Hubbak Ghali, Yes Habibi Qolbi

Not Ready to Lose (again)

"That's why did anyone come here? Make riweh!" pissed Qianzy. "Gua feels really cool when separated from tuh lakik. Why is he also present again in cave life," 

Qianzy to knock her own head because lazy to meet her ex-lover. "That's your language again. It was good, yesterday the road was using me. Hadeh, now you appear again,"

Qianzy hates the past coming back. For him, the past will never be the future. Do not want to either, the presence of Andreas became an obstacle for him to migrate. The thing that he had built up hard to reach for the crown of heaven for his father and brother in the afterlife later, did not want any stains at all because of the presence of someone from the past. 

"Qian, comein. I'll wait for you here. Wisdom is coming soon. Better, later you stay away from Anjani and the man, hm __" said Ustadzah Rani. 

Qianzy nodded. Say hello, then enter the registration room. Shortly after, Hikmah came and Ustadzah Rani immediately asked him to follow Qianzy. 

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Time passes too fast. After registering and here and there complement the interests of the campus. Qianzy had also started to get busy with her campus activities until she rarely met and chatted with Abid again. 

That afternoon, Abid came home from the wedding of his friend's sister. He deliberately brought a boiled egg which he brought from the event specifically for his sister. However, when Abid came home, he only realized that his sister had begun to be busy with her lectures. The Literature Department Qianzy had taken had indeed kept her busy with her duties. 

"God, I forgot that Qian was busy with her lectures. So, what do these boiled eggs want me to do? I purposely brought her home to eat. Forgetting that there are many eggs at home" Abid murmured. 

While sitting, Abid saw a portrait of his sister with him the other day. Seeing her smile made Abid miss Qianzy. Wanting Abid, Qianzy majored in religious education. However, Abid realized that he had no right to interfere in his sister's affairs. 

"I'd better keep myself busy. In order not to always miss Qianzy, "Abid immediately refreshes himself with a bath. He placed the eggs on the living room table. 

Seven minutes later, Qianzy returned home from her college. Not to forget, Qianzy was used to saying greetings before entering her house. As he passed by the living room, Qianzy noticed that there were boiled eggs there. 

"Eggs?" muttered.

"Whose's? Uh, mateng anyway?" 

"May I eat __" 

Without asking for ownership of the egg, Qianzy immediately ate it. How to eat Qianzy like a greedy person, twice the bite and the boiled egg has been exhausted. 

"Eh, bushel. Drag very!"

"Water, water, water …," 

Without throwing away the eggshell on the table, Qianzy went to the kitchen to fetch water. At that moment Abid finished bathing and was about to take the eggs. 

"Loh!" 

"Loh, loh, loh! Where did my boiled eggs go?" 

"Well, you have legs? Where to exfoliate yourself anyway. It's __the shell is there, but where does it go?" 

Abid looked under the table and chair, still did not find the boiled egg. Until Qianzy came and doted on him. "What is Mas Abid looking for?" tanyakanya.

A DUG!

Abid's head hit the leg of the table. "Ash, be careful, dong! Let me take a look-"

" … Next time don't do that again?" qianzy rubbed her sister's head. 

Seeing his sister in front of him, reminded Abid of the late Umi whose face was almost similar to Qianzy's. Not felt, tears seeped into Abid's cheeks. Qianzy stopped her hand rubbing when she saw her brother shed tears. 

"Why? Is it really that sick?" ask Qianzy. 

Abid shook his head. 

"If it doesn't hurt, why are you crying? Did I do anything wrong to Mas Abid?" qianzy continued with teary eyes. 

Abid did not answer. He only looked at Qianzy with tears continuing to flow. Seeing her brother's tears, made Qianzy's heart hurt. It was as if he felt what his brother felt at that moment. 

"Why are you crying?" ask Abid.

"Mas Abid cried, so I went along crying __" 

Abid hugged Qianzy for a bit. Then ask him to sit with her. Abid says he misses his parents. Also, Abid misses Qianzy because of her busyness that cannot bring the two together. 

"So longed Mas with me, to cry? I'm too busy, I'm sorry. Should I not continue my studies?" Qianzy feels guilty. 

"Astagfirullah hal'adzim, what is this? Why are you talking like that? Demanding knowledge is a must for every living thing. Mas doesn't want your education to stop halfway, Qian," Abid said. 

"But we rarely meet. What if we don't have time to spend together, but one of us is gone? I don't want to lose the person I love anymore, sister," Qianzy said.

"Hush, what are you talking about? It can't be like that" said Abid. 

"But God is always like that. God took away all the things I love" Qianzy said. "Mas, I won't until God separates us. Anyway, until old age, we must stay together even though each of us has a life of its own. 

"Be careful with prejudice, be careful with words. All of that can be prayer" Abid said.

"But the reality is like that. My current wealth is Mas Abid only, I don't want anything to happen to Mas Abid. If God asked me to choose between me or Mas Abid who left first .. then I would answer, I'm the one who will go first," Qianzy sobbed.

"Enough, what are you talking about this Qian? Don't talk like that anymore. If you go too, how about it?"

Rani's Ustadzah, who was still outside, overheard their speech. When Qianzy went into the house of the ustadzah Rani had indeed told Qianzy if she would come soon to bring food for him.

"They've only been reunited in half a year. But their love really moved me. Instead, the matter of Qianzy's ex-lover who came a while ago, I'll save it from Kyai first. Fear, even then there will be problems."

That afternoon was used by Qianzy and Abid to spend time together. They cook and have lunch together. Not to mention, that day also Abid who intervened accompanied Qianzy to study.

Throughout the lesson, Qianzy always focused on paying attention to all the knowledge conveyed by her brother. Unlike when with Husain, Qianzy even protested, ate at study time, and did not pay attention to the material that Husain conveyed.

Coveting the figure of an older brother Qianzy had wanted for a long time. Now, only his brother will be the motivation in his life. For the sake of her brother and the late Abi, Qianzy will change her life pattern. On the other hand, she also did not forget her mission about matching her brother with Ustadzah Rani. Will Qianzy succeed?