Hijrah Records Zeira

Chapter 12

His hand reflexively held his head, the dizziness that he felt now when the video was played

starting from chat with DIA even to mini vlogs he made with DIA and all his photos including those without hijab

"please kindly remove all of that!" reply to chat from new number with same person but with different number

0822xxx

"*sa**that I can't add*"

"what do you think about that video, isn't it? "

"*l**o know I'm tired of editing that video*"

"huh I miss all that dib, indeed you don't miss the same all of it especially me"

"gue says delete, how hard is it to delete"

0822xxx

"it's not that easy, baby"

"WHATEVER LO"

You have blocked this number

after blocking the number, he took a deep breath and then switched to opening a group that only existed ana and aza, then pressed the icon of the phone

"assalamu'alaikum warohmatulohi wabarokatuh youngest" said the two when the phone was connected

"wa'alaiqumussalam aza ana" he replied in a lethargic tone

"h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-w-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-h-? very weak voice lo"

"lo why ze If there's nothing to say youngest" said aza

"hiks hiks I'm tired of ana aza" he said, sobbing

"hey what's going on, zei? tired why? because college work is too much? instead of the usual crying because of most tasks tuh ana, why now so lo too"

"huh zaa don't joke first" said ana admonishing aza "is there a lo zei, why do you cry? did mag lo relapse? or what is it that zei, jagan makes us worried" asked Ana worried

"hiks DIA "

"HIM? " ask both at the same time

"Yes, he's talking to me again"

only 4 words but aza and ana already knew who zeira meant

because this isn't the first time Zeira has told them about him but it's been over and over again

"what?seriously he's doing lo again?don't joke around zei"

"seriously zei? her again?crazy huh, what's the try he wants from you? even you have changed the number but why he can still chat elo, even though your number is not many who know unless we are the same mother"

"gue doesn't know for sure he knows where my number is but the problem is he sent me a video"

"THE "VIDEO? what video is zei?" ask them both in unison

"he sent me videos that he summarized starting from my chat with him, mini vlogs that I used to be with him, even photos of my photos that do not use hijab" clearly with tears streaming down her cheeks

"astaghfirullahaladzim! crazy huh tuh people, why try to send you rich that"

"gue really doesn't know anymore, it's no use at all with my changes now, you feel really guilty just squirming all my photos that are still in him, he said,I'm tired of not knowing what to do"

"zei hey, you can't say that, you can't insult yourself and there's nothing in vain about your changes now"

"That's right zei, you can't say that anyway it's not entirely your fault"

"gue was so tired, I don't know what else to do, he tried to shut himself up as if I disappeared from him, but unfortunately it was only for someone else but not him"

"Yes zei we know all your struggles! huh it feels like I want to non-jok his face right now, really human is not the heck that child, can not really appreciate the decisions of others, not really respect the decision of others,fortunately killing the sinner and the prohibition of God if not hmm I am sure now he has met the angel malik same caterpillar in the grave!"

zeira muttered to a chuckle at the annoyance of her two best friends

"hehe didn't get to it so many times, you can really make me laugh"

"yes our benefits will be to support and complement each other"

"AGREE!!"

"haha yes I know and for that thank you very much yes"

"Alhamdulillah if you have laughed again like this, will be beautiful back again"

"hehe huh, thank you for listening to my story with the same problem and the same person"

"definitely zei has become an obligation for us, not only lo doang but the three of us”

"everyone has their own past, but one thing you have to remember, don't let your past be your weakness for your current change"

"really zei and lo still have me and aza, stop insulting yourself like that or I'll intervene alone mutilate tuh son"

"hahaha yes I promise, thank you brother the point is thank you for always being there for me"

"yeah, we're ze too"

"huh y'all must be busy with college work, huh? sorry to interrupt" he said feeling bad

"come on zeira we're not other people"

"hehe yes then continue the task first, and thank you very much"

"no problem zei anything for you"

"same dear"

"i closed the phone"

"dude bentar"

"Why Na? "

"you sure it's okay, right, calm down? "

zeira nodded though neither of them knew "yes, thank you guys"

"okay sleep well do not think too much"

"or do we want to do the same? "

"it's okay, don't worry"

"yes, yes, tomorrow we continue on campus"

"alright then assalamu'alaikum youngest"

"wa'alaiqumussalam" the phone call ends and Zei returns to his laptop and books

zeira rubbed her tired face a few times and then closed the laptop in front of her and went to bed,

now he feels much better than before after telling his two best friends he already considers brothers to him

slowly he closed his eyes towards the dream world and forgot for a moment the burden of his mind

huff today is quite tiring and draining of energy and mind

My message to everyone who is currently in the process of HIJRAH: Everyone has their own past, be it the usual standard or the highest level, but don't make that your reason for change,

Never listen to what others say, example you really change, why not kayak first? Why are you gini now?why aren't you as I know you?don't listen to all that because we each have the right to change, the more we grow up the more we will understand the real life

and the point is never to hesitate and be afraid to change into a better person, because God knows what is best for His servant

from me to you who read.