Even & Odd

22

The twins went straight to school with their mother. Know what the trial means. Her mother already knew that today there was an announcement of SNMPTN results. With a pleasant question, her mother approached the twins as Farsya said his greetings. After the basic questions his mother immediately to the point asked them when they were sitting in the family room. Even the twins have not had time to change clothes.

"Alhamdulillah, Aca escaped Ma." Fani smiled at the answer, knowing that her son would always make her parents proud.

Turning his gaze, Fani looked at Fersya who was looking down. Fani does not want to think negatively if maybe Fersya does not escape. But hearing the answer that only one of his children escaped SNMPTN made him sad too. Not because of disappointment at Fersya, but Fani is sure even though Fersya agreed to his advice to study in the same place as his twin but Fersya also put his choice in the second number.

Even if Fersya will be elected in the second choice, at his chosen campus Fani will not be concerned about it at all. Because now Fani is trying to understand what Fersya wants. But knowing that Fersya did not qualify SNMPTN which even in his own choice of campus certainly makes Fersya sad.

Fani patted softly on the back of Fersya's hand intending to channel his spirit to his son. "It's okay, baby, there's another way."

"Yes Ma, Eca will join UTBK. But Ma," hesitantly Fersya looked at his mother who was still holding her hand gently. "it's okay if Eca made the first choice on the campus of Eca's choice?"

Seeing his son who asked permission for this dream made Fani feel guilty, why should Fani block this child's dream? Why should Fersya be afraid to dream? It's all because of him.

Fani hugged Fersya while stroking her son's back, "It's okay baby, it's okay."

"Thank you Ma." Fersya hugged his mother. Fersya felt one obstacle had passed, Fersya was happy because finally his mother supported his dream as well.

Meanwhile, Farsya who saw his twin and his mother who was so harmonious made Farsya feel happy. Honestly, things like this are rare, the relationship between Mama and Fersya is usually cold but now slowly melts, a good progress.

"Here follow the embrace."

Farsya laughed as she approached her mother and her twin, "Just be telepathic."

***

Fersya thought one obstacle was over he faced. Fersya thought he only had to fight during the exam later, because at that time his mother had already given her support. In the evening Fersya also asked his father and his father also supported him. The registration fee has been prepared from Fersya in advance.

But why today, one week before UTBK registration, at breakfast that should have happened as usual even messed up. Farsya fever coupled with his relapsing asthma. Breakfast no longer goes with wisdom because his parents are taking Farsya to the hospital to be treated immediately.

Fersya saw for himself how his twin brother who was sweating due to fever plus had to scoop up oxygen that might be very difficult for him to reach. Fersya was already used to seeing Farsya who was chaos like that. But at the same time it never became commonplace for Fersya, maybe even Farsya and his parents as well. Every thing that happened always managed to make the heart of Fersya sick. He who as his twin brother only felt that, what about his parents?

But that does not mean Fersya agreed to the proposal of his mother who at that time went home after taking Farsya to the hospital which by the way had to be treated for several days because of his high fever. When his mother came home to pick up some clothes Farsya and Fersya who asked how the condition of his twin, that's when his mother raised a request that made him unable to say anything.

"Honey you took the same lecture at the place of Aca huh? Mama is worried about her health dear, Mama is afraid that if this happens again no one can help Aca. It's okay if it's not in the same department, which is important one place so you can often notawasin Aca, yes dear? This is the last time you ask, Mama promised."

Upon hearing this, Fersya was completely speechless. Fersya knew what Mama meant but he tried to deny it. All the words of his mother rang out even until his mother came out hugging and kissing his head to accompany Farsya in the hospital.

Her mother said that her father would not stay at the hospital, so Fersya did not have to worry. But that was not what Fersya was thinking at the moment, it was not what he was focusing on at the moment. It was his mother's request that diverted all, even without Fersya realizing he had sobbed on the sofa of the living room he was sitting on.

***

Starting in the afternoon, Fersya's tears did not come out again, but he was still flinching in his place. His father said that he had gone home and brought Fersya's favorite food. But this time Fersya will not be easy to be persuaded by food, even if later his father will be fed, Fersya think he will also not melt that easily.

