GRAPPLES
Not for You
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_Didn't it feel heavy to carry it alone?_
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Shasha got up while taking off all her socks. She saw her husband who was still sleeping, but today was his first day in the office after one month of their marriage. Shasha poked Givar in the cheek with her index finger.
"Bunny's? You're not going to the office?" Ask Shasha. Givar muttered softly, "Tomorrow again."
"Why not be angry with you?" Ask Shasha again. Givar opened his eyes while holding his wife's index finger to stop teasing her.
"I'm scared, yeah. If Papa is angry, don't blame me," Shasha said then passed to the bathroom. Givar just stared at his wife's back for a moment and then closed his eyes again.
After the shower, the woman called the food delivery service. While waiting, he went out to the front yard.
His hands were stretched out and he closed his eyes. I felt the fresh air in that place.
The place is still located in Jakarta, but the complex is a little cooler and beautiful. There are only a few houses there.
However, Juan bought the land at a great price. Givar chose the location to be a place to live, so that Shasha felt calmer.
The dark brown iris circulated her gaze. There are a lot of flowers in the yard. Shasha saw there was a water hose. He chose to water these ornamental plants.
Shasha turned to the left, precisely to a neighboring house with her. There was a couple who were chatting. The two looked to be about the same age as Shasha, so they were also a young couple.
The woman who was with her husband turned to Shasha. He waved his hand while smiling widely.
With a cheerful smile, Shasha also waved her hand.
Not only the neighbor who was on the left, Shasha also saw a couple on the right of her house. They seem more mature than him.
Her husband is going to work. The woman who was pregnant gave a kiss on her lips. Shasha immediately turned her eyes away with her already flushed cheeks.
Even though she was already married to Givar, they never did anything. Though Givar and Shasha do not have awkwardness, considering they have been friends since childhood.
However, if kissing.it might cause awkwardness.
A motorcycle with a large box on its back, stopped in front of Shasha's house. The woman's attention was distracted by the food deliveryman who had arrived. After paying, Shasha went inside and served the food to the plate. There was a sound of steps down the stairs. Shasha.
Givar looked well-groomed with home-grown clothes. The man was wearing a long-sleeved black shirt with knee-length jeans.
Givar sat on the chair while watching his wife. Shasha did not feel bothered at all with that gaze. He continues his activities.
Givar smiled without taking his eyes off his wife.
He teased her, "You're so beautiful today."
Shasha gave a moment's glance towards Givar, "Love."
They had breakfast together.
Givar tucked Shasha's hair behind his ear, "You're happy with me?"
Shasha looked at Givar then nodded quickly, "You're happy with me?"
Getting the same question, Givar also nodded with a smile.
"Tomorrow I go to the office, if you don't want to be alone at home, I'll call Amel to come here" Givar said.
Shasha shook her head, "Father, I'm alone. Amel's probably busy, too."
"Related gapapa?"
Shasha nodded.
They sat on the couch and turned on the TV. There is no interesting event, Shasha repeatedly moved from one channel to another.
Givar sighed bored while propping up his chin. Suddenly his phone vibrated.
The man looked at his touch screen. His name is Papa Hardiswara. He looked at Shasha.
"Papa called" said Givar. Shasha seemed to think, "Don't Papa get angry, because you didn't go into the office."
Givar picked up his call, "Hello, Pa?"
"You're not in the office? Why didn't you say last night? If Papa finds out you didn't come, Papa went there this morning."
"Sorry, Pa. Tomorrow I'll go to the office, all right."
"What did you say? Papa is not horrified."
Shasha will turn off the TV, but Givar gives the code, if he chooses to leave the room.
Shasha continued watching TV. Cooking shows on the channel are ongoing. Shasha looked seriously paying attention.
He smashed his back onto the sofa.
Shasha's gaze shifted momentarily to the back of her husband who was getting away and passed from the room.
Shasha can't cook. She felt lucky that Givar was very good at cooking and her husband did not mind her.
Givar is truly the perfect man in Shasha's eyes. I don't know why the man chose to marry her. There are a lot of better women out there.
I'm just a poor girl with mental problems. If you marry me out of pity and just because I am your childhood friend, you have made a pain for yourself.
But, I will try to be a good wife for you. Although there is no feeling between us.
The cooking show has finished, changing with the promotion of the movie trailer. In the film, it appears that the car is traveling at high speed.
Both of Shasha's eyes twitched and widened looking at it.
The car is thrown and explodes, then falls rolling into the abyss.
His breath choked, cold sweat dripping from his forehead. Shasha was unable to move her entire body. He was still staring at the glass screen.
