Forced Marriage as Love

The Part 88

One year later...

💛Jiana💛

One year has now all passed. Growing up two years of my marriage, I am grateful that my husband is still faithful to accompany me. Despite my many shortcomings as a wife by his side. Maura, my adorable daughter is now entering school. I love him so much, and so does my husband. Raka Sanjaya, the man I once rejected and it turns out that my parents' choice was the right one for me.

He was always patient with my sometimes childish attitude. Well, I did it all because I wanted to make him deterred against me. But I was wrong. I fell into the trap of his love. I loved his treatment of me all this time. He is caring and loving. It doesn't waver if there's another woman trying to tease him.

Gradually, my in-laws also started accepting Maura. Although initially hardened our efforts to make her our adopted daughter. It was her innocent and adorable attitude that made my mother-in-law melt and now love Maura.

I still don't stop hoping. May the seed of our love grow in my womb someday. I used to get stressed and down with this reality. But, my husband always strengthened me so that I would be more sincere in going through all this.

Today, my husband and I took Maura to my mother's house. We haven't been there in a long time. It's because my husband is busy lately and we haven't had a chance to visit them. How else, my husband wouldn't let me and Maura go without him.

"Mas, are you ready?" ask my husband while fixing the shirt he is wearing right now. My husband kisses me slowly. Then she smiled sweetly, and it made me blush in shame.

"Here you go, let's go" he replied. We walked out of the room and approached Maura who was ready in the living room. My daughter made her smile to welcome us. My husband carried Maura to the car.

After a few minutes of travel to my parents' house, we finally got there. I immediately carried Maura and entered the house. We were warmly welcomed by mom and dad. Maura sprinkled into their arms and my papa immediately took her to play along.

"You haven't been here in a long time. How are you guys doing?" asked my mother as we sat in the living room.

"Alhamdulillah we're fine Ma. How are mom and dad?" answer mas Raka.

"We're good" my mother replied and smiled. He went to the kitchen to make us a drink.

I leaned over my husband's shoulder. I don't know why, it feels so tired. These days, I feel like my body is not healthy. Frequent dizziness and usually nausea. I didn't tell my husband because he was afraid he was worried.

"Why baby?" he asked and felt worry on his face.

"Just tired" I replied lazily.

"You did, I told you that Maura was taken care of by Lastri. But you didn't obey me, either" he said, and I replied with a small smile on my face.

"Have a rest, let Maura be your guard" said Mama while giving us warm tea. Me and Raka nodded slowly. We sipped the warm tea and enjoyed the distinctive aroma of the tea. After that we decided to go to the room.

Maybe because I'm too tired and the time is also right for a nap. We reached my mother's house at about 11:25, and we were lying in our room relieving the whack.

"Bag,"

"Hmm, uh,"

"You take a shower, you smell" I said with annoyance. I pushed her body a little. My husband's face turned confused. Repeatedly he smelled his own scent and looked at me with a question mark.

"What the hell? I don't smell, '" he said.

"Room... You stink of mas, shower there a splinter!" whinekku to him. Like a child, this is my behavior. My husband was confused by my behavior. But in the end he followed my wishes as well.

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At 14:00 I woke up from my sleep. Apparently, I took a nap this afternoon too. I smile when I see my husband sleeping beside me. I kissed her forehead at a glance and left her to look at Maura.

"Ma, where's Maura?" I asked my mom because I didn't see the guy I was looking for.

"Sleeping in mom's room. He was whining for you until he fell asleep" replied Mama. I nodded slowly and helped my mother cook.

I felt something strange inside me. Seeing the food presented at the dining table makes me not lust to eat it. The nausea came back to me. Am I..?? No, I dismissed that possibility. Not that I don't want to hope, but I'm afraid it's just me.

"Jiana, why you baby?" my mama's words broke my daydream.

"Jian is fine Ma. Jiana took a shower and called me Raka Ya Ma" I said, then I left my mom.

I was still curious, but I was scared too. I really wanted to see if I was pregnant. But I can no longer afford to be disappointed. I'm really scared. I looked at myself in the mirror. My daydream drifted away imagining that I was really pregnant. Unknowingly, I rubbed my stomach repeatedly.

"Did he grow up here, baby?" Raka's voice from behind was hugging me. I smiled faintly as I stared at our reflection from the mirror. My husband kisses me on the cheek gently. I rubbed his arm.

"I don't want to be disappointed anymore. We've been trying for a year. But in fact," my voice trembled. I can't even bear this sadness. My chest felt tight until now it was difficult to breathe.

"That's it. We have Maura now, right? Don't be so sad" whispered Raka who instantly calmed me down. Oh my God, thank you for sending a husband as good as him.

"I don't like your smell. Sana took a bath first mas," kicked me out while pushing her towards the bathroom.

"You again? Why are you so weird today" he murmured and went to the bathroom. I sat on the edge of the bed waiting for her to finish her bath.