Halal Lover

The Part 51

Calm Yourself

Since coming home from the hospital it feels like this self is destroyed without a handle. The exam after exam I passed was something very heavy. Especially when I know my future son is not helped.

I seemed to be walking without direction not knowing where I was walking with my legs slowly starting to run out. Have I ever done anything that hurt someone before? Why did God give me a trial that again made my sane brain melt. I could feel nothing but the fact that it seemed like I would not be able to be happy, my happiness as if it would continue to be disturbed.

The day after coming home from the hospital I spoke to Mas Gaga from heart to heart. I want to calm down. Mas Gaga finally reluctantly allowed me to go home from home not asking for separation from him.

I have been in the village for a month now. I gradually began to be able to mengikhlaskan lose my future son. I was also recovering from the trauma of losing my baby and the shooting.

Dashing kept watching me from afar. Sometimes I send messages to see how I am. I know the Bravery Mas really wants me to calm down, so it's not every time you call me.

During this one month I regularly visited the boarding school, I also always asked Abah for advice on household problems that I was facing. A person who can be trusted and can always make me keep thinking positively.

Abah always advised me to see my husband immediately because if I leave the Bravery Mas too long it is not good for our marriage.

I also regularly visit the Kinar house. My sahabar kinar, always there for me, always encouraging.

This morning I came to Kinar's. Kinar was taking a shower, as usual I was waiting for him in the room. Kinar's phone rang, I ignored it, but apparently just kept ringing, I started to feel noisy. If it keeps ringing who knows the important phone. I took Kinar's phone, I was surprised there was a photo of Mas Guntur plastered on the screen of Kinar's phone was making a vidio call.

I smiled, Oh so it turns out you two are hiding behind me. I answered Vidio's call from Mas Guntur. Sorry, dear Kinar, your best friend is sassy, hehe.

"Assalamualaikum," I said as I waved my hand.

Mas Guntur was immediately surprised, "Waalaikumsallam," he replied slightly stammered.

I saw Mas Guntur was at Mas Gagah's house and at that time was in the dining room. I'm very memorized.

"Cie .. hayo you got caught,"My grandfather.

Mas Guntur face immediately met with red, Mas Guntur changed the direction of the camera to the rear camera.

Deg, my heart beats so fast when I see the face of the man I love plastered on the mobile screen.

My husband, Alhamdulillah, I am grateful to see the Bravery Mas in good condition. It seems like Mas Dagah does not know if his face is now being shot.

I reflexively ended his vidion call. I'm holding my chest.

"Mas, Adek misses,"My mummy shrieks.

Honestly I miss Mas Gagah very much, I just realized that I love him very much. I missed every moment I did with her from waking up to falling asleep again.

My mind is currently recalling all about the Dashing Mas, about the household of the two of us as well. I've read a book and I remember one last sentence in it: if you want to be loved, then be prepared to be tested.

Preparing to be loved is a long journey that is sure to tire the body, but nourishes the conscience. Preparing to be loved is the romance of life between you and Him. Preparing to be loved is a bit of sacrifice as long as the breath flows.

Kinar came out of the bathroom. Instantly I woke up from my daydream. I glanced at Kinar, Just watch out for you if you don't want to open your mouth about Mas Guntur. I let Kinar dry his hair first then polish his face with the powder and smear his lips with liptin.

The phone rings again. I looked at Kinar, Kinar took his phone and looked at me awkwardly.

"Thank you, Thunder, right?" Ledekku while smiling obliquely.

Kinar seemed surprised by my words, he turned off his phone and approached me.

"Nay, it's not what you think it is" he said, brandishing his index and middle fingers.

"What do I think, I've been quiet." I saw Kinar's face start to panic.

Kinar finally told me that at first it was because of the Bravery Mas who asked for help Mas Guntur to call me, asking for my news. Questioning daily. Mas Gaga did not want to ask Kinar directly for fear of misunderstanding, so shifted his duties to Mas Guntur who happened to be still JOMBLO. Until it finally continues to this day.

It is fitting that Mas Gagah does not contact me often, it turns out that Mas Gagah knows my daily life through Kinar. According to Kinar Mas Perky just wanted me to really calm down.

I'm sorry, I'm worrying you. I'm not a good wife, but it really traumatized me. I was afraid that at any time Daddy Mas Gautah came to the house and came back to insult and slander me.

I finally told Kinar that I was determined to return to Jakarta, in addition to longing for my husband, I also did not want to continue to be a bad wife like this, he said, left home for so long.

"When are you going back to Jakarta Nay?"

"God the day after tomorrow"

Kinar frowned, "Next week alone."

"Why should it be next week?"

"Yes .. yes I still miss"

Kinar's answer was very strange, but I tried to weigh in again. But maybe not until next week because it's so long in my opinion.