Dusk Star

Chapter 9 Meaning of Heartache

“Sha seriously okay?” tanya Bila who looks worried about Sha's condition after being rejected by the upperclassmen does not have the heart - the nickname of Bila for Yusuf.

“I'm fine,” replied Sha while looking at the crowd that was still crowded.

After his upperclassman said so, Sha said nothing and just left regardless of his best friend who followed him.

“Sha I'm worried,” restless When while shaking Sha's hand to stop walking.

“Iya Sha I also nih,” said Nai no less anxious.

Sha sighed softly, everything was beyond belief. He who won the love letter, then told to go forward and then he could not continue his tears would have dripped. Sha looked back at his two worried-looking best friends.

Sha shook his head slowly, he could not speak now because all he wanted was to go home and tightly hug his beloved doll, crying as possible.

They continued to persuade Sha who was still silent as he walked towards the classroom to take the bag and then go home, that was all he wanted now. Not by talking to his two best friends.

“Sha I know very well come dong.” When he keeps trying to persuade Sha to tell a story.

“Udah Bil maybe he needs his own time” Lerai Nai.

Eventually they leave Sha to walk alone towards the classroom, Nai is right maybe they should let Sha calm his mind first. They turned back to walk towards the field to do a photo session with friends and upperclassmen as a memento.

While Sha after finishing picking up his bag he did not return to the field but rather to the back garden which rarely even had his visitors. As usual Sha sat on the bench where he first came here.

For the first time in his life he cried over a man who was not who he was. He realized it was wrong but his heart ache brought it down. Unknowingly her tears had already flowed profusely and became a sob when a gentle angina hit her face as if telling her to reveal all her sadness.

Meanwhile Akbar who was sleeping on a tree, lamented to hear a girl's cry. He was alone in this park. Akbar remembered the gossip about this park.

Don't-don't. ah time anyway he believes cheap gossip. Akbar wriggled pelantanpa accidentally Akbar's shoes fell down.

“Awww,” heard the ringing of a woman made Akbar go down.

Hap

With ease Akbar came down from the tree that became his bed when it was for. Akbar was very surprised when he saw a girl crying and was more surprised to see that the crying was Shakila.

“Kok lo can be here?” tanyanya was confused and surprised because everything was required to be present on the field.

Seeing Sha who looks moody and not asking to answer his question, Akbar immediately took the shoes from Sha's hand and sat beside him while putting his shoes back on.

“Lo why?” akbar asked slowly like he knew the feeling of being Sha. Sha did not answer him again, okay maybe Akbar thought to ask the tree next to him.

The two were suddenly struck by a silence that made Akbar feel uneasy. Somehow he really likes when teasing Sha, let alone seeing Sha look angry at him. Akbar is shocked back with Sha suddenly crying again which makes Akbar's position difficult. He does not want until there are heard cries Sha can-can he in thought that no-no longer.

“Sha.” Akbar said slowly to call the girl who had not stopped crying.

“Lo why?” asked Akbar softly. Silence answered Akbar's question.

Akbar's frustrated fix was to find a girl who liked to cry suddenly without knowing the cause. Akbar also can not leave Sha alone in the park, especially Sha including just set foot in the area here and Akbar does not want Sha why-not.

For a few minutes Akbar let Sha cry because maybe that's what Sha needs. Akbar reached into his pants pocket and gave Sha a light blue plain handkerchief. Sha initially refused but did not stop accepting it as well.

“Thank you,” said Sha after feeling happy. Remembering she was crying in front of a guy Sha was feeling very embarrassed now.

“Sorry,” he continued. Akbar looked at Sha confusedly.

“I've been crying here,” said Sha while looking down.

Akbar chuckled softly. “Just relax the original time do not often just serem also because suddenly cry later in guess I do not mind elo again,” said Akbar still while chuckling.

