From inside the room there was the sound of people walking closer towards his room. Saif knew who it was, there were only three people living inside his house.

The door of the room opened and there was a female figure standing. " There's Mama downstairs looking for you" he said short.

With a lazy sense Saif replied "For let alone looking for me looking for a commotion again."

The woman was ignited by Saif's words." It's not that you're looking for trouble with your own family. You're the one who made it this way." His anger that a week ago was ignited again.

Without replying to her words Saif headed downstairs and left the woman still standing in her room.

Mama Saif is in the dining room. "You still come home so late" said Saif's mother. " Have Ma not had to fuss over the same thing. I'd rather work than be at home." Saif who tries to put a damper on words.

And for one week her mother always advised Saif to remind her that he was not a teenager. " You're the only boy in the family so you have to take responsibility for the family. Stop playing around because there's something you have to take care of." Saif's mama's voice is slow but gets into the root of the problem advising most parents.

Saif breathes out. " Mama also knew from the beginning how my relationship was."

" Mama knows but try to get rid of it, just think about Eriska."

" Nearly five years Ma I survived only because of Eriska, but until when I was in this state." Saif said, better understanding what happened in his life.

Mama Saif saw the difference in her son's attitude, there was a figure who wanted Saif to protect someone whose own mother did not know. As a parent mom Saif also knew that her son was attracted to the figure.

" Saif there's Eriska who needs your attention and affection more." Mama Meta said full of hope.

" Eriska won't lose me Ma..."

Saif talks straight if he won't abandon Eriska.

Her mother got up from the chair, "You're old enough. So you don't have to teach you how to be a good father to Eriska."

Mama Saif leaves Saif's house to go home with Saif's cousin. Saif followed behind his mother.

" Mama's coming home" said Saif's mother who was riding in the car.

Saif stood at the door of the house, a female figure came to him. Before the female figure spoke up that Saif did not want to hear and before they fought again, he chose to enter and return to his room.

Eriska is a five-year-old girl.

And Eriska is Saif's son.

The woman who approached him was Raras, the mother of Eriska who was none other than Saif's wife.

The big problem is in front of Saif, and it is not easy to eliminate the figure of Meta who has been present in his life. The figure he loves sincerely and he finds love in Meta self that Saif never got before.

Tomorrow it's time to meet Meta, the girl who got into trouble because of him.

You will not know the changes that are happening in your life, unless you are planning it yourself.