FRIENDZONE, Maybe ?

Episode 23

Three days passed . After that dinner I really felt guilty to Irwan . I feel I've been outrageous to Irwan . My heart and mind are so fucked up right now . Even in the office I can't focus on working .

The last few days have been busy . He often overtime and comes home late . But even so after he got home he always took the time to call me . As of this moment .

I went to bed without a shower and without changing clothes . Until Irwan called me I just woke up .

"Hello ." Answer me in a loud voice .

" Dear ? You sleeping abis ? " Tanya Irwan across the phone .

" Hm Wan . At work, my head was a little dizzy and I fell asleep . "

" You sick ? Then how are you doing now ? Let me go to your apartment now, will ya ?" Said Irwan who was worried about my current state .

" No dear . I'm fine . You don't need to come here . It's half 9pm anyway . Oww did you just come home at this hour ? " Take me to Irwan .

" Yes I was overtime until 8 . "

" Hm . You have a lot of work, right ? Have you had dinner ? "

" Yes that is . Hehe. After this I will eat . "

" Then now eat fast first keep fast rest tomorrow morning will have to work again . " I said .

" Hehe yes my dear . You are also . Happy break . God night dear . Love you . " Said Irwan ended his phone call .

" Love you too . " Report .

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"Ouucchhh why the head is still dizzy . " Gumamku shrieked while stomping my head mijitii .

I tried to get up and walk to the bathroom to wash my face and brush my teeth . My head feels heavy . After coming from the bathroom I rushed back to the bed and laid my body back there .

I felt my bedside nightstand open the small drawer that was there to look for this headache reliever . Because as I recall I still keep some of those drugs . After meeting I went back to the kitchen to get some water and take the medicine .

When I'm going back to my apartment bell room it reads .

Without a second thought I went straight to the door and opened it .

" Rel . " My words are clear . Then my reflexes were trying to close my apartment door again .

But what is the power with my condition as it is now is clear my energy will be defeated by the power of Ray who tried to hold the door to keep it from being closed again .

" Vina.. stopped avoiding me like this . " Say Ray in an angry tone .

*Braaaakk .

Finally the door opened completely again and I was pushed back until I fell . I immediately held my head that was getting more and more painful .

Realizing that I was falling Ray immediately went inside and tried to help me .

" Vina you don't have a papa ? I'm sorry . I didn't mean to hurt you like this . " Say Ray while trying to help me stand up .

" Detach Ray . !!!! " I said angrily as I threw Ray's hand violently .

" Go !! Get out of my apartment . Go Ray !!. I don't want to see you . " Shouted my hysterics to Ray .

" I'm not going to go Vin . Never will ." Ray replied firmly as he lifted me up and took me in and laid me on the sofa .

I was in Ray's arms as much as I could rebel . Hit Ray's chest . But it all felt pointless and had no effect at all on Ray .

" You're a jerk Ray . ******** . Get out of here . " Take me to Ray .

" Yes you are right Vin . I am a jerk I am indeed ******** . But what can I do, Vin ? I love you and I can't stop that . " Shouted Ray no less loudly towards me .

I cried so much in front of Ray . Ray now looks frustrated . I'm sure right now it's not just me who's feeling sick . But Ray is the same . Ray must be no less sick than me .

" I'm tired Ray, I'm so tired . I don't want to be called a traitor anymore Ray . Enough .. enough once I become like that Ray . I don't want to anymore . I'm sorry Ray I'm sorry . I beg of you . Forget me Ray . Because .. 'cause until I can't accept your feelings Ray . Can't our relationship stop until we're friends . Honestly I'm comfortable with you Ray . Comfortable with you, but only as friends no more . " Get me to Ray with sobs and tears flowing non-stop .

Ray who heard all my words said he sat down in front of me who was sitting on the sofa . He took my body . Hugged it tightly .

" I'm sorry Vin .. forgive me .. " said Ray lirih .

"I'm a shameless jerk . " Connect Ray with a choked voice .

