Dusk World
03. holidays before registration
I sat down with my parents and one of my brothers in the family room, the four of us gliding downstairs watching tv, watching my favorite cartoon, me and my brother lying next to each other while my father and father were watching & mom sat side by side over the two of us, my mouth was not stopping chewing snacks as well as my stomach that did not stop digesting every food I swallowed, today is a Sunday coincidentally dad is on holiday & mom's boutique is also closed every Sunday, while my brother bariq is still in the feel of a semester holiday, Sunday is our day to spend time together, and, in the past every Sunday six years ago we usually spent all day just spending time together in this room, namely the family room while watching cartoons and joking like this with the complete formation of my parents, namely my parents, both my brother and myself, gradually one by one my brother had to leave because of obligation, my brother fahmi went to reach his goals and worked as a service to the country, he said, while my brother bariq had to go to college to continue his education left me alone with my father and mother.
"bun..abang fahmi when to go home?" said bang bariq, "long we do not gather together, yes time once a year, wait for new eid can meet anyway" said bang bariq again.
"ibun does not know brother, try to ask the same father" said mother.
"yes ni yah, I miss the same fahmi" I said with my mouth full of food.
"honey, if you talk about food on sale first" said the father
"eeemmmmmmmmmm" said my brother as he pulled one cheek, I who was feeling pain immediately shouted, "aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa, tau bang" I said as I rubbed my cheeks pinched by my brother, while my brother was just a whimper.
"well please well, tuh brother bariq canin have a girlfriend so as not to mengisengin I mulu, this is my cheeks long saggy pulled so" I said still with a frowny face and one hand rubbed my cheek.
"bang do not fad it's the same ade bang, it's red cheeks caca you pull" said my mother
"have a crush on cwe bang?"father said while looking at my brother.
"oh where there is well,.lagian brother still wants to focus on college, besides brother does not want to break the rules of father, bang fahmi aja not have a partner" said bang bariq
Bang Fahmi is still busy with his job as a military so do not think about the problems of love, maybe his wound is not too healed so he is reluctant to open his heart, why being an adult is so complicated my mind, still around my brother fahmi who never open his heart to other women, not because he did not do well but because his cuey nature at this time never cared for the opposite sex who was waiting in line to approach him, I sighed rudely.
"bang bariq bang bang fahmi mah sama aja well, many who deketin much love attention, many like, many real love, but rejected all, but rejected all, later the turn of the beautiful cwe stock in this world runs out new nyahooo" I said
"hahaha, you know" said bang bariq as he ruffled my hair, I just quietly resignedly got such treatment, looked at me without a fight my brother then hugged me kissing the top of my head. "you must know de, the focus of the school is the most important than busy mengurusin girlfriend, ribeet" said bang bariq
"bang bariq sok tau, rich who has already had a twe aja you bang" said mother smiling, while my brother who got a hard answer from my mother just smiled and scratched his head.
"somehow why yah ko bariq brother can not have a twe, rich dad never been young" said my mother to father, once father & my mother was a lover from middle school, they were both dating from second grade High School until graduation, after dating for four years finally they got married and & having the three of us with different age gaps, the two of them lived together from the father had nothing until finally when my brother fahmi was four years old and & my mother contains my brother bariq my father's business is growing, my father slowly set up a paper factory & recruit kariawan, the longer the father's factory is growing rapidly, the more, their lives were both more established when my brother Bariq was five years old my mother was holding me without their knowledge and after a few months my mother gave birth to me, I was born as their longing child a dreamy & coincidental daughter when I was born coinciding with the completion of the boutique that my father built for my mother as per the ideals of mother wanting to own a boutique, she said, the shop was named after me.
"not ngelarang si bun, but ibun kan tau own bang fahmi aja have not had a partner until now bun, already six years just focus work, work, I just don't want to bang fahmi raced equally adek-adek bun" said father, when father & mother discuss serious discussion like this me & bang Bariq did not dare to cut a bit we both just listened well word by word that father said, so far I still understand si, dad just doesn't want one day one of us will get a soul mate first from my brother fahmi, moreover, it is not our secret if my brother closed his heart because he felt a deep heartbreak.
"but according to my father it was fair not for them" said my mother, I could only look at each other with bang bariq hearing the words of mother just now.
"father does not forbid to forever be bun, anyways this is just temporary, but if one day bang fahmi can their partner both also free ko to have a girlfriend as long as they know the limits" said my father, said, hearing my mother's answer, she smiled and stroked my hand.
As a brother who loves my two brothers very much, I always pray for the best for both of them, I also always pray that my brother fahmi quickly get his soul mate or at least get a new love & opened heart.
"our father match aja bang fahmi same children you tuh well, the reza is a beautiful daughter well, prospective doctors anyway, what is his name, if not wrong syahilla" said the mother.
"no ah bun, I know for myself what a rich mother's son, if later rejected by a bad father reza bun" said the father
"well bang fahmi already 23 loh well,.had long time he did not have a girlfriend, mother did not want brother fahmi became an old virgin" said my mother.
"do you think you're going to be an old virgin?" father said again
Discussing about my brother that one will certainly not be endless, because until now the bench was only choosing to be an acute singles without glancing at any woman who approached him, because until now the bench was only choosing to be an acute singles without glancing at any women who approached him, but I was always sure my brother would get a good woman to go with him just now that he had not gotten the right woman for him.
