Hubbak Ghali, Yes Habibi Qolbi

What Happened to the Heart?

Last night, Qianzy was just quietly glued to the living room. He thought of something to make Anjani speechless. However, Anjani has hurt her brother, and she cannot accept that. 

"I have to how? If you directly accept the proposal of Ustadz Husain, it will not be exciting before seeing Anjani injured," he murmured. 

"But, said Mas Abid, making people hurt his heart was not allowed. Ahh, how, huh? This Abid is too good, huh!"

"No! I'm not Mas Abid, I'm Qianzy! The oppressed Qianzy will never take it for granted!" qianzy said excitedly, clenching her hands. 

Geck, tock, tock…. 

The sound of the door on the knock. "Assalamu'alaikum," so did the greeting voice of a man Qianzy was very familiar with. Abid has returned home from out of town again, cheerfully, Qianzy immediately runs to welcome her brother's return.

"Wa'alaikumsallam, Mas Abid is home!" irascible. 

"Mas Abid, I miss you!" greet him with a clear face. Even hugged him tightly. 

"Bring the snack. Want to eat, or still want to hug, huh?" abid said, showing the hand he was carrying. 

Abid still had to give an explanation to Qianzy. He thought, if this Qianzy is the spoiled type of girl. Although there may be no desire, but Abid does not want Qianzy often hug him. Because, if others come to know and interpret others, then the fall will be slander.

"How did you learn today?" ask Abid. 

"Good, today is also Ustadz Husain's story as well," replied Qianzy busy eating. 

"Alhamdulillah, hopefully .. Ustadz Husain can make you much better," continued Abid. 

"Amijin," 

That night, Qianzy managed to sleep well. Waking up the morning prayer is also not difficult to wake up. Even Qianzy was also able to wake up on her own, then pray at dawn and do the santri routine in the morning. 

"The matchmaking of Ustadzah Rani accelerated. He said it had something to do with Ustadz Husain's closeness with Ms Qianzy, right?"

"I heard from several sources that Ustadzah Rani hastened her betrothal, because she was not happy with Kyai, and that was because .. Ustadz Husain and Ms. Qianzy,"

"Whose sister Qianzy is, anyway? Kyai's sister from Jakarta, isn't she?" 

"I think, if indeed Ustadz Husain prefers Mbak Qianzy in the appeal of Mbak Anjani, would be excited again. Because, in terms of physical, indeed Ms. Qianzy is more beautiful and more fashionable than Ms. Qianzy,"

"But, yes, Ustadz Husain preferred Ms. Qianzy. You know better, Ma'am Anjani is more sholehah, more religious too."

Some of the students kept talking between the three of them. Of course making Qianzy uncomfortable, the santriwati's words continued to ring in her ears. 

Once he walked until his feet entered the water gallery, not to mention he hit the barrier of the holy boundary of the small mushola which is in the female boarding school. 

"Do I not deserve to be loved by someone like Ustadz like Ustadz Husain?"

"What's wrong if I'm part of his life?"

"I can also study religion vigorously to be like Ustadzah Rani and other Ustadzahs" Qianzy was heartbroken. 

Cempluk!

Qianzy's leg went back into the water until her leg was injured. Seeing Qianzy in pain, Ustadzah Rani who was passing by helped her. 

Ustadzah Rani is not alone, she walks along with one of the santri who is always with her. None other than Ustadzah Rani, her name is Aqila. He will replace Ustadz Rani after Ustadzah Rani is married. 

"Astaghfirullah hal-adzim, Sister Qian. Are you all right?" ask Ustadzah Rani. 

"My feet are wounded, there's a lot of blood, Ustadzah. Can Ustadzah help me get red medicine and bandages?" pinta Qianzy grimaced in pain. 

"God, your skin is white and very clean. It is appropriate if you are called the daughter of a family of Chinese descent. You've been exactly like them, even though Kyai is a sweet black." Ustadzah Rani even joked. 

