Even & Odd

18

The first day of the national exam went well. You must have known that this year UN uses computers. Not infrequently there are some schools that make several sessions for the implementation of the exam because of the lack of computers at school. But fortunately Sebangsa High School is able to prepare an active computer for students of the 12th grade of the National Exam.

Therefore, all 12th graders went home. Not necessarily all go home, like Fersya for example. The girl did not go home first, she wanted to stop by one of the shops in the mall. As per overnight plans, Fersya will be buying gifts for Aries today.

Fersya would not tell what reward he would give Aries. Not Aries or to you. Surprise is a surprise.

Usually Fersya will wait for his twin to go home together, but because the incident one week ago made the relationship of the twins who slowly began to warm so cold again. And Fersya didn't want to be caught in such a cold atmosphere. It was enough Niko and her parents who kept asking what was wrong with them, Fersya no longer wanted to hear that. Fortunately, Aries understands Fersya's condition even though he has not been able to tell her about it.

Fersya has arrived at the mall. Actually Fersya wanted to go around first, it was a long time ago also he did not go to the mall, but given the time that kept rolling and the increasingly narrow opportunity for him to study for the exam tomorrow, it was also a long time ago, Fersya decided to head straight to the shop he was referring to.

After walking around the store to find a suitable gift for Aries, he immediately took the item to the cashier to pay. After completing the payment, Fersya stuffed the item into his bag. He did not want to be questioned by his parents if they saw Fersya coming home with the item.

Aahh, considering his parents made Fersya forget that he had not asked permission. But after thinking about what, her parents wouldn't care about her. They won't care where Fersya plays and with whom.

Fersya came home with a pretty cocky heart at the thought of his parents who wouldn't care about him. Coupled with public transportation to his house that long ago came. After coming, the streets of the Capital City are always crowded this makes Fersya even more upset.

And when he returned home, Fersya who hoped not to meet his mother or Farsya even found his parents and his patience in the living room. Tumben once his father was home in the afternoon like this.

"Where did you come from? Why not tell Mom you want to play? And you play where, Mama think you play with Aries, but when Mama calls Aries she says you are no longer the same as her. So where were you, Eca?"

The successive questions from her Mama should have made Fersya feel happy. The thought of her parents not caring about her was immediately erased, but when Fersya saw her twin it somehow came to mind about the night, making her emotions that had been receding so that they appeared again.

And the words that Fersyapun did not want to say unconsciously came out of his mouth. "What does Mama care? So far Mama also does not care where Eca wants to play and who the same. After Eca said that Eca wanted to play with a friend's house, did Mama ever tell you who the friend that Eca meant? Naw. After that, Mama said yes. Did you ever ask when Eca would come home from a friend's house? Naw. Always clear Ecain all when to go home. So Eca thought also why Eca asked permission from Mama, anyway the same."

"Fersya keep talking to you!" his father's clash made Fersya shrink, plus his father called his name clearly instead of calling the call his father used to call.

Fersya should have said that he had forgotten to ask permission, but the words just came out of his mouth. This is how if someone who rarely gives out his emotions, once you feel very crowded and can not accommodate it anymore, the emotion will explode.

Fersya is like a time bomb, the girl should be able to tell all her complaints to anyone, but seeing his parents who never gave him a chance to tell stories and his parents who did not hear him when Fersya had the will to make Fersya think that his parents alone could not hear him, what about the people who don't have blood ties to her.

Fersya knew that his mind was very skeptical, but it could not be denied that it had become a habit for Fersya. If not asked Fersya will not tell a story. Just as Alya who is his closest friend besides Aries was so, Alya must be clever to read Fersya's emotions so that he can know whether Fersya is in trouble or not.

But the exception for Aries, the man seemed to have his own advantages that could make Fersya comfortable to tell him without having to be asked. But considering now he who has rarely played with Aries because studying for the exam makes Fersya harbored everything that happened lately.

But apparently, this bomb is not yet the time to explode completely. Fersya did not want to continue this debate anymore. Fersya did not want to hurt his parents more deeply.

Not caring about anything else, Fersya immediately headed for his room. He slammed the door and threw his bag in any direction and hid his head again behind a pillow.

If asked Fersya felt relieved or not, either Fersya could not describe it. On one side Fersya felt relieved because the thing he had been holding for quite a long time finally managed to sound, although it was not completely he voiced but the burden on his shoulders was slightly lifted.

But on the other hand Fersya felt angry, disappointed and sad for him. He hurt his parents, especially his mother. Fersya realized when the painful words came out of his mouth was his reaction was surprised and if Fersya did not see wrong there was a puddle of tears there.

Thinking about it made Fersya's cry even more intense. Looks like tonight Fersya can't study for the exam tomorrow.

***

Fersya overslept and only woke up at nine in the night. His head was slightly throbbing, probably because he slept after the great cry.

