He's my Happiness
DEPRESSION-11
'If it is not desirable to be thrown away, do not keep it but still get torture and humiliation.Perhaps the best thing is to open a new sheet'.
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Finally the tired day came, I had to deal with a vile father against his own son.
I just got home papa, of course I don't dare say it's my home, while the place to stay has to pay.
Slowly I walked, actually deliberately let not be too careless to get into trouble and torture.
"Here you".
I just went inside the house, it turns out papa is already in the guest room, maybe papa is waiting for me?(to vent his anger).
"sit".
I immediately obeyed what papa asked me not to take my precious time.Papa immediately looked at me hatefully, maybe?.
"What do you work for?you think papa can't live you?you think papa doesn't have that money?".
I just keep quiet lazy to serve papa who is being ignited emotions.While papa is getting angry because I just keep quiet.
"Why?you need money?uh ha?".
Papa immediately threw a pile of red money towards my face.I nimbly caught it.Lumayan😁.
"Take it.Take it all.You should never ruin papa vero's self-esteem".
Papa just slapped me hard for no reason.I just smiled proudly to see my brave father to his biological son.
"Ehem.(take cigarettes to smoke)...previously I would like to thank you for giving me pocket money that I have not received since the age of 5 years.So this is my pocket money for 12 years which is always cut and not even sharp given a dime.Oh yes the rest I give as my food and shelter money during this time.If still less ask your wife".
Papa who heard that directly slapped me harder than I've ever gotten so far.See fresh blood flowing at the corner of my lips.
I was lazy to argue straight to the room with still holding the money given by papa, I cooled my mind and my heart while packing all my clothes into the school bag, not much but enough,I'll buy new clothes too.
I'm waiting for tomorrow to come.The day I'm going to open a new institution and forget the dark past here.
I hurried to get a knife and go to the bathroom, this is the favorite part of me, slicing my own hands with a knife.When my game is not finished, I still want it again.But, I still want it,papa's at the bathroom entrance and seeing everything I've done.
Of course I will not care.Toh he also always tormented me more than this.I smile proudly also very satisfied when blood flows from my hands and it is also seen directly by papa.
Papa who couldn't bear to take the knife out of my hand and hit it far out of reach.
"YOU'RE CRAZY VERO.WHAT ARE YOU DOING?WANT TO CUT YOUR OWN HANDS?HA?".
One cry papa can make me cry bitterly.Baru this time for 6 years I tried to hold back the cry before him but this time noah why I can not hold it.And only this time also papa care for me though it in the form of anger.
"Why pa?wh why?papa kan seneng loa vero tormented.Vero want to join mami aja.Vero do not want to be equally papa.Why the hell papa hate the same vero.What vero do sampe papa hate the same vero.Vero there is wrong ya papa, papa, papa,vero apologized.Vero just want to ask for love from papa all this time what is it.It would not torture vero for a day papa can not...
If you don't want a kid like vero,vero will go and follow the same mami.Let papa happy as long as vero is not tormented.Kasih vero freedom pa.Vero also want to be a person who is generally happy to get parental affection.If papa can not give it all why papa still wants to keep vero...
Vero also wants papa dateng pas rapot division to take rapot vero although briefly vero also already seneng.Bak even papa more affectionate kak reina and kak rendo than the same vero son papa own papa never want to hear the explanation of vero time papa vero law...
Is vero not papa's biological son?what do papa's heart only have mama tata, kak reina, kak rendo and papa's treasure?where did papa put the vero?hearted papa?haha probably never will be!...
Maybe papa just considers vero an unlucky child, not useful, stupid,*******, not stupid and not polite.Papa do not know why vero became a person papa callin,vero just want to steal papa's affection even though only a grain of rice vero already seneng kok,vero also want to protect themselves vero from punishment and torture papa, papa,mama tata and stepbrother vero.Vero are also tired of the torture and humiliation you give, even vero is no longer able to withstand all this...
Maybe you think vero is strong, but vero is also human pa,vero also has the weakest side.And the weakest side of vero is a humiliation papa throw to vero.Do not papa kira vero strong because not crying when papa law.Vero can also be rasain pain pa.Sick from physical, inner, heart, mind, mind,mental vero also wants depression.Thanks papa has been taking care of vero all this time".
After saying it at length vero was immediately unconscious and vero recognition was able to make a drop of alno tears flow even if only a drop.
"Son.Gue just don't want kayak lo child born from my seed.Lo was born because of an accident so you don't pantes get affection from me".
Alno really has no heart at this time.She put vero in bed with clothes that are still wet.She went straight out of the room not caring about her own biological child.
For alno it is up to vero to die or not, as long as vero can repay the debt that has been done to him.
Wasn't he?not the debt of money referred to only at that time fani was the one who took the seeds from him.
(FLASH BACKS)
