Hubbak Ghali, Yes Habibi Qolbi

Submerging Sense

"Qian, are you still sleepy? Or tired of being legalized by Ustadzah Ratih earlier? If yes, you just sleep first, then I will wake you up, if it has arrived at the campus," said Ustadzah Rani a little nervous.

"I didn't cough," Qian replied. "I'm still aware of what I'm asking" he continued. "Will Ustadzah, so my brother-in-law?" ask again.

"Oh, Sister Qianzy is always looking for trouble. Yes, Ustadzah Rani answered yes. Although it is true that Rani's ustadzah likes Kyai, they certainly can't be together! Ustadzah Rani already has a candidate," Inner Wisdom. 

Qianzy still looked at Ustadzah Rani with a deep gaze. Wishing Ustadzah Rani an answer in accordance with what she expected. 

"I applied for Ustadzah Rani for Mas Abid. I don't know until when I'm alive and I don't know anymore either. I just want Mas Abid to be happy and get a good life partner like Ustadzah Rani" Qianzy continued.

"Did Ustadzah Rani accept my proposal?" continued. 

Ustadzah Rani really can't say anything. Everyone in the pesantren already knows if he has a future husband. Although Ustadzah Rani likes Abid does not mean she also has to accept her sister's proposal. 

"Qian, do you know what you're saying?" ask Ustadzah Rani.

"Very!" qianzy replied.

"Ustadzah, I know very well and I'm aware of what I'm saying. I just want to see my brother happy, and it's certain that Ustadzah Rani can do it" Qianzy said.

Ustadzah Rani saw how hope was in Qianzy's eyes. Not wanting to give her false hope, Ustadzah Rani asserted once again that she had a future husband. 

"Qianzy, listen!"

"I already have a husband. So it is impossible that I should marry Kyai" Ustadzah Rani said.

"Ustadzah knows, before there was a yellow janur curved and the legal word from the ruler, Ustadzah Rani has not been owned by anyone. Except God and the family. Did my brother not enter into calification to be your husband?" Qianzy is still hopeful.

Her tears trickled down every mention of her brother. Unfortunately, he went to his brother. Thinking before that she would live alone and alone, Qianzy apparently had an older sister and she did not want to lose her most precious treasure.

"Qianzy. The marriage between me and my future husband was set long before your father died. Indeed, at that time I did not understand what marriage is over arranged marriage," said Ustadzah Rani.

"MasyaAllah, Kyai is very good. Maybe there are a lot of ukhti in pesantren and banned there like Ustadzah Ratih, maybe also Hikmah, it also craves a husband figure like Kyai Abid" he continued.

"I don't want to dream that high Qianzy. I already have a potential husband and I cannot accept your proposal. Forgive me." said Ustadzah Rani with a little regret. 

Qianzy just silently looked at Ustadzah Rani. Not forcing, but he has a feeling that Ustadzah Rani and her brother must have feelings for each other and they must be self-serving because there is a wall of arranged marriage with others. 

"Okay, just suppress your own feelings. Come home later, Ustadzah doesn't have to pick me up. Wisdom too, if you are done, you can go home first. Assalamu'alaikum!"

It just so happened that we arrived in front of campus. Qianzy went straight out and closed the door a little hard. 

"Wa'alaikumsallam warahmatullahi wabarokatuh,"

"Ustadzah, is he angry?" ask Hikmah. 

"Yes, he's angry. But no problem, his anger never lasted long. You can keep an eye on him while on campus, do what he wants. Finished later, you go straight home, yes ...," replied Ustadzah Rani gently.

Hikmah. "Assalamu'alaikum, Ustadzah,"

"Wa'alaikumsallam warahmatullahi wabarokatuh," 

"We're back at the boarding school, yes, sir,"

"Yes, Mommy." 

Ustadzah Rani stared at Qianzy's steps who seemed to rush into the campus. Then, touch the digital prayer beads and return to beristighfar. 

"You even know what I feel for Kyai Abid, Qianzy. But why don't you understand the reality that already exists, if me and Kyai Abid can't be together,-" 

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"It sucks! I know that I like each other, and I support their relationship. Why is their ego still high? No Mas Abid, no Ustadzah Rani, no fighting!" Qianzy's upset. 

He sat next to the campus garden before classes began. Come Wisdom with slow steps.

"Why did you come here? Your class is far away, why did you come here?" ketus Qianzy's. 

"Mbak Qian, I'm just saying, if it's about Ustadzah Rani and Kyai, Ndak don't let me get dizzy. Isn't that-"

"What?" sulut Qianzy interrupted Wisdom's speech. 

"Ndak so, I didn't go to class first. Assalamu'alaikum, "after saying goodbye, Wisdom just left. 

"Wa'alaikumsallam!"

Qianzy went into her class. Sitting quietly and observing his watch waited for his lecturer to come. Still thinking about how to unite Ustadzah Rani with her brother someday. 

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The class was over, Qianzy went to the cafeteria about to fill her stomach. While walking to the cafeteria, he met Andreas. He decided to abandon his intention to go to the cafeteria. 

However, when he turned around, Andreas saw him and called his name. 

"Qiani!" call him.

"Hash, he's again. That's so annoying! I can see her, " said Qianzy. 

"Hey, Honey. Where you going? Eat yuk!" bring Andreas closer to him. 

Qianzy turned her body and now faced her former lover. With a forced smile, Qianzy refused subtly.

"Thank you, but I'm full" she said. 

"Well, today I want a deal" Andreas said.

"Cih, treaties. Since when do you have more money? I usually treat you at that time. Never mind, I'm not poor until you have to treat me, move you!" 

Crazy pushed little Andreas and went to leave him to the cafeteria. As usual, Qianzy's lunch wasn't much. He only bought bread and tea boxes to shake his stomach before he went home and ate at home. 

"Darling, why do you only eat bread? What if I buy you a meatball?" Andreas hasn't given up yet. He sat in front of Qianzy and sat very close.

"Lu want me fat? Far-away cake! It's so cute, it's not comfortable knowing!" ketus Qianzy's.

"Darling-" 

"Stop calling me baby!" qianzy pointed at Andreas' face. "We are beginning to grow up, yes. You know we've got nothing to do anymore. Why do you still call me darling? As long as you know, it makes me uncomfortable, it will only make everyone misunderstand us" he continued.

"Mending, you're a long way from me. Ngeselin!" 

Before Qianzy left, Anjani had already photographed the two of them. At that time, Andreas sengata approached Qianzy's face to make it look very intimate in the photo. They conspired to separate Qianzy from Husain. However, the two do not have a clear relationship.