I avenge your game

Love And Hate

After I parted with Angga many things that I did not know at first became know everything sipat and behavior that all this time I closed my eyes as if I did not see everything.

One by one my friends exposed Angga's behavior behind my back even I didn't know he had two Ig accounts that he would have used to cheat on.

Said I was stalking his account he's the other one that we definitely don't follow each other, anyway, there are photos of the two of them just not much then I stalked into the account of his girlfriend Aka affair he had a lot of pictures of them both and after looking around it turns out they have been dating for 1 year more.

And all that time I didn't know anything as if I was living in a cave with my stupidity, the two of them went to the places we had planned to go when I came home later they went to the beach, swimming, camping and watching the ball together.

Once upon a time with me he never wanted to wear a couple shirt with me for tacky reasons, he did not want to beach for fear of being dragged by the waves but everything he could do with his affair

"Your all night why did Cit cry so fast? When asked, I didn't answer even sleep."

I told a long story to my roommate in Malaysia and he grabbed me and calmed me down.

"When someone isn't right for you, God will keep you hurt until you're strong enough to let him go."

"You're great Cit because you're out of a toxic relationship and it does take a long time and it's hard to get out of a relationship like that, it's okay you're beautiful, it's okay, good and smart you deserve the best of the best."

All this time I did not realize many friends who love me they always tell me that he is not good for me but I always close my eyes and ears because I believe more with that begundal guy.

Sometimes I cry and more often daydream insomnia and often shut myself up, my mother was relieved I had separated from that person my father also encouraged me not to be too bad, my mother was relieved I had separated from the person, but the wound was too deep and it made me depressed I ate a lot but my weight dropped drastically.

My friends were so worried about me and advised me to go to a psychiatrist because they thought I had gone too far, eating and laughing but my eyes were empty they also knew that I was quietly crying every night.

I didn't go to a Psychiatrist because I didn't dare, I decided to keep myself busy by working, reading books and sleeping enough to calm me down.

And the woman who cheated on me followed my Ig uploading their screams as if intentionally to worsen my mood! Am I jealous? Of course it cannot be denied 5 years is not a moment there is still a sense left in my heart but now it is frozen.

If Rara says do not show my sadness in front of them because it makes them happy, so I always share things that are fun even though it is only in Social media.