Even & Odd

23

"Obviously, don't run away. What a big kangen?" aries said when Fersya had arrived before him. Fersya did not respond at all, he just quietly stood in front of Aries with a trembling body holding back tears and hunger. Somehow the dominant because Fersya did not know why when he saw the Aries in front of him even make his tears want to go down again.

Looking at the Aries who wanted to ask, it was better for Fersya to lash out first. At the moment Fersya is not wanting to tell a story or be asked something. "Gue lager."

Speechless with Fersya saying, Aries just laughs. Aries knows, right now all Fersya needs is company. Aries also knew that Fersya would not want to eat at his house because his condition was quite messy at this time, so it was better that he bought food in front of the park and brought it here.

Carrying a pack of rice paper and a bottle of cold water that Fersya immediately received without saying much. Fersya immediately opened his food and ate the food greedily. Aries just silently looked at Fersya who was busy eating.

Seeing the current state of Fersya makes Aries wonder. Actually Aries knows a little bit what Fersya has felt about his family because sometimes Fersya tells some of his problems to Aries. After all, Aries can see the relationship between Fersya and his twin brother which can be said to be quite awkward and Aries concluded that Fersya may indeed have problems with his family.

But once Fersya told him about his problem with Aries, it was rare for Aries to see Fersya as troubled as this. Even if indeed Fersya looks very upset about the problem, Fersya must cover it up by pretending to be upset. But at the moment it seemed like Fersya could not resist the emotional turmoil he felt. Because no matter how much Fersya tried to hold him back Aries could see the puddles of tears that had accumulated in his eyes, ready to fall but still held desperately by Fersya.

Aries and Fersya may have been close recently, but seeing their intensity together often enough makes Aries feel that he and Fersya are close enough. Aries certainly wants to know what makes a Fersya who Aries knows is good at holding back his emotions so can not stem his emotions anymore.

Aries has heard, if there are people who often mehanan something usually the person will explode someday. Is this the day when Fersya can't hold it anymore? Wouldn't it be better to just get kicked out instead of being held back like this? Aries could not bear to see Fersya eating while holding back tears like this.

"Fer drink first. After that to my house, mbak Ira is still at home so if you want the same stories he can still. Nih" said Aries while offering a drink placed in the middle of the two of them.

Fersya received the drink that Aries offered in silence. Maybe Aries has realized that during the meal Fersya tried not to cry. Fersya has never said that holding back a cry makes the throat hurt. And at this time, Fersya was eating while holding back a deep throat cry it was twice as painful, it was very difficult to swallow food.

"Maybe you're not comfortable with telling me, I also know that you vent more often to mbak Ira than I am,"

"So that means you're sulking that way now?" Fersya cut off Aries speech.

"so I suggest we go to my house so you can tell me the same about Ira. But if you are not ready yet, here you are." Aries did not at all mengubris satire from Fersya earlier and instead continued his speech that was cut because of Fersya.

"I think I'm really embarrassed if here continue with a dirty state like this again."

"It seems that every time you go to this park is always bad" said Aries quipped.

"What do you mean?"

"Had forgotten? When the first day we met here, it's very loose. Face dryness while eating cassava chips as kayak people kelaperan continue now..." Aries did not continue his words but instead saw Fersya from top to bottom with the style of a designer is assessing the appearance of his model.

"Basic lo ya!!!" Fersya could only reply with that word while hitting the Aries arm tightly. Aries complained because this time Fersya's punch really made sick. It seemed to be true that people's emotions of strength were two or maybe three times greater than their usual strength.

Seeing Aries who tried to entertain and not force him to tell stories made Fersya's heart warm.

"Udah okay? Going home now?" ask Aries. Fersya nodded back.

***

It just so happens that Ira and Rini's mom are on the porch so Aries doesn't have to call them both. But for Fersya this is not an advantage for him, maybe Fersya is indeed quite often tell the story of either Ira or his mother Aries, he said, but looking at his current state that can be said to be chaotic with pimpong-like eyes equipped with clothes that are wet because of sweat, tears and snot that blurred into one. Maybe it's true Aries said that he looks like a bum.

Rini who first saw them immediately followed when she saw Fersya's chaotic appearance. Rini wanted to ask but it's good if they talk about it inside the house only.

Fersya who was already sitting on the sofa just kept silent while twisting his fingers. Rini's mother, Ira and Aries are seeing him at this time which fortunately is not coupled with his father Aries, this is enough to make him feel intimidated.

An understanding Rini hints at Aries to go to the kitchen with her. "Bikini mom drinks the same snack first huh. Hayuk Ris help Mom in the kitchen."

"Ready Ma!!" said Aries while giving a respectful attitude to his mother. Rini who saw the behavior of her son was just a head bobble. After all, Rini was used to her son who was a gesrek.

Now in this living room, Ira and Fersya are left. Ira had seen Fersya's movements, he actually did not want to force the girl to tell a story but see the appearance that Ira did not think Ira might have Fersya come here without asking permission from his parents first.

