Getting Lost on the Way Home

Destinies

Amira

Born into a modest family and living with a single mother and her 6 siblings in a remote village.

Amira was 6 years old at the time.

Since then Amira has begun to lack the affection of her parents, including her mother.

Some day

Mom, where's my dad ? . Amira asked her mother

His mother smiled and said, Dad is looking for a lot of money for us.

Because his mother was too busy making a living and supporting her children, Mother also became less attentive to her children.

He went home early in the morning, every day for a mouthful of rice that He could give to his children.

Years passed, and Dad did not come home. Amira muttered in the heart

I saw the look on my mother's face getting pale and starting to wrinkle.

Look into her empty eyes, as if her children were her life spirit left.

Amira also began to grow up.

He started running since he was 18 years old.

Mom, I want to change our lives. I want to go to the other island, he said

Mother scowled, Unable to speak while crying.

The next morning, Amira flies to Bali in hopes of changing her family's destiny.

Arriving in Bali, Amira meets a man named Fahmi.

Fahmi seems like a good person.

He helped me a lot.

Starting from looking for a place to live as well as a job.

Year after year I was being watched, I began to change our lives in the village.

Everything slowly stabilized and improved.

Our economy has been well fulfilled.

But behind it all, I always felt alone.

Lonesome.

Always looking forward to the attention and affection of the people around me, especially my mother.

I'm a little quiet and less sociable.

Maybe that's one of the reasons I always feel alone.

But it wasn't.

The main cause has been since I lost my father figure, which made me start to feel left out in any case.

All my abilities are hidden because of that.

I feel like this may be my destiny.

I always act like I'm okay, but deep down in my soul, I need warmth, support, compassion.

Slowly I began to darken my eyes, I dated a few men in hopes of getting what I was looking for.

But it turns out I was wrong, I was getting messed up and getting worse.

My trust in it all grew less and less.

I was mistaken, which I considered happiness to be devastating.

Not only me but also sincere people approached me.

On the way, I cried with tears in my heart.

Is this my destiny ?

Does justice not apply to me ?

It was repeatedly spoken from this mouth.

Lord........

Just take my life, if there's no more happiness left for me.

What else do I hope for ?

What else am I after ?

My really useless rant .

I'm desperate.

Fahmi, !!!

Why did you lead me down this path, Amira told the man who followed her.

This world is not mine.

There is nothing I deserve from all this.

Arriving at home, Amira immediately fell asleep.

and Fahmi went home.

How poor are you, Amira, look upon him with pity.

The next morning, my phone rang.

I'mawakened.

Ohh it turns out you're Fahmi, what's up ?

I'll pick you up in a minute, get ready !!

As usual, I went to the office and did my usual routine.

All work is happiness to me.

Because with that busyness, I can forget my sadness.

Just imagine all those years I've been just like an unguided robot.

Tulalite....

My cell phone voice.

Mom called.

The conversation lasted hours.

When to go home ?

That's something my mother always questioned me about.

When ?

I have no answer for that myself.

I feel like I've started to be peaceful in the distance. Because even close to me I still feel far away.

There's a lot I can't express.

Maybe it's better to be alone first.

I don't know until when my journey will end, which I know I will continue to go far until I get my breath.

I'm a fool, desperate without a stand.

I deserve to be in this fear.

Always feel alone despite being in a crowd.

It's all your fault, Dad.

This is all your fault !!

If you hadn't left us, I wouldn't have lost my way.

But yes, what to regret. Nothing's gonna change. He's happier without us.

Lebaran demi lebaran, passed by and normal.

The wind take my pain with you. Eliminate all this suffering.

Destroy all this chaos.

Amira always looks like a desperate person.

If only the chastisement picked up, maybe it wasn't the end of everything either.

Unless it's early.