Sha smiled sweetly making Akbar melt instantly, Sha's smile was like a coolant when thirsty. Akbar also does not understand why he can be comfortable near Sha, even though he is always noisy with Nai who is his neighbor from childhood. Akbar felt Sha had a special attraction in his eyes, attractive.

Akbar cleared his throat slowly to reduce the awkwardness between them. Akbar looked at the sky which meant orange, it was late in the afternoon he thought. Akbar looked at Sha who was seen looking at his shoes.

“By me tanya Sha.” Sha just nodded.

“Lo why cry, then why not here instead of just in the field again rame?” Akbar asked a question.

Sha was silent for a while then looked down at the memory on the field earlier. Akbar who saw Sha gelagat just sighed resignedly, maybe Sha did not want to tell a story. Akbar really does not know what has happened in the field, because after the closure he slept in this park.

Akbar stared at the sky which gave off an orange hue that stunned Akbar. As if bringing it back to the memory of the past, forcefully withdrawing himself to remember the memory he had kept tight.

“Lo never miss someone who even you yourself do not know where it is,” suddenly Akbar said so.

Seeing Sha who will not reply to his words Akbar back to tell a story.

“Someone who has made my life colorful when I was a child, but now I do not know where he said his parents had died at the time of the accident . But until now there has been no news of him anymore.” While looking at the sky and looking at the events that have happened for a long time.

Sha who heard Akbar's story now turned his head and even looked at Akbar. It was like looking for something in his eyeballs, which involuntarily made the two freeze.

Degg

Sha immediately turned his eyes to anything. Staring at Akbar's eyes that look sad makes his memory flashed about the figure of a man who was always in his dreams. I don't know who the figure is but he is always present in his dreams when he is sad.

“Woy Sha kok even daydream.” Akbar flicked his hand in front of Sha's face.

Sha gasped in shock. “Eh yes why kak?”

“Lo who why was crying now bengong.” said Akbar made Sha wrong behavior because of embarrassment considering he was crying in front of a guy who is not too familiar it.

“Eh I'm okay, brother, was flickering.” Sha answered nervously.

“There was a flicker of kayaking,” said Akbar dramatically.

When Sha wanted to refute Akbar had already spoken again.

“Em Sha lo ever miss someone who is not there?” Akbar looked at Sha with his curiosity.

“I don't know brother,” replied Sha finally when he saw Akbar's confused gaze.

“Kok don't know?”

“Akuu-“

“Shaa,” a shout, not two women who make Shad an Akbar turn towards their back.

Naila and Bila stand in front of the entrance to this park. They frowned looking at Sha who was like he was chatting with a guy. But his face was not clearly visible because Akbar immediately turned his face after seeing who called Sha earlier.

“So I have to go to them like,” Sha said as he got up from sitting.

“Wait.” Akbar restrains Sha's wrist which makes Sha tiered in shock.

“If they ask who is the guy who is talking to you do not say that I said that a classmate did not know his name had forgotten acquaintance.” Akbar's words that make Sha shocked and confused. He's not good at lying.

Eventually Sha just nodded and Akbar let go of his check. Sha walked half-run to his best friend. Arriving there the gaze of his two friends made Sha uncomfortable.

“Lo who was Sha?” nai asks suspiciously to make Sha flutter.

“Lo daritadi there?” bila's question saves Nai's question for Sha.

Sha nodded and walked ahead of them. The two friends were clucking at Sha's behavior.

“Sha you know we both nyariin elo to the corner of the school tunya again cool chatting with guys,” glint of anger seen on Nail's face, Sha down.

“Sorry.”

“Udah-ok already so in the fight, lo also Nai kan lo tau Sha need to nenangin himself earlier.” When it broke that made Nai sigh.

They walked out because it was already afternoon and almost entered magrib time. The school looks a little slow and there are only a few organizers still hanging around.

“School has disbanded from 5 and now wants to enter set 6. Monday we officially become citizens of this school wearing white uniforms ash.” Nai said a little sniffly.