"the branch again the healing process of the bun heart, sure deh brother fahmi will certainly get the best partner" said the father assured my mother, mother only mangosteen while smiling to believe in the words of the father, "caca starting school tomorrow?" father said to me, now that the change father is talking about me who will enroll in high school, I who get the question directly turn to the father, have not answered the father back to continue his words, "tomorrow the list is the same bang bariq aja, dear father tomorrow work, mother also said many orders were taken" said the father again.
"your two brothers can take care of themselves dear there will be no one to disturb, if you are twe I'm afraid that later there will be something that bothers you to see" said the father
"yes really said your father de" said the mother who agreed with the father, in fact I do not agree with my father and mother even though I know what the father said was true, the father said, there must be something that will bother me and bully me but before I have prepared my mentality, from the beginning I have strengthened myself from the students who will make me their material.
"is father is not cool ah,.lanti if I the list is cemented that even in the case of spoiled children yah" I said to the father, "i myself aja bun,.lagian there is a ko assyifa, ko, bang bariq would also want to rest" I said again, "bang,.babang must be tired can not keep me, so tomorrow my brother rest aja yes" I said to my brother for not getting blessing.
"who says I'm tired, just calm down tomorrow I'm the cool one" said my brother, my brother's answer made me snort annoyed, my brother did not understand the mind, my brother did not understand my mind, being the object of the bulian was indeed very painful but I would not want to be approached by hypocrites who were close because there was a desire, because of what, he said,....yeah, because I'm sure if I went to register with my brother, one school's eyes would be on my brother and eventually they'd approach my brother through me, making myself an object in order to get close to my brother pretending to be good and using me, I then patted my forehead, a new problem again I thought.
"you why the de, not very happy because your handsome brother is willing to lo nganter you,.hehehehehe" said my brother while chuckling, I just glanced still pouting.
"read why baby, why don't you want to be won by your real brother" said my mother.
If I told you why I wouldn't change my father's decision and again my brother would keep me company, "if my brother nemenin I list will definitely add many more hearts that are broken because of the bang bariq, sure deh" I said soberly.
"ye emang is wrong brother,.abang did not ask to be bornirin this whole bell de,.abang also did not intend tuh make the heart every cwe broken,.salah who tried, he said, still want to be wrong brother" he said to defend himself, yes it is not my brother's fault and not the mother's fault pregnant, then who is to blame can not blame god, God,....aih it may be my fault.ya my fault who thinks and asks who bengga-engga.
"the same granddad is not fair at all,.bang fahmi same bang bariq made nice-good turn to me aja spent her dough leftovers aja, that's why I'm like this" I said carelessly
"hahahahaha,." All laughing at my words, dad stroked my head, after laughing my mom walked out of nowhere and came back with a photo album & back to sit and show sheet by sheet of photos that are in the album.
"you are beautiful lo de, you see your little photos first" said the mother as she flipped through the neatly-appeared photo sheets, indeed I look very cute & beautiful then but it wasn't now, my brother & my father were excited to see the sheets of nostalgic photos we used to have when me & my brothers were kids, "it was my fault, dear, caca could be like this now, mother who is too afraid if she got hungry busung used to be mother of appetite supplements for caca" said my mother again, said again, mother again blames her for making my body like this, when my body like this is not my mother's fault, if only I could control my food I might stop growing sideways like milk commercials & slimming drugs.
"it's wrong caca itself bun can not keep the diet, especially during the growth of caca like this, can not control food" said I comfort my mother so as not to blame her again.
This is one of my childhood photos when I was three years old, where I look so cute, I look at every inch of my face, actually, if my body is smaller than it is now, maybe I will also be a very perfect girl like my two brothers who have very perfect faces.
"ayo de brother help curousin your body,.you are beautiful lo de, from now on healthy lifestyle yo" said my brother to me, I, I am not ready to live with a healthy pattern let alone have to leave my favorite foods such as ice cream, hamburgers, chocolate & light snacks such as potato chips etc.
"but if the caca diet bang can lemes later affect the learning process at school, I don't want to caca not konsen learn, tar also if it's time to be thin alone, besides caca is also still small ko" my father said, in my father's eyes, I was still his little girl even though I was a teenager.
"but well there is actually lo said brother, but if the caca is not ready later aja aja gakpapa de" said my mother.
"later caca tangain, but the wood caca already comfortable with the shape of caca like this" I said because it was familiar with bulian.
"tar if you change your mind you know brother, anyways brother can lo masakin delicious menu for people diet deck" said my brother, said, my brother is a prospective chef no wonder he knows the type of food for people who are in the diet program again.
One more photo I opened, I narrowed my eyes slightly when I saw one of these photos while remembering who the little boy behind me, my eyebrows rose next to my fingers fused still can not remember.
"you don't want who it is" said my mother smiling
I just shook my head because I didn't remember who the little boy was.
"the time is not inget, it's zofin de temen de de de deket you, who ndempelin you anywhere in childhood, until never nginep do not want to go home, hahahahah" said my brother, said, makes me even more trying to remember about the zofin although my memory is a bit vague zofin happened to be the son of a friend of my father and mother, the son of om himawan & aunty sari, he said, all I remember is I never got along with zofin I was a bit upset with him because when he was a kid he always told our kindergarten friends that I was his bride-to-be when he grew up being the ingredients of my friends in my childhood, he always followed me everywhere and after that we separated when we entered elementary school, he said, at that time both his parents and Zofin came to the house to move out of the city, until now I never knew of its existence.
