Flavor Anomaly

Part 8 is in love

A warm breath broke through my face. Blowing the wind from the direction of the vent makes me more and more close the body to the deckapannya. Comfortable and warm. Aware of something strange, my eyes were perfectly rounded.

Who, yeah, this?

When I looked up, the face of a man with a mole on his chin made me re-conscious of the previous incident.

"Oh yes ... Angga, huh?!" I asked myself. Given the reason why he's in front of me. Hugged casually. Without a rejection of myself. "Take a. Kan semalem I slept in the same hotel Angga, huh?"

He's still asleep. With the position of his right hand that overcame his head while hugging me. I who was still in his arms could only be silent while continuing to look at him. Seeing Angga's face from this close distance, and when he was silent was an oddity. Rarely could he be silent. For a moment, he usually immediately issued a mockery to me. After that I'll hit him in a row.

I gently stroked his face. Full-familiar. Inch by inchi didn't escape my swab. His forehead, his eyes, his cheeks, nose, lips, up to his chin. His face looks funny. Even I bite my lips holding back laughter. Don't let him wake up. Could mess.

"Gue know you're so fascinated by my handsome face, Cha. Sok atuh.. enjoy it."

The sentence just now was able to make me pull my hand immediately. Then threw his hand that was still on my waist, moving towards the bathroom. Leaving it with the usual crazy screams coming out of his mouth.

"Hey! Huh huh? Don't want me to hug you, again? Cha!" angga's screams were still wrapped in blankets.

Basic crazy!

The smile was on my lips when the bathroom door closed. Just imagining it always makes me laugh. Angga's attitude often makes me laugh. For him it's stale and not worth laughing at, but not with me. Maybe because I rarely laugh?

Although I tried desperately to dodge it, but this feeling was so intensely excruciating. Torturing logic that I had built up from the beginning. It tickled me until I laughed. From the beginning, I didn't want to fall in love anymore. Especially with Angga. Especially because of the warning.

But now I'm losing. I lost with love. The feeling I wanted to feel back, but also the feeling I was most afraid of.

Many times I have failed in a relationship. Being hurt, betrayed, and abandoned. I don't know what sins I've committed before. Maybe God is teasing me. Or was I born a patient? Pain from the heart.

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"Had to do? Really long!" grumbled Angga as I just opened the bathroom door with wet hair.

"Band!"

"No! Breakfast first. Just leaving for the office," said Angga, pointing to a table that already contained two dishes of fried rice and two cups of warm tea. He immediately went into the bathroom.

He's a bitch. Hugely. I don't know how many times I've been upset by him. But, behind her careless attitude, she also cares about me. She's kind. Of course, in his own style.

And, this time I was completely defeated by the circumstances. Again. I'm in love. L loved her. Deriana Angga. Well, he's like twilight. It only appears once a day. But the light can warm and calm. Makes me feel like enjoying it for a long time. At the sight of dusk, all weird and tired for the whole day, just shed. Change smiles and laughter. Just like when I met Angga.

He's like my gun.

Dusk orange in blue sky.

Which gave me a new color in my life.

I wish I could stare at my gun at all times.

Be with him. Always was.

Just ... Can I have it?

While dusk only comes at will.

The twilight will surely disappear.

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"Nga ...."

"What's?

He was still focusing on feeding the fried rice into his mouth. Responding to just that. It feels like Angga should know what I'm feeling. That way I'm relieved. Even if the reaction doesn't match what I want. I have to be ready.

"I ..," I said to the voice, hesitating.

"Hm?"

"Can't I love you?" ask me without a stale base.

"Yuk ... Uhuuk!" He literally choked until he finally sipped some warm tea on the side.

"What do you mean, Cha? I'm not wrong?" tanyanya seriously.

"really. I like you too. Excuse me. It's really I can't manage all I want."

"But I once said to you, don't baper. You said, yes."

"Yes. I-i know. But what about dong. I have already gini. And again, I'm just telling you. Not that I shot you, did I, Ngga," I was agitated.

Before we met, our closeness was very close. And Angga once warned, if I should not get carried away while with him. He said his heart had been frozen by his past. I don't know what kind of weird love story, because she never wanted to talk to me about it. And he said he didn't want to be in a relationship with any woman. That's what he said first.

But in fact, I've been caught in this whirlpool of feelings. Anomalies I should have avoided. This taste anomaly. Well, this taste weirdness I can't stop. It all just flows. Growing up as time goes by. Leaving behind questions and hopes.

"OKAY. Let's discuss this matter now," Angga said seriously. Shifting dishes that have not been completely used up, "When?"

"I don't know."

"What reason?"

"I'm comfortable. You think with everything that has happened, I can't have a rich taste of gini?! You make me comfortable with all your attitude! And now, I'm really stuck. I told you, I didn't shoot you. I just want you to know."

Angga took a deep breath. My slightly stirring reaction was able to make his facial water change. Maybe he realized I was serious. And now I want to see his reaction. My heart is beating irregularly. It's like riding a roller coaster on a playground. How I feel.

"Cameon, Cha. I admit, I also love you. I want you to come into my life. Even though you often see an ex eating or something. But no I have a chat with him," explained Angga showed me his personal message. There's only my name on top. The rest of the groups he had. Then family. "Gue admit, I'm comfortable with you too. But ... sorry. For feelings ... nothing yet."

"Yes, I know. No problem. The important thing is that you are by my side. It doesn't matter if you have feelings for me or not. I need you now," I whined like a child asking to be noticed.

"Yes. Sure. I'm always there for you. Although not every time I'm beside you, but I'm sure, when you need me, I must be there."

Angga moved and pulled my hand. Tighten me. "Sorry. I hope you haven't changed after this."

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Pretend that you love me until you forget that you are pretending.