Dupus

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One thing I like besides Faiz is the night sky. Wh why? Since the night sky was not alone, he had a lot of temen. The night sky has its own art in my eyes, the point is unique. You can find the same painting every night, when you look up at your eyes will focus the same three stars arranged, which I always meet to form a slash.

The night sky this time was beautiful, and it became even more beautiful because there was Faiz next to me. He's busy spinning Auntie's potato chips. While Rajaf, as usual he watched the anime in front of the TV.

"Don't get drugged, Iz." I pat Faiz's shoulder as I look at my potato chips the rest of the half.

Faiz does not care. He even crammed a handful of potato chips and stared at me. I laughed at his face, it was funny. Even though it is like that, somehow I even more dear. Ah, Faiz.

"Lo want?" Faiz nyodorin into my jar. I'm shaking, make you Iz.

I continued to look up my favorite stars. Now I'm the same Faiz is in the park next to the house. There was a mango tree that was flowering. Usually, if it has already borne much Faiz with Rajaf competing for his fruit. Suddenly, I wanted to talk about something serious.

I lay in the grass. "Iz, I was thinking, what if we're done?"

Faiz didn't answer my question. The astonishment even the sound of kretek-cretek from his mouth, still shaky. He put the jar in his hand and lay down next to me. I could have rasain, he looked at me.

"Well we're done, why?"

I looked at him back. Oh, why do I look like there's moonlight reflecting in his eyes? And it made me speechless before I could finally master myself.

"Lo," I'm hesitant to do this. "Are we going to keep kayak gini?"

Faiz smile. And I'm more and more convinced that the moonlight is not just in his eyes, it's all over his face. It was evident from his glowing face.

"What are you afraid of? Our friendship? We're not gonna see you again?"

I don't know at all, Iz. That's not what I really meant. But you've been wrong. Uh, ngga. You don't know anything, Iz about my feelings.

I smiled wryly. Why do I sometimes feel that we are more than friends?

"Yes" I sounded doubtful. "Lo, going out of the country for college, while Rajaf, he still does not know where to go to college. It could be, he's getting out of here too."

Why does my heart hurt? From the first I already knew after graduating High School Faiz will continue his studies in the country. But, when I say this, it feels completely different, like there is a discrepancy. This slow night wind actually makes the situation mellow.

Faiz's hands were outstretched and my hair was blown away. He's still on the brakes, I think it took me centuries to wait for the words from his mouth.

After a long breath. He finally said, "Lo afraid of loneliness? You're afraid of yourself?" Faiz held my hand, now I feel that I am a sad girl who will be left with her boyfriend. Although the truth is, Faiz is just my best friend. "Lo don't be afraid. Who says we're far away? We're still deket. Our bodies are far away, but the souls of the three of us are still the same."

Threesome, huh? My heart was hit by something heavy. This pain is pushing my feelings down.

"Sorry because I can't go to college here, I have to pursue my dream."

I understand, Iz. Very-very understood. But the one I don't understand, my feelings and lo. I feel selfish, for some reason. That's all I feel.

I'm maxing for a smile. "Gue knows, really. Why mellow gini, anyway? Don't talk about it anymore, weird to know."

I want to end this discussion. Because the pain will be more severe.

"Well, who's talking about first?"

I grinned even though my heart was heavy. Faiz rubbed my head.

"Sleep, huh?"

I'm nagging. He stood up and I followed him.

I'm with Faiz on the way to the front door. He called Rajaf who was still faithful to watch.

"Home, Iz?" ask Rajaf. His eyes are a bit red.

Faiz. His hand held my head. "Sleep. Don't think of the macem." He smiles, so do I.

"We're saying goodbye, Khay. If there's a call from Faiz." Rajaf's crazy.

I laughed a little. Faiz and Rajaf swapped my head before leaving. I swallowed as Faiz honked his car's horn and finally disappeared from my sight.

Faiz, I think, until whenever we will be friends.

I'm loser.

And lo, lo,

Ga sensitive.

"Someday you'll know, Iz."