Two men crawled out of the car. His entire body was covered in wounds and blood.
Shasha started crying. She grabbed her own hair and shouted loudly.
Givar who was still talking to his father on the phone gasped in shock at the sound of his wife's screams.
"That's Shasha's voice? What was? Why is he screaming?" Juan asked from across the street.
"I hung up on him, Pa. I'll call you back."
After saying that, Givar rushed into the living room. He did not find his wife. The man looked at the TV screen.
There is a new action movie promotion. Givar rubbed his hair back.
Shasha phobia is blood. Ah, should the cave notice what he was watching, Givar's inner self-cursed.
The man immediately took the remote and turned off the TV. Seeing something under the table, Givar frowned. He tilted his head looking down there.
It turned out that Shasha was hiding down there with a trembling body.
"Snowy?" Call Givar. Shasha was shocked and the woman looked up at her husband. But unfortunately, his head hit the table.
Shasha grimaced with the pain in her head. Givar immediately rubbed Shasha's head and brought her out from under the table.
"You're gapapa?" Givar asked as he hugged his wife and gently rubbed his head.
Shasha was crying in her husband's arms.
"I don't want to watch TV anymore. The TV can't be there" Shasha grumbled between her cries. Givar nodded, "Yes, I'll move the TV somewhere else."
Givar let go of his embrace. He got rid of the hair boy on Shasha's face. The man wore a strange expression that confused his wife.
"Why?" Ask Shasha with a kettle. Givar still had a strange expression, he replied, "You're so ugly that you cry again."
Shasha looked resentfully at her husband, "So you said beautiful! Ugly now! What are your eyes, anyway?!"
Givar laughed, "So early in the morning it looked beautiful, but now it's different."
Shasha hit her husband's arm, "You're ugly too! You ugly! Ugly! Ugly!"
Givar held onto Shasha's hands to stop hitting her.
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Givar saw the TV that had been moved to the warehouse behind the house. The man nodded slowly.
"Sorry, yeah. Just like your relationship with us hopefully."
After saying that ridiculous thing, Givar passed by. He called Amelia.
"What?" Spray Amelia from across there. Givar hasn't said a word.
"So early in the morning he was shocked by the sight of blood on TV."
"What he's watching, you gotta pay attention, Var. Tomorrow go there for Shasha's nemenin. You can go to the office."
"Hemm, yes."
"Now what is Shasha?"
"He's talking to the new neighbor again, by the way" Givar replied with a fixed glance at the living room. Shasha was talking to a couple she saw this morning.
"Gua grimly. That means, Shasha can interact with new people."
"Hemm, yes."
"Why is your tone flat? Any problem? Tell me, who knows, the cave can help you."
"Nothing, really. The important thing is that you want to help Shasha through her difficult times. The cave is very nice, thank you."
"Yes yes. Gua, right, paid the same lo, haha."
Givar shook his head lazily while holding back a laugh, "So, if the cave doesn't pay, you don't want to nolongin?"
"Come kidding, really. Shasha kayak sodara cave itself. Yeah, same as you, Iah, that's it."
"Well, the grotto is honoured to be considered sodara lo."
There was the sound of Amelia laughing. The woman again said, "Yes, you're a cousin of the cave."
"He'eh. Tomorrow morning, yes. Have breakfast here."
"Waaahhh, you're so good, anyway! Now the cave is ready to go there!"
"Feeder."
"Haha, uh, Var.. Anyway, Shasha is a phobia of blood why, huh? You see, you just took him to the cave, without any explanation. Yeah, the cave's confused too."
"Later cave story if there's time."
"Sori, this nanyain cave."
"How many times, anyways you, right, psychologist. Grotto should have said from the beginning that you could handle Shasha well, but..."
Amelia waited for the connection of Givar's sentence.
"Yes, yeah. Cave hang up."
"Oh, yeah."
The next day, Givar cooks while Shasha serves food to the table.
"You should go to the office, right? You get ready first. I'm doing this" said Shasha. Givar turned, "A little more."
"Let me alone," said Shasha as she took the spatula from Givar's hand. The man saw the performance of his wife who was still stiff when cooking.
Shasha turned, "You want to see me?"
Givar chuckled, "Be careful, yes."
After saying that, Givar passed to the room to get ready.
Shasha shook her head, "I'm cooking again, or am I walking, anyway?"
Shasha slightly dodged when she heard the distinctive sound of cooking that was almost cooked.
Shasha saw her husband coming down the stairs in a well-groomed suit attached to her body.
