Falling Into the Bottom of Your Life, Isn't There Another Sweet Thing Waiting?

05: Born as a Boy

I'm Tokasaki Yuzui, now I'm 17 years old considering I'm a second-year high school student. As a teenager with a period of delinquency, I ruffled my room after an unwanted encounter earlier this afternoon.

Tomorrow there will be a big change in his life as a teenager.

Because I'm not sure if I tell Hatsune that this isn't just an arranged marriage. Why didn't I say that?

"Damn, tomorrow is a busy drama day and now I'm forgetting the whole script!"

Drrr..... Drr... My phone vibrated indicating someone called me.

My hand grabbed her lazily as my face sank into two pillows. The writing on the phone screen showed 'Ritsu' with a profile photo of her, the green button pulled and left alone.

"Hello, Yuzui, you're alive, right? You ignored me and were suddenly dragged away by your guards. At least call me if you have a problem, man...."

"......"

"Hey, did you answer my call and let me sleep? Heii......"

"......"

"YUZUI!!!! FUCK YOU!"

Ritsu's unstoppable anger didn't make me want to talk about what happened.

I let her talk noisily because now I need another voice to keep my sanity awake. Ritsu is really my savior.

"Whispering, Ritsu. Can't you help me find a replacement role tomorrow? There's something I can't leave."

"Huh??? Are you crazy? Memorizing the script of the lead role in just under twenty-four hours, what were you thinking?! What anyway"

He scolded me as usual. I lazily kept listening to the natural music from the noisy voice of Ritsu from across the phone.

For about half an hour he rambled without me having to answer anything. Finally he stopped tired of a suggestion as the last message.

"If something you can't leave at a different time, at least give it your best show tomorrow before you regret it for losing both. See you tomorrow, I'll arrange your preparations."

Calls closed. Silence seemed to pester my ears, but it was good to think from what Ritsu said.

Rebelling is useless. Blurred? I can't do it because my plan is going to fall apart. There is no other choice but to follow this and launch it.

"Yuzui, can I come in?"

The knock on the door was barely audible when Dad opened the door without my consent. I got up and adjusted my seat, I knew they were going to talk to me about tomorrow.

Ever since I entered High School, I planned to live alone in the middle of the city with my own income as an ordinary student. But, I couldn't do it because my mother begged me not to leave while I was a student.

A plea that I cannot refuse because I was born as a child in the Tokasaki family.

"How are you feeling now, Yuzui?"

Mom sat next to me and dad sat in my study chair. They tried to calm the thoughts raging in my head by talking heart to heart.

"Not that bad."

An actor's lies should be trustworthy, right?

"Lying.", said the mother annoyed.

And I just realized that the actor's lies won't affect me when I'm a boy in this house, especially in front of my parents.

Dad once said the reason for today's incident was because of a written proof of payment (the business company that made such a strange name), a ridiculous agreement involving me and a girl I didn't know.

It's a bunch of shit I can't accept right away.

Their arrival was meant to persuade me to make a decision to accept it.

"Sorry, Yuzui."

"It's a pity that I haven't been able to make it acceptable from tomorrow."

"But you didn't even turn it down."

"It doesn't mean I'm taking it, either."

If I refuse it, I will somehow wait for something I wanted a long time ago.

Because since I was flat as well as my tone, my father finally softened his voice more and grasped both shoulders tightly.

A resolute aura of authority would usually come out when we got together and talked about something I could not ignore. It means he's serious.

"Listen Yuzui, I know I have indeed stepped on your pride as well as the pride of the Tokasaki family after so long,"

"...."

"...because of the stupidity of the people of my time and your mother's, I felt guilty doing so. I'm sorry for making you have to endure it, but..."

Giving a pause to his words, father looked at me more seriously sharply yet gently. One of my weaknesses is that I can't resist it.

".....you can't make him bear this alone, can you?"

Both of my eyes widened and implying the shadow of Hatsune on my head flashed. Whatisthis?

His word to bear this stupid marriage, his responsibility for having agreed to it. Wasn't he the one who was wrong for not rejecting her?

No. gabe.

I think it would also be my fault if I blamed him.

I also had no intention of rejecting it nor taking it for granted when they said this for the first time. Here I feel stupid of my mind that is wishy-washy and selfish.

Really, I can't take it yet.

There's another reason why I'm in this kind of wishy-washy position where I have to do it to buy time.

Both of my parents are important people in each of their jobs, they will leave for a long time and return to Japan briefly to see me. In other words, I missed them to stay longer to take care of this matter.

If I accepted it practically, they would quickly leave when I got my approval.

"Aren't mom and dad in too much of a hurry? Hatsune doesn't even know about anything about this by expressing her confused thoughts."

I looked at the mother who directly saw me back.

"You're in a hurry or not, Hatsune-chan has already made up her mind to stay here from tomorrow. Now, make any decision so you can accept this, Yuzui."

As soon as mother let go of that stern sentence, father also let go of the hand grip from my shoulder. I know I'm still a selfish kid who doesn't think about other people, but I'm not a kid who would ignore the decision of any woman I'm the type who respects my mother a lot.

"Alright, I agreed because I respected Hatsune's decision, not because I accepted the stupid agreement in the past."

A feeling of relief was clearly visible on the faces of the two. Likewise with a radiant expression of hearing my decision here.

But it stopped immediately with my index finger cutting off their happiness.

"...on condition, do not force me to love him even though it is written as husband and wife on the form. Let it all go with time."