While on the road, they meet Fathan Muzzamil and try to help him. However, it was rejected by Qianzy. This is not the first time Fathan was rejected, it is the umpteenth time Fathan experienced rejection from Qianzy during his stay in Pesantren. 

"Why do you prefer the help of Ustadzah Husain over me, Qian? Remember, Ustadz Husain has been betrothed to Anjani, what can you do?" upset Fathan. 

Hearing that made Qianzy even more upset, he pushed hard on Fathan's body and asked Ustadzah Rani to immediately drive him to the infirmary. 

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Rani's Ustadzah painstakingly cleaned the blood that was in Qianzy's leg wound gently. While Qianzy's mind is still traveling around Fathan's words if Husain has been betrothed to Anjani

"Sir Qian, is this sick or not? Why don't you express yourself when I pour alcohol on your wound?" ask Ustadzah Rani. 

"I want to go home, Ustadzah-" Qianzy replied suddenly. 

"Why suddenly? What's the problem?" ustadzah Rani. 

"I'm sorry I'm an ustadzah" Qianzy said. "I am present in all your relationships. I want Ustadzah to marry my brother, Mas Abid. And I seem to like Ustad Husain, too" Lirih Qianzy. 

"But he's already in a match with Anjani. Then, their parents must have arranged everything well. If I can't get Ustadz Husain, will Ustadzah marry my Mas Abid?"

Qianzy's question left Ustadzah Rani dumbfounded, then let out a long sigh. Conditions that forced Ustadzah Rani to accept the match. Not because of Qianzy's presence in the pesantren. 

"Sir Qian, I actually don't understand what this Sister Qian is talking about?" tanya Ustadzah Rabi's.

"If the problem of matchmaking between Ustadz Husain and Anjani, it has been established since the beginning. But Ustadz Husain has yet to make a decision. I am with Kyai ... That's where it might be!" inexplicably. 

A few years ago, Anjani and Husain were married. However, Husain has not yet given an official decision on the matchmaking. During that time, only Anjani continued to advance, but not with Husain. 

"So, Ustadzah Rani can't marry Mas Abid?" ask Qianzy.

Ustadzah Rani shook her head with a smile.

"When I really want Ustadzah Rani to marry Mas Abid. Ustazah is very kind to me, I think Ustadzah is a woman who fits Masku," Qianzy disappointed. 

The thing that stuck in Qianzy's heart at that time, made her lazy to meet Husain. In fact, from the beginning Qianzy knew that Anjani was a girl who had been betrothed to Husain. So he chose to skip the lesson when Husain was waiting for him in the study as usual. 

Qianzy re-entered her room after her wound was bandaged by Ustadzah Rani. His mind was chaotic, agitated and languishing.

"I knew that Ustadz Husein had been betrothed to Anjani. But why does my heart hurt so much, huh? Didn't yesterday still get used to it, huh?"

The pain could even Qianzy feel to the very bottom of her heart. At first, only wanting to take revenge on Anjani, by accepting Husain's proposal. However Qianzy did not know, that her heart had been enamored with Husain. 

He threw his body into the bed. Hugging the portrait of his adoptive parents. Then go to dreamland. It does not feel like he woke up in Ashar time and missed the dzuhur and ashar prayers. 

Tring …!! 

The sound of alarms rang out in his ears. Because at that time, he was wearing a handset to sleep soundly. Abid is rarely at home. 

"Woy, hent. Alarm sounds? What time is it? it looks like it's still bright outside eh," he muttered while looking at the screen of his phone. 

"16.02? Heh, 4 o'clock more? Why didn't anyone wake me up? Surely Ustadzah Fitri and Ustadz Husain will be angry with me for skipping the study,"

"No! I have to go out and take a shower."

The time is very mepet, all santriwati have started to teach after the ashar prayer. Qianzy immediately salat ashar alone in the hall.with eyes that continue to observe, Ustadzah Fitri already put on a creepy face. 

"Campus! Original, after this I must have been punished! Shucks indeed! Really, fuck off!" abjad Qianzy in heart.