I can feel Ray's back shaking right now . And he's getting his arms tightened on me .

" Ray ." call me lirih .

" Ray are you crying ?

I'm still sobbing trying to take off Ray's embrace .

" Shortly, I beg you to stay like this for a moment Vin . " Reply Ray with a raucous voice .

My heart felt pinched to see Ray like this . I took Ray back . Stroking his back . Channeling tranquility for her .

" I'm sorry Ray . I'm sorry . " I said softly and then again sobbed in Ray's arms .

Ray released his embrace to me . I can see his eyes and nose are flushed .

Ray took his breath in .

" I'm sorry again hmm . I promise this is the last . After this I will no longer disturb your relationship . May you always be happy Vin . " Say Ray with a vibrating voice .

And I , I can only bow my head deep by still continuing to cry until my chest feels very tight .

Ray clasped my hands together .

" Hey, why are you still crying ? " Say Ray softly while raising my face to face her .

" Are you still mad at me and won't forgive me ? " Connect Ray with a more vibrating sound .

I'm sure Ray is holding back as much as possible not to cry in front of me .

I shook my head quickly to respond to Ray's last words .

" Yes.no Ray . No . It's not that . " I answered with a more and more sobbing . I can no longer make my voice . My chest is getting tighter .

I went back down and hit my own chest .

" Vina is enough, what are you doing ? " Ray tried to stop me from hitting my chest .

"Rayyrs ... " My words by looking in Ray's face .

" I love you, Ray . " After saying that my tears broke again .

Without aba aba Ray re-captured my body . And I also immediately hugged her tightly .

" I also love you so much Vina . You must know that, right ? "

" I love you but I love Irwan too . Is ... Am I also a jerk Ray ?"

Ray let go of his embrace .

" Hear me Vin . Let's end this here hmm . Now all you have to do is just love Irwan. And forget me . Forget about us . And I will do the same . " Ray was clearly in tears . Really . This time he was no longer able to hold back so that these tears did not come out . His chest felt very tight .

" Raaayy .. "

I hugged Ray .

A few minutes we hugged each other evaporates our emotions . Then we let go of each other .

" It's late at night . I'm home Vin . " Pamit Ray then moved from his seat . He rubbed his face rough . And I'm still down, unable to see Ray's departure .

" Stop , stop crying hmm . It's all over, isn't it ? Now is the time to be happy . " Said Ray while stroking my cheek gently .

" I go home, go to bed and rest . " Congratulations . Standing from the sofa .

Seeing that made me hold Ray's wrist .

" Wait Ray .. "

I stood in line with my position with Ray .

" After this we can still be friends like before right ? " So slow on Ray .

Ray put his smile on me .

" Of course . You're still the best friend in my heart Vin . "

I smiled at Ray's response .

" May I hug you one last time . As a sign of the resumption of our friendship ? " Take a question with a little doubt .

And without me expecting Ray to stretch his hand to signal that I can do it .

I immediately went back into Ray's arms .

" Take care of yourself Ray, I'm sure you'll get a much better woman going forward . " My prayers to Ray .

" You too . Take good care of yourself . Do not eat late . And may your relationship and Irwan go well and always be happy . I'll be happy if you're happy too . " Say Ray .

A few moments later we let go of our embrace and Ray really left my apartment .

And I . I sat back on the sofa and went back to crying roaring Raung . There is pain in my heart over all this .

I wanted Ray to stay away from me . But why this time after Ray actually went away from me as if I would not be willing to be like this .

" Why does this hurt God so much . " I said in my heart still sobbing . Until I unknowingly fell asleep on the couch .

Ray is currently . After he got out of my apartment room he walked on the street to his car .

He got in the car . He drowned his face in the steering wheel of the car . She was crying too . Crying is so .

" End . Yes it's over . You did the right thing Ray . Sooner or later you will soon be able to forget Vina . Like the thing you forgot about Mega . " Inner Ray encourages himself .