Falling Into the Bottom of Your Life, Isn't There Another Sweet Thing Waiting?

00: Prologue

Dark and blurry are what are seen in my eyes now. There was nothing I could say from my mouth, nor my body that did not want to do anything.

Honestly, my heart felt a deep pain.

My tears did not come out at all even though I forced them, they instead made another dam inside my head that I did not understand why that was so.

It's painful.

My dark room was only reflected by the moonlight at night. I don't even remember what time it is, actually I don't want to remember it because turning back time will make me worse.

Before long the door of the room was slowly knocked, it was the sound of my parents. They were worried about me since noon because I locked myself up and didn't open the door until now.

I simply replied 'come in, the door is not locked' which I also did not realize what I was saying.

Brakk!!

"God... Look at you, disgusting, nee-chan!"

"Utsuki! You suddenly sneak in front of us, keep your brother feeling"

Their chatter sounded noisy, I still bowed my head on the edge of the bed like I did from last afternoon. My brother even said I was disgusting and he was right, I had no intention of seeing him.

Mom approached me and hugged me slowly, but I felt nothing.

Numbness.

They kept trying to talk to me once in a while but I didn't care about it and remained silent in my mother's arms. I'm sure my eyes are like dead people.

"This is why I don't want you to go through an overly deep adolescence, look now, nee-chan!"

Utsumi kept telling me, I knew she loved me but didn't show it honestly.

Mom let go of her embrace and dad approached us. Utsumi put on a disappointed face and wanted to just throw me away, she was standing at the end of my room door.

"Mom knows it's hard for you, Hatsune."

The problem I was facing really happened suddenly, briefly, and quickly like a passing wind leaving a pain within myself.

The darkness of the night in this room was left alone by my family visiting me like a mental hospital patient that not even the sisters wanted to visit me.

There was nothing I could say, I was silent in silence even though I felt sad to see them worrying about me more than myself.

To be honest, I felt guilty in the blurry and darkness of my vision.

As the girl who was still sitting in the second grade of High School, the burden of a teenager who should be able to be distributed to the closest people was now shattered to nothing but the greatest regret.

I fell mentally and somehow I can only blame myself. Not the one who hurt me.

An hour of silence passed with both of my parents kneeling on my lap.

I was stupid, I made them feel guilty for the mistakes I made. I'm a really ungrateful kid.

"Hatsune, we have something to talk to you about. Even Utsumi had thought of this for your good,"

With long messy hair still covering my head lowered, I listened to them. Utsumi was gone because dad told her to leave instead of making a fuss.

"For your painful feelings to go away, would you like it if we match you with a better man. Of course with the wedding vows, he'll take better care of you u-"

"I understand, I'll do it."

Without a second thought coupled with mixed feelings in me, I did not listen clearly to my parents' intentions, and agreed.

The next life I didn't know was just beginning.