His school uniform is still attached to Fersya's body and it looks like he missed dinner this time. Aahh, after all who is in the mood to eat in such a state. But Fersya's stomach can't lie, because from then on his stomach just kept ringing. Let him hold it a little more, for it is possible that his parents and Farsya are still down there. At the moment, Fersya did not want to see them.

When Fersya was confused about what to do, suddenly someone knocked on his bedroom door.

"Eca, are you still sleeping, baby?" that's his father's voice. How did his father know that Fersya was sleeping. Aahh, Fersya forgot to lock the door.

Fersya chose not to answer. Yes, Fersya knows that his attitude is childish, but you have also done something like this, right?

"Dad in?" Fersya did not want to answer again, but seeing his father who might be waiting in front of his room continued to make Fersya not bear. Besides how did his dad know that Fersya was awake and listening to him now?

"Look in for Daddy."

There is only one more daughter who has not eaten and this time Rido realized maybe Fersya will be much more difficult to persuade than his wife. Rido had not been able to offer food to Fersya, his daughter first refused.

"Eca not a laper Well."

"Eat a little bit, huh? You just ate this morning, that's just bread."

Fersya did not answer, he realized that he was the current laper, but his prestige was too high to accept his father's offer.

"If you don't want to bribe him." don't care what threats or not-Well, Fersya decided to turn his face away.

Apparently Rido did not mess with his words, dilayangkan spoon that already contains rice and chicken goring it. Not only that, Rido also made a spoon filled with food like a plane as if trying to feed his three-year-old son.

"Cliiing.... Wii.... The plane wanted to wait." Unknowingly it made Fersya chuckle. For a long time his father had not done that, of course Fersya would have grown up, there was no way Fersya still asked to be fed like that.

But seeing that made Fersya reminisce. When he was eight years old, Fersya was sick and did not want to eat. His mother could no longer persuade him to eat, fortunately it was Sunday so his father did not work and could help his mother to persuade Fersya. Just like his father did at this time, his father had also persuaded him like that.

"Dad, is she, was Eca a child?" her lips might pout, but Rido knew that Fersya was happy with her treatment.

"Yes, open his mouth dong, Father's hand pegel nih." Rido thought it was possible that his daughter would refuse again, but apparently Fersya instead took a bribe from him. It warms Rido's heart.

Rido knows that Fersya is currently disappointed by the unfair treatment of himself and his wife. Rido realizes that their treatment is unfair or unequal, but Rido understands why his wife is so protective of Farsya rather than Fersya. Fani became a witness where her mother died due to acute asthma she suffered. It traumatized Fani and did not want the incident to happen to Farsya.

Just one mouthful seemed to be enough, as Fersya immediately took over the spoon he was holding and ate the food he had brought earlier with his own hands.

After Fersya finished with his food and drink, Rido took the tray and put it under his daughter's bed.

Faced his body at Fersya and clasped his hand. "Fersya, I'm sorry Mama and Dad who can't be fair with you."

Fersya actually already knew what his father's arrival meant here, it was impossible just to persuade Fersya to eat. Fersya just quietly listened, he let his father finish all his words.

Indeed, rather than Mama, Fersya sometimes much more comfortable with his father. But because his father was too busy in the office and rarely at home, it was like nothing. Because Fersya was in need of his father, but his father was busy and could not help him.

Rido who did not see the reaction of his daughter decided to continue his words. "Dad, especially Mama does not mean that at all you love. Mama doesn't care about you, but Mama believes in you. Mama believes that Eca must be friends with a good friend, Mama believes that Eca will not come home late at night and make Mama worry."

"But why don't you believe Eca's dream? Why does every Eca have a will never be heard?"

"Honey, Malang is quite far from Jakarta, if you study there you will be alone there because there are no brothers there. Same father Mama can not watch and take care of you properly. We are afraid that if something happens to you there and we cannot come directly to help you. Mama you're worried you're gonna have a hard time there."

"But Eca wants to go to college there Well" Fersya said with a frown.

"Whatever Eca's dream, I will always support, although I'm silent if your Mama is talking again but I try to persuade your Mama is also in the room. So don't think no one's supporting you, baby?"

Rido took the tray that had been placed under Fersya's bed and got up. But Fersya's words made him stop stepping.

"Dad, whatever the obstacles this time Eca will not be silent as usual. Eca will try to reach Eca's dream."

Rido turned to face his daughter. "Dad will support as much as Dad can. If Eca was sure to go to college there, Dad would try to give Dad confidence in you." walked up to his daughter again, then he gently stroked her daughter's short hair. "Tomorrow to apologize to Mama, your language was so rude."

"Sorry, Dad."

Rido nodded. "Sorry I can't always be there for you."

After her father left, Fersya slept on her back and stared at the ceiling of her room with a blank look. I don't know if the conversation has come to a conclusion or not.

"Huf."