Honestly, Fersya was sad to know his twin brother was lying sick in the hospital, but that does not mean Fersya should be a victim for this situation, right? Fersya did not blame Farsya, not at all but his sense of irritation arose again. What must Fersya do to make one of his will be heard and supported by his mother.

Fersya heard the sound of the car, it seemed like his father had arrived. Still unmoved in his place Fersya waiting for the arrival of his father, Fersya hopes to get support from his father. For now, his father is his only hope.

Forgive Fersya who seems to be very spiteful to his own twin.

Without a second thought Fersya went straight to his room when his parents came over. Her father called her name and stopped her before Fersya climbed the first rung.

And without being asked again Fersya's tears fell. Fersya thought her tears were gone, but it seemed like her stock of tears was still plentiful.

"Why dear, Fersya why cry, hm?" Her father hugged her who was crying and called her name instead of calling her usual nickname. This made Fersya's cry even more intense. Fersya tried desperately to hold the stuffing but it made his throat hurt.

Rido stared inquiring at his wife who was just speechless near the sofa. Fani realized why Fersya was crying like that, but Fani felt that her request was not wrong, were twins usually always together, would not it be better if the twins were always together?

Rido is confused as to why his son is crying and his wife is seen hiding something. Rido feels Fersya crying has something to do with his wife's attitude now.

"Sit down, baby? We'll eat together, Daddy's bribe."

"No way, Eca does not want to be bribed, Eca just want Mama does not manage Eca's life anymore." with a stammer Fersya replied.

"Fersya why do you say that, hm?" His father let go of his embrace and cupped his teary face. His father wiped away the tears that kept falling and violently Fersya shook his father's hand.

"Mama said it was okay when Eca asked if Eca could go to college there, but why now just because Farsya sick Mama changed her mind? Eca tired Ma must always be in the shadow of Farsya. Farsya is already big, already can take care of himself Ma." Fersya said as he looked at his mother, Rido who heard even if only a piece of Fersya began to understand the problem.

Fani who does not believe that her other child even overcome the disease suffered by her twin brother. With emotion ignited Fani replied, "Just because of the pain you said? You saw for yourself just how chaotic is your twin and you said that it was just? You do not know how scared Mama was with Farsya and you dare to say that Farsya disease is only?

Yes, Farsya is already big but you know when the peach was just a relapse when there you are there, how later fitting he went to college alone, no one is taking care. If anything happens with Farsya Mama does not know if Mama can still live life or not."

Indirectly his mother blamed Fersya for the incident at that time, Fersya realized that he was indeed careless at that time, but why his mother even brought it up again. With her heartache Fersya countered.

"Why if something happens to Fersya, can Mama live life as usual?" with a lyrical laugh Fersya continued, "Fersya tired Ma should always be an excuse for Farsya. Does Fersya exist only for Farsya? Does Fersya live only for Farsya? Fersya's life has Fersya Ma, Fersya is a human who has desires, dreams, and hopes. But everything is empty and there is no point if Mama does not support Fersya. What should Mama know? Does Fersya have to be sick as well as Farsya?"

Perhaps Fersya's tears had already stopped while speaking earlier, but instead it was every word that came out of his mouth that left his heart scratched. Because Fersya is well aware every word he issued must also hurt his parents.

Of course it was not the desire of Fersya, he also did not want to hurt his parents like this. But Fersya really can't stand it anymore, it feels like Fersya's entrails want to come out and want to spit out all the irritation, unrest, anger, anger, disappointment and no idea what other emotions could describe Fersya's current vomit.

"Herbs!" His father rebuked him, but at this moment Fersya did not care at all and continued his words.

"Fersya only wants this time so Fersya free from the shackles of Farsya."

His mother was silent, and so was his father. Whether what possessed Fersya, the girl immediately took her handphone on the sofa near Mama and sauntered out of the house.

There was nothing stopping Fersya, whether to be happy or sad. Happy because at this time Fersya does need to be alone and sad because his parents are not trying to stop his steps.

With his hands trembling because he had not had lunch and after crying, Fersya took his pants pocket and pressed the number of someone who had just a few days ago called Fersya because his brother wanted to invite Fersya to the event that theater race. At that time Fersya did not intend to come but now Fersya changed his mind.

"Ris Ira's offer still valid?" ask Fersya when the phone has been picked up.