With his phone out of his pants pocket, Ira sends a message to Aries to contact Fersya's parents so they don't worry where his son is.

"Kalo Fersya is ready to tell mbak say yes, mbak will be here wait for Fersya." Fersya turned his gaze from the swirl of his finger towards Ira.

"I fought with Mama" and continued Fersya's story of the chaotic breakfast until Fersya could end up here in this state. Again Fersya let out his tears when he told about the incident that happened not too long ago. Again every word that was issued his mouth to tell the incident made Fersya's heart scratched because Fersya had to be reminded of his harsh words to his mother.

Luckily Ira just listened to the story without interrupting. Fersya used to want a figure like Ira who was ready to listen to his complaints and now when Fersya had found that figure Fersya was really grateful.

Finished with the story, Fersya's cries did not stop. Ira brought her body closer and hugged Fersya while rubbing her back.

"Bak know you are not satisfied crying, so just out Fer is okay. If you want to roar, roar. Don't hold back, hurt that cry? If you are embarrassed to submit your face to your shoulders or chest, make a wet shirt is also okay." Ira said that still by rubbing Fersya's back gently.

Ira hopes that with a swipe it can channel comfort to Fersya. For Fersya to be able to release all his burden without any rest. After Ira said that Fersya immediately and buried his face on Ira's shoulder while crying with a mouthful, it's true what Ira said was holding back the crying was very painful. Not only for his throat but also his heart.

Ira tightened her arms at Fersya and rubbed the girl's back until she felt a little calm. After Fersya was done with his cry Ira released a hug and cupped Fersya's face filled with tears and wiped the tears that were still trying to come out of Fersya's eyes that had been blown like a spherical pimpong that's.

"Is that good?" Ira asked while taking the tissue and water that had been delivered by her mother when Fersya was still crying earlier. Fortunately Rini understood and let Ira speak to Fersya.

When Aries got a message from Ira earlier, the guy immediately told his mother. At that time Rini immediately asked Aries to contact Fersya's parents and let Rini talk to Fersya's parents.

And it's true that Ira's guess is that Fersya's parents are looking for her son. Actually Rini did not want to interfere but saw the condition of Fersya not as he usually saw Rini could not not not interfere because he already considered Fersya like his own son.

Rini had never met let alone chat with Fersya's parents, and vice versa and it seems Fersya also never told his parents. But fortunately Rido who had introduced himself as his father Fersya was cooperative and wanted to tell the problem.

After Rido finished with all his stories Rini could only fall silent. What happened to Fersya is not much different from what his first child experienced so Rini can understand a little what Fersya's parents felt and Fersya himself.

Rini asked Rido for permission if tomorrow Fersya would come with his son to Bandung for four days to see his son's theater and let Fersya stay tonight at his house.

Rido was initially surprised because Fersya had not told him at all but Rini tried to convince Fersya's father that his first child would take good care of Fersya. Rido thought for a while and finally agreed to it. Maybe for now that's the best. Fersya was able to calm his mind and his wife could focus on healing Farsya first.

Rido instead of being favoritism, he understood that currently the two people he loved were both sick of their respective actions, so it would be good if they healed themselves first and then met again later.

Rido says that he will deliver a bag containing a change of clothes tomorrow morning to Rini's house. After that, the phone connection was cut off. Aries who from just now just silently listened to what his mother was talking about finally raised a questioning view that was even ignored by his mother. Rini chose to give water only to Fersya.

Back again to the state of Fersya who had stopped crying even though it was still a hiccup. Ira still rubbed Fersya's back slowly waiting for Fersya to completely calm down.

After Fersya tried to catch his breath so as not to as much as he looked at Ira. "It's a relief to mbak."

"Thank God that's it. Now you want to hear me?" Fersya.

"You know, your events are similar. Ma'am also never experienced what you rasain where the same mother Dad did not agree that mbak lecture outside the city. At that time I was really angry and disappointed until I fought with Mom and finally broke up to get out of the house. I didn't go home for a week and stayed at my friend's house for a week.

During the three days of contact with Mom, more precisely mbak who did not want to contact and receive a call from Mom but mbak did not also find the answer, not also feel calm, but also feel calm, not feeling all right either.

At that time I realized that running was not his choice. You know what you're bringing right now is not just a disappointment to your mom but a disappointment to yourself."

What Ira said really struck him because what Ira said was true. Maybe Fersya was relieved now because everything he harbored had been told to his mother. But the relief did not last long because Fersya was plagued with guilt because of his words to his mother.

"Bak will not tell you to go home, mbak just want when your mother calls you later do not ignore. I hope the next four days can make you feel better and can accept all the problems you are facing. So when you come home later you can face it bravely.

Ira patted the top of Fersya's head slowly, "Mbak went first tonight to campus, you leave tomorrow morning with Aries and make a change of clothes. Ma'am stay first yeah, want to get ready to go."

Ira left Fersya alone in the living room, looking at his phone at the table and asking if maybe his mother would call him later?

Ah, more precisely, is his mother still willing to contact the child who has hurt him?