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Dirjeon.28
"Lo's really a hobby to eat ice cream lately. Or has this been your habit ever since I said it?" We should be dating for 3 years today. Why did I say gini?
Yes, because that is the fact. After being the same I was a few months later Laras disappeared. And until she gets back, there's no breaking up between the two of us.
Until that day. The day that I was the same Laras decided to be friends as an ex.
I scooped the ice cream "Gue likes ice cream because it turns out that ice cream is delicious Ras, ice cream is very calm if you are badmood again."
"So now your favorite food is eskrim?" ask Laras.
I nodded quickly. I like ice cream. Well really like it.
"What taste?" ask her again.
"Gue likes chocolate the most. I don't know what makes me like that feeling. The point is I fell in love for the first time with ice cream because of the chocolate taste."
"Some know!!"
"Any? Strange why? Nothing wrong with ice cream?"
"Yes, that's weird. You like ice cream because Diandra, right? Not because you like it! Lo kangen Diandra isn't it Ga?"
I'm speechless. "Lo what the hell is Race? Don't make up stories. Are you jealous of Diandra??"
Laughing barrel "Heh dodol! I should have gone to Lo. You're not jealous to see Diandra getting closer to Nagra's sister and getting farther the same you??"
I take my eyes off. A lot of people walk by in this shop. I remember the first time I had a cold war with Nagra after Laras disappeared. Since the incident at the haunted house, my relationship with Diandra has returned to normal. Yes normal!
Like an ordinary friend. Diandra's getting further and further along with me. We just say hello. Sometimes every time there is a pr I try to ask for the same answer to him. His answer is always the same! 'My book has been borrowed by Fabian.' either on the basis of Diandra's request or how. It's always Fabian who uses Diandra's book. And I ended up borrowing Fany or Vanya's book.
"Woy lo bengong keep going anyway? Since we broke up with Diandra there has been no progress at all. There he is just getting further away."
"Why do you support me more with Diandra anyway Ras? Why don't you support Nagra for Diandra? He's Brother lo. Even if it's just a step."
Laras shook his head quickly "Gue knows something about Nagra that you never know Ga. But sorry I'm just as Nagra can't tell this to you."
I nodded in understanding. Maybe a family issue.
"Why don't you try her again? If you love you fight!!"
"He's happy with Nagra Ras, I don't have to ruin his happiness anymore."
"Heh dodol!!" Barrel threw a tissue at me. Luckily I didn't get into my ice cream bowl.
"Lo remember that? In party 67 SMA Bangsa kemaren Diandra sing what song huh? Do you remember the day we broke up? The day Diandra sang the song that I finally understood. The day you are also aware of your own feelings. Ah, that hasn't changed! If not, it will not move forward! When do you want to get to this hah? Strong in front of Nagra's brother. We are in 3 Ga class. You will be very much the same as him. You honestly feel the same way about him. He knew that you were in love with him. You fell in love with Eskrim because of him."
The shadow of what happened that day goes back to my memory...
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"Hi night everyone. I'm Diandra Wijaya. My friends call me Andra. He said if he called Diandra an extension. So for those of you who don't know me, you can call Diandra. Please don't Andra ya." said the girl with her trademark smile.
Tonight that girl was too perfect in my eyes that this frenzied burem. I should have realized from a long time ago that Diandra was too perfect to let go. Although my relationship is not as good as it used to be, and my High School period is not serious anymore. I am quite happy until now because I can still see Diandra smiling even though it is no longer because of me.
"Gue wants to sing a song. I want a duet anyway. But surely no one will want a duet with me??"
"*Gue wants to woy!!"
"Ah Diandra is cute, cute, singing, playing guitar. It was a dream ah!!"
"Kok Dirga can ya release a girl as great as him??"
"Gue so Dirga nyesel 7 derivatives*."
Diandra fixed the position of the mic "But don't do it, I want to sing myself for now." again Diandra smiled.
Ever since I was away from me, Diandra has been smiling a lot. He likes to smile at everyone passing by or passing by. There are even a lot of guys from my generation and the upper generation trying to find Diandra. But when they found out there was the fierce tiger Nagra they all retreated slowly. Me included.
"Gue has been confirmed by MC. We're starting to. Make the other fall in love with people but love you clap one hand, you will definitely love this song.."
Diandra began strumming the strings of his guitar slowly..
"Surely you guys will directly julid-in me. Who said 'wah experience yes Ndra. The experience of love clapping one hand yes Ndra.' the answer is yes gais. But believe behind it all I'm grateful to be able to know him was even a part of his life even though it's only a moment."
"Armada beware of falling in love.." Everyone applauded. Me included.
I have good intentions
Let me reveal it to you
The incident was back in my head. First time Diandra shot me. For the first time I was shot with a girl in my life.
Wish you would be
Big plans in my life
"I want Dirga to be my husband in the future. Until forever I will be Dirga's dirga. Until that time stops my life." I remember those words I read in Diary Diandra.