The man approached his wife. He poked Shasha's shoulder. The woman looked. Givar pointed at his tie like a child.
Shasha understands. Givar turned off the stove that was still on. Shasha put a tie on her husband's shirt. However, the man's body was too high and Shasha had trouble reaching him.
Givar laughs. He took a small stool and told his wife to go up there. Shasha according. He rose so that his height was parallel to Givar.
Shasha continued to pair the tie. Givar looked at Shasha meaningfully.
I don't know if I can love you or not. But I feel very comfortable with you, Snowy, Givar said.
Shasha finished pairing the tie. Now his eyes meet Givar's brownish-black iris.
They stared at each other for a long time.
Shasha's inward, you're not her, Bunny. But, even so, I love you, because you are my best friend. The only one who understands.
Givar looked at Shasha's slightly open lips. The man was tempted to touch her. After all, Givarel was a man who needed women. He had promised Juan not to play women again after marrying Shasha.
However, even after marriage, Givar did not demand his rights from Shasha.
The man brought his face closer. Shasha did not move when her husband's lips came into contact with hers. Both of their cheeks heat up and appear a clear red tinge.
Shasha's heart was pounding. It wasn't really the first kiss. Both Givar and Shasha have done it with others before.
However, it feels different.
Givar released the link of their lips. The two stared at each other. Shasha could see the stifled desire through the gaze of her husband. After the wedding, this kiss is what they just did.
Givar kissed Shasha's lips again. The man gently pulled the nape of his wife to deepen their kiss. Shasha hugged her husband's neck.
Givar took his tie back and pulled the collar of the shirt he was wearing, leaving his top two buttons exposed.
The man encouraged his wife to sit at the kitchen table. Shasha touched Givar's chest. Making his hand touch the man's skin that was slightly sweaty.
Givar's kiss is getting hotter.
However, a knock on the door made the activity of the two stop and turn their heads. Someone stood there with a frozen expression. Givar and Shasha immediately gave normal expressions.
Givar buttoned his shirt. Shasha confirmed her clothes.
The girl who was none other than Amelia blinked her eyes a few times, as if she could not believe what she saw. The woman immediately shifted her eyes.
However, free. He saw it just now.
"Emm, excuse me."
Givar rolled his eyeballs, "Slowly, should have said that from earlier."
Givar put his tie around uncluttered. He forgot not to shake his shirt.
Amelia glanced at him with both cheeks already flushed red, "The door should be closed."
"I'm leaving" said Givar, passing by, carrying a plate of food that Shasha had prepared for him.
Shasha only looked at her husband's back that was away. The man looked silly with an untidy tie and food on the plate he was carrying.
"Sorry, I'm bothering you guys, huh?" Asked Amelia with both cheeks still flushed. Shasha turned to him with flushed cheeks as well.
"No-no, really."
Shasha takes Amelia to breakfast. They enjoy that food.
After breakfast, Amelia showed her something before coming to her cousin's house.
The girl showed two rabbits to Shasha. One is white, and the other is brown.
Shasha looked pleased. He touched the animal with long ears.
"This is for me?" Ask Shasha the spirit. Amelia nodded quickly, "Yes."
Shasha smiled happily.
Amelia rubbed the two rabbits, "This white one is like you, and this brown one is like Givar."
Shasha imitated what Amelia was doing. He rubbed the brown and white rabbit alternately.
"Bunny and Snowy" he said. Amelia nodded. He already knows Shasha's dear call to Givar. Last night Givar told Amelia everything in a video call, with nothing left unturned.
Amelia can sense if she is in Shasha's position, as well as in Givar's position. As a psychologist, Amelia did not want to show her emotions. She must be professional, even though her patient is the wife of her own cousin.
Amelia promised Givar she would help Shasha.
"You want to give them names?" Ask Amelia. Shasha disturbs the child-like spirit, "Little Bunny, and Little Snowy."
Amelia smiled, "These two rabbits are big together, even though they are not brothers. They love each other and are friends."
Shasha looked at Amelia, "Like me and Bunny?"
Amelia nodded, "Yes, just like the two of you."
Shasha nodded then lifted the two rabbits onto her lap.
"They were married" said Amelia. Shasha looked up at Amelia.
The young psychologist awaits Shasha's reaction. However, it turned out that Shasha was smiling, "They will be happy."
Amelia looked sad, she hugged Shasha. The girl desperately held back her feelings. Shasha became confused, but she returned Amelia's embrace.
"Why you?" Ask Shasha.
Amelia let go of her embrace while looking at Shasha. He smiled gently, "Hehe, I just want to hug you."
