Even & Odd

17

Farsya is in Fersya's room right now. After having dinner with her mother earlier, Fersya decided to go straight to the room. Avoiding questions about SNMPTN registration this morning. Let Farsya explain everything to Mama. Although, Fersya believes that the twin also needs an explanation on him.

Therefore, when he saw Farsya who had entered his room without knocking on the door, he immediately asked his twin to sit on his bed.

Fersya who was working on economic training in the book SBM he bought it stopped his activities temporarily and exposed his body to Farsya who was in his bed.

Farsya just stared at Fersya with a demanding look. Demand an explanation this morning.

"I don't think there's any harm in my mother's request to consider."

"Why? I know how keen you want to enter the tourism department Fer" said Farsya while holding Fersya's right hand.

Fersya whose hand was currently being held by Farsya just fell silent.

It turned out that telling Farsya the real reason was much harder than explaining it to Aries this afternoon.

Yes, when Aries caught up with him after he escaped from the back court this afternoon, Fersya decided to explain it directly to Aries. All the explanations went smoothly, there were no obstacles like the current one.

Maybe because Fersya who is used to telling all his complaints to Aries so it's easy to explain the real reason to the guy. Unlike Farsya, he rarely tells his complaints to Farsya because in fact all the complaints that Fersya experienced were always related to his twin.

Getting a soft pat on the back of his hand made Fersya wake up from his daydream.

"Kok is dumb" said Farsya with a pouting face. "Gue didn't want to say that your choice wasn't because of me. Because I know very well that it is because of me and I apologize for not being able to remember you in every debate you same Mama, but that does not mean I always support the proposal of Mama. I don't want you to be in my shadow.

I also want to see you happy with your own choice, Fer. Eating it just fitting SNM list I said the same you do not need to hirauin Mama's request. But.. Why Fer?"

Farsya's long words could only make him quiet. Fersya just kept silent while looking at his hand that was still held by Farsya.

"Gue think there is no harm to one campus just like you Far. Besides, the forestry department seems fun. There's no harm in trying?" said Fersya plainly.

Farsya just sighed. He wanted to go to his room, but Fersya's words stopped him.

"Gue also did not expect to qualify SNM. Maybe I sound like a person who is not grateful, but as you said earlier. I also want to be happy with my own choices. But seeing the people closest to me not supporting my dreams sometimes makes me hopeless Far. With Lo and Dad who do not support me makes me confused about how to.

Lo see, I'm desperately learning to do UTBK later. I'm really excited, but once again seeing the people closest to me do not support my dream, what does it feel like?"

Only this time Fersya spilled his grievance on Farsya. The twin was still there, near the door of his room, not yet turned to face him. It was better than Farsya seeing himself who was beginning to tremble as it held back sobs.

"Gue knew that you and Dad kept supporting me, always supporting me, but with you and Dad who did not support me debated me with Mama at that time... it really makes me hurt. Is my will not important? Is my dream not important?"

Fersya decided to turn to face his SBM book. Looking at the book purchased with his savings and seeing the many scribbles in the book made him unable to stem his tears anymore. So Fersya better stop this chat.

"Mending we've had this conversation Far."

Fersya could not continue studying again, he dropped his body onto the mattress and covered his head with a pillow.

Again, Fersya went through the night with a cry.

***

Since then, the twins' relationship has been cold. The last few months have been in vain because of this. Coupled with circumstances that do not allow the twins to often greet. It was only at breakfast and dinner or during the break that they met.

Meeting does not mean they often talk. Breakfast and dinner were nothing more than eating at a warteg filled with strangers all over. Even Niko and Aries can feel the cold war that happened to the twins when the four of them gather as usual in the cafeteria.

Now class 12 is busy with learning. There are extra classes every Tuesday and Thursday. Go to school, go to school, go to school.

Every day it gets closer to USBN and UN. They are currently being preoccupied by practical exams. Starting from pretty easy to really hard.

Two weeks later they faced USBN. More than one week is enough to drain the brain and also the mind. But thankfully it was passed quite well, at least they had tried their best. Attempts never betray results, do they?

Just waiting for the UN now, the graduation deciding exam. Or just a graduation-deciding formalities exam. I don't know, whatever it is Fersya follows everything seriously.

Fersya is still studying for UTBK. SBMnya book although arguably already a lot of graffiti but there are still many that have not been filled. There were times when Fersya felt tired because he had been studying all day at school, so he did not work on his SBM book.

Aries said Fersya should make a schedule so that his study time is organized and he is not easily tired because it is too pushy. But Fersya is not an easy person to follow the schedule, he could have made his schedule today and next week has no idea where the schedule will be done.

Almost a week passed, at this time Fersya's focus is to study for the UN tomorrow. Although not one week, but four days will be a day full of pressure for him.

Yes, although Fersya is not a stupid child, but Fersya is also not a smart child. Unlike its twin who is always in the top 10, whether it is in class or all over school.

Okay, looks like Fersya has to stop comparing himself to his twin. Now Fersya should focus on last year's UN Economics paper.

Yes, for elective subjects, Fersya chose Economics. He wants to challenge himself, so that he gets used to it so Fersya will not be surprised when UTBK later. For the study of Sociology and Geography, although not very good at both lessons at least it is much easier to understand in those two lessons than the Economics of the many numbers.

Seeing the clock that had shown at 10:12 pm, Fersya decided to stop learning. Although we learn desperately, getting enough sleep is also important. Free if we study until dawn but when the exam takes place there is nothing we can answer because of sleepiness.

Fersya better prepare enough energy to fight for the next four days. When he closed his eyes, he suddenly thought of Aries. Aahh, Fersya realized, it was rare for him and Aries to go to the park near the man's house. It has been a long time since he has told me his complaints.

Fersya took his phone, intending to play the communication device for a while. But Fersya unknowingly sees the date. Five days later, or arguably the last day of the UN is Aries' birthday. Why Fersya can forget, he did not have time to buy a gift for Aries.

Twisting the brain to give Aries what reward. And Fersya came to one conclusion. Maybe this gift is not expensive, but Fersya think this gift can be very useful for Aries.

Go home the first day tomorrow Fersya will not go straight home. Fersya will buy a gift first for Aries.