But you said "Go there"
You don't want to see yourself forever
"Gue is tired Ndra see your struggle! You're not tired of what? You stop chasing me!!" Those hurtful words came back to my head. The words that Diandra is now making are far from me. Far from my reach.
Watch out for falling in love
Love for myself
Don't let me be your match
You hate too much
Hating this me
Watch out for falling in love with me
I smiled smirkingly at the lyrics of this passage. I have fallen Ndra! I fell in love with you. I'm alone. I fell in the hole without you going to get me out of it. I want to let me be alone here. Because I used to tell you to be alone here too. Sorry I'm Ndra..
**I have good intentions
I have revealed it to you
You keep saying
You don't want to see yourself forever
Watch out for falling in love
Love to me
Don't let me be your match
You hate too much
Hating myself this
Watch out for falling in love with me
Watch out for falling in love
Love to me
Don't let me be your match
You hate too much
Hating myself this
Watch out for falling in love with me
(Awas in love)
(Love to myself)
Don't let me be your match
You hate too much
Hating myself this
Watch out for falling in love
Watch out for falling in love
Watch out for falling in love
On my**
I left in front of the stage. I walked straight without knowing where I was going. It turned out that without me realizing I was walking into the music room. The fateful scene. The place I hurt Diandra.
"Nedra guesseel. I'm sorry. Sorry if I just realized everything. I just realized that it was you I wanted. Not the other one. Sorry I'm Ndra.." I sat in the doldrums where Diandra was crying in silence at the time.
"Gue kangen lo Ndra. I miss everything about Lo. I miss your chatter, bring it to me. The appeal of your spare change to me. All about you I miss.."
"Gaaaa.." Someone patted me on the shoulder. I'm surprised there's a Baras here.
"Sit there yuk, there's something I want to talk about." Laras led me to sit in the front garden chair of the music room.
"I don't mean-"
"Yes Ga, I understand. I knew from the beginning your feelings were no longer for me. I know all that Ga, I just need a little more time to be able to make sure you feel the same way yourself." The barrel touches my soft hands.
"Ga, you can reveal everything to Diandra now. I think we're better suited. Yeah no, huh? I feel so relieved now. You finally realize your own feelings."
"I'm sorry." That's the only word that can come out of my mouth.
"Heyy what the hell. Don't apologize, I'm not sorry. It takes a long time to realize how we feel. Can I be honest with you?"
I looked at Laras in wonder. Is there anything he's covered up from me?
"Gue likes my own upperclassman when in Singapore yesterday. At first I thought it was not like. Just an ordinary admiration. But over time I realized Ga, my feelings for you have long disappeared."
"So how are we?" ask me slowly.
"Gue thinks we can be good friends. You can still share with me about whatever it is. So that ex-friend. How's it?" I looked at Laras doubtfully. "Lo sure you don't papa?"
Laras nodded smiling "Gue is not papa. I'm doing fine. Very, very good.." I smiled "There is a judgment that is not the situation is bad even good.." we also hugged no longer as a pair of lovers. But as an ordinary friend..
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"So you still want to stick here for Diandra?" The barrel broke my daydream about Diandra and that day.
"Gue what is Race? I beg him to ask him to come back? My speech race was too painful for him. There's no way he's gonna come back to me again."
Laras snorted annoyedly "Where the hell was Dirga that I knew first? Who never stops until what he wants is achieved? Ah you are so weak!!!"
I rubbed the hair Barrel "Gue try it! My doain. I don't know if I can get Diandra from Nagra. Nagra is too perfect than me."
"From tomorrow you have to make a truce for Diandra." said Laras with a laugh.
"Anjey is a ceasefire like a war."
"You try to get near Diandra. I guarantee he still has the same taste."
I was silent for a moment. The birthday of SMA Bangsa was a few months ago. Does Diandra still like me?
"Lo sure? That song he sang a few months ago."
"Gue is sure 100% even 1000% if Diandra still keeps the same taste."
I scooped up one last scoop of my ice cream. "So where do you want to go to college after this?"
"Gue picked it here anyway. I want to live here. Lo himself? Are you sure you want to get out of town? Why don't you go to college here? Same with your friends."
I closed my eyes for a moment "Gue's not sure exactly. But if Diandra's getting any further, I'm sure I should get out of here. There are so many wounds I have done here."
"But life is not only about Diandra Ga, there are many memories of Junior High School until you are here. There's even about me, right?"
"There are some things you can always remember in life. But there are a few things you should take deep, and slowly erase them from memory. I just have to tell her my feelings. I need to be away from him. Maybe with that I can lead a normal life without love to him after meeting him again later."
Laras nodded trying to understand or he tried to accept my decision. I have to talk to Diandra. I should be able to reveal everything to Diandra.
Before everything about you was really far from my reach.
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