I Leave It To You

father's Will

Zahra PoV's

It's been almost a week since

the Mysterious guest came to my house Father still hasn't asked me to talk about the match . I began to assume that my father would not match me to the man named Adi Nugraha. It's possible that my father canceled this match because Fara had talked to my father if I didn't want to be married. I don't know what I obviously don't want to know about this matchmaking.

As usual after the dawn prayer I helped mom and yu Jum in the kitchen . Not a hard worker . But if I wasn't in the room to help, I'd be angry - angry with me . So let me not be angry - angry I have to help even though I am only a spectator because I do not cook just see what they do.

Today is different than usual. Fathers who usually pray congregation in the mosque today pray congregation at home. This made me wonder what was wrong with my father so I asked my mother.

" Mum tumben father kok do not pray in the mosque, what is it Mom father kok pray at home?"

" You're not feeling well, Ra, so I'm making chicken porridge for you"

" Why not buy it anyway Bu , let's not bother making it ? "

" The father asked to make his porridge Ra, kangen said with mother-made porridge"

I nodded my head and intended to go to my room but my mother's words stopped me.

" Ra please take this chicken porridge to Dad's room."

" Loh dad eating in the room don't eat here with us ma'am ?"

" yes.. Dad asked about his head dizziness he said earlier"

" Oh... Yes then , here ..where the porridge let Zahra take to the father's room"

Mother handed me a tray on which was a bowl of chicken porridge still blowing hot steam and a glass of warm sweet tea. I immediately stepped my foot into my father's room carefully so that the porridge would not spill. In front of Dad's room door, I knocked on that door .

Tok

Tok

Tok

" Well, this is Zahra yah"

" Yes just go in not in the key"

I opened my father's room door with one hand carrying a tray . I stepped towards the table and placed the tray on it.

" Yeah .. Breakfast is yuk."

I said as I walked up to my father's bed and sat on the edge. I helped Dad to sit down and I put a pillow behind his back so he could sit comfortably.

" Still dizzy well . "my question and answered with a nod by father.

"You want Zahra bribe what eat yourself well?"

" Bribe's just dizzy his head."

I bribe father little by little, father ate it while closing his eyes maybe because his head feels dizzy it makes him lazy to open his eyes. Did not feel a bowl of warm chicken porridge made by the mother exhausted unceremoniously .

" Drink first and tea ." I put a glass of sweet warm tea on my lips. Dad drank it a little bit and pushed it slowly with his hand

" Dad bought headache medicine at the pharmacy what Zahra took to the doctor to check well"

" No need ..dad just sleep for a while so that later the dizziness goes away on its own "

" Yeah then I just rest, Zahra came out first yes yeah want to help mom again" I said while helping dad fix his body position so he could sleep comfortably. I haven't been able to step out of my calling room to stop my steps.

" Ra.."

" Yes yeah .. What's up?"

" Sit down and I'll talk ."

" Yes yeah .. But it's better for me to rest first yeah well. later if I've been better then we talk until satisfied."

" Your Ckh if told parents always argue . I'd like to talk to you for a minute Ra .., I don't know until when you're old.." I haven't finished my words I've already cut them off.

" Ih. said what the hell yeah.. Instead of talking about how to like that. mending Zahra interra to the doctor just aja deh. to check. let's know what the disease is." I said as I frowned . Frankly I was afraid of what my father said . I felt like I was told to listen to my father's last will. My body just wants to hear it. I sat my body on the edge of my father's bed and I shook it slowly.

" Let's go to the doctor let Zahra come back" I said, forcing my father because my heart is so agitated at this moment.

Father still did not budge from his position and kept his eyes closed tightly . I heard a long breath from my father.

"huffs... Iyaa. later I will go to the doctor if the father's body is rather strong .. Dad still dizzy not strong brought the road ."

" Oh, if so, I rest first"

" Yes dad will rest but before that please listen to the father's talk first not to be cut into pieces if the parents say that" said the father while glaring at me .

" Yes .. Yes .sorry yeah .. Daddy wants to say what the hell is so serious ?"

" Remember .... Don't cut it. If you haven't finished talking." Said father while looking at me sharply . I just nodded my head. Dad sighed and then started to close his eyes again. I just sat quietly looking at the pale-looking father's face.

" Ra... father's duty now ..only stay ..find you a good husband.and marry you . I don't know how old I am until how long... I'm afraid I've been called the one above before I could get you married..

Father spoke with a staggered word - sendat . I who listened to my father's words could only endure the tightness that began to fill my chest. I could not feel my eyes start to look glassy and a drop of my tears started to fall on my cheek . Dad resumed his words after having paused his words .

" b .. I hope..you want to accept this matchmaking .. Dad doesn't love you.... Precisely because I love you... That's why I made this match .". For a moment, Dad paused his words before continuing.

" His name is Adi Nugraha .he works as a teacher ..in a state Elementary School .he is kind. courteous ... And .which makes dad like her is .. Because he is a Hafidz Qur'an... Father from long ago...

I want to have a child who knows the Qur'an.. Father wants ..later in the hereafter.father is put on the crown .. on the head of the father. ,Ra.. . Dad please .. You can fulfill this father's request... You want to fulfill my father's request to accept this match... "

I could only nod my head and the word of rejection I had put together for me to say to my father was like being swallowed up in my esophagus