Shasha didn't bother him. He returned to his rabbit. Shasha rise.
"Where are you going?" Ask Amelia. Shasha replied from the kitchen, "Take the carrot."
The woman came back with some carrots in her hands. He gave it to little bunny and little snowy.
Amelia noticed.
"They won't be happy" said Amelia. Shasha frowned, "Why?"
"They don't love each other. Each one loves the other. They're together for a reason."
Shasha looked sad, "But, they love each other."
"Yes, they love each other. They will live happily if they forget the past and decide to make plans for the future" Amelia's speech makes Shasha speech silent.
"I love other men" Shasha said suddenly.
Amelia was surprised, both of her eyebrows raised. He did not expect, Shasha would understand the meaning of the conversation.
There is a possibility that Shasha's condition improves, she can still return like the old Shasha, Amelia's inner self.
"It's okay, Shasha." Amelia smiled softly.
Meanwhile, at Gustiar's residence, Sarah is looking at her daughter's wedding photo album. She smiled as she rubbed her beautiful face in that square-shaped thick paper.
"No more joy. Even long before your wedding" Sarah murmured as she spread her gaze across the room that was Shasha's room.
A photo with the front facing down distracts Sarah. The woman touched the frame and allowed it.
Both of his eyes were wide. In the photo is his daughter with a handsome man smiling happily.
That man is not Givar.
Shasha was sitting on the park's swing bench. He looked more cheerful at the time. A smile was clearly imprinted on his face.
The swing bench feels heavier. Shasha turned her head, apparently the man in the photo. He sat on the swing bench with Shasha.
The man turned to Shasha for a while and then turned his eyes away with a smile. Shasha elbowed the man's arm.
"Why are you laughing?" Shasha asked half a grumble. The man looked again then shook his head with a smile.
"You are so beautiful today."
"Thank you."
Silent.
They were both immersed in their own thoughts. Confidence began to cloud. They have been dating for a long time. About 2 years ago they were in a relationship.
"You're happy with me?" Ask the man. Shasha turned her head then nodded quickly. The man smiled.
"You're happy with me?" Shasha asked the same question. The man also nodded.
"I'm so happy with you. Soon I'll come to your house and propose to you," the man's words made Shasha happy. He looked at his lover with a meaningful look.
The man clutched his lover's body gently, "I love you, Shaquellin."
"I love you too, Refandi."
The day goes on.
One morning, Shasha came down the stairs with a happy expression. He saw his father and mother at the dinner table.
"Good morning!" Shasha greeted the two with great joy.
"Good morning, dear." Both of his parents answered simultaneously.
Shasha peeked at the cheeks of her father and mother alternately then sat down. The three of them ate together.
Adam's gaze was fixed on the empty chair beside Shasha.
"So you're not awake yet? He must be hungry, please wake him up" said Adam.
Hearing that, Shasha and Sarah looked at each other with unpredictable expressions.
Sarah rubbed her daughter's hair, "Shasha has to go to the office, right. Mama who woke up sister."
The girl nodded then passed.
Arriving at the office, Shasha gets a lot of greetings from employees. The girl also answered their greetings with courtesy and fun.
Everyone really likes his figure who is good, firm, and caring. Shasha had a very strong charisma that made everyone bow respectfully to the youngest daughter of the Gustiar family.
While sitting in her room, Shasha gets a package from someone unknown. Package in the form of a medium-sized square shaped object wrapped in pink paper.
"There is no name of the sender" Shasha murmured as she opened the contents. It turned out to be chocolate. A great deal.
Shasha smile. He saw that there was paper inside and hunted him down.
Hi, surprised?
Don't be surprised just yet. You will be surprised to see the gift in it.
Refandy
Shasha smiled reading the letter that turned out to be from the sender of the chocolate, Refandi, her lover.
Shasha ate the chocolate and she was surprised to see a smaller box inside. Shasha picked it up and opened the contents.
Lovely ring and there is a small paper tucked away that says, Will you marry me? No! You must be my wife.
Shasha laughed, "Why are you pushy? Can I refuse you?"
Starting in the afternoon, Shasha returned home. He was surprised to see the whereabouts of Refandi in the house. The man sat opposite Sarah.
The man's gaze was fixed on Shasha's ring finger. There's a ring tucked in there.
Refandi smiled happily.
Shasha hugged her own body. He held all the emotions in his heart.
Being who I am now, it scares me to do anything. I'm afraid of everything. I can't be like before. I'm sorry, Inner Shasha.
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15.29:03 October 2019
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