“Iya Sha hope we are classmates again.” When he rubbed Sha's arm with vigor. Sha smiled at the window Bila.

Arriving at the school gate they find driver Nai and when it has come. Sha looked to the right and left to see if there was an angkot passing this hour or not. Sha moves restlessly when the angkot is no more.

“Sham with no?” when the car stopped in front of them.

“Eh no need Bil, want to wait angkot aja,” replied Sha did not want to be troublesome If because their house is different directions so with Nai.

“Gue first yes Bil, Sha,” shouted Nai who had entered the car.

They nodded, When still waiting for Sha to ride the angkot but after 15 minutes passed there was not 1 angkot that passed them, there was only from the opposite direction.

“Sha come with me aja yuk,” invite when again.

“Do not Bil later there is also the questionnaire,” reject smooth Sha.

“But it's ready for 6 Sha.” When he saw the clock on his wrist.

When I want to talk again. “Non was mom said to have been waiting for non,” shouted driver BIla.

“Tuh Bil already in advance is okay if there is still a guard pack this still there is a committee in.” Sha replied while looking at the school where there was a group of students coming home.

When resigned and get into his car, for the last time when asked to be together but still rejected Sha. Finally when he got into the car and waved his hand as soon as the car engine roared.

After leaving When Sha sat at the bus stop, if only to the area there is a bus, he certainly does not need to wait like this because the bus and then passing by since. Sha looked down at his pair of shoes, until he did not realize that a group of organizers had left the school. They did not see Sha who was looking down because he hurriedly wanted to go home to rest after this tiring event.

Joseph saw Sha approaching him when all the members of the osis and the committee had gone home. He felt guilty for making Sha ashamed.

“Sha.” Feeling someone calling him Sha raised his face and looked at a guy riding a ninja motorcycle wearing a full face helmet but with open glass made him able to recognize the person, Sha suddenly agitated and cursed because he did not come with Bila earlier.

“Sorry yes to the field but I really can't accept the statement lo,” said Yusuf.

Without waiting for Sha's answer on his motorcycle and began to split the streets. Sha who saw that just gawked at his place. Inwardly asked what was with his upperclassman. Unrecovering with the astonishment of his upperclassman, Sha is startled by a guy who suddenly puts a helmet on him.

“What-“

Sha had not had time to protest that person had already attracted Sha to sit on his bike. Not a chance to argue again Akbar released his hand from Sha's hand and then moved to open his jacket and thrust it towards Sha.

“Pake, you come home with me because this hour has no angkot,” Akbar's speech like a decree that would not want to obey him because he is too afraid if he has to go home at night.

Akbar rode his bike after feeling Sha sitting in the back seat of his bike.

“Sha grip” Sha is still silent sitting on the passenger bench feeling worried, scared and groggy all at once.

Akbar is worried about Sha's behavior. Immediately Akbar took Sha's hand and then circled to his waist making Sha immediately release their hands and hold the tip of the uniform that Akbar wore. Akbar chuckled in front of him.

“Ready?” akbar asked which made Sha nod. Akbar also began to advance his motorbike with a medium.

“Home where?” Akbar asked while shouting because the atmosphere of the streets was quite crowded.

Sha mentioned his address by shouting as well.

***

Naila returned to school because the pencil box containing her cellphone was left behind at school. His car stopped right in front of the gate because the school was deserted. When out of the car Naila narrowed her eyes to see Akbar who was inviting a girl to sit on his motorcycle. Naila did not see clearly the girl sitting on Akbar's arm because she was wearing a jacket and helmet that Akbar used to wear.

Naila's eyes bully seeing Akbar take the girl's hand to circle to her waist but the girl immediately holds the tip of Akbar's uniform.

“Ak-“ has not had time to scream Naila calling the name of the guy the motor has started to go. Naila sighed and began to enter the school to retrieve her goal object.

Later he will ask this to Akbar when he is home or tomorrow to invite him to run in the morning ah that's a good plan.