Dupus
Chapter I
There is no such thing as coincidence, there must be a reason. Which one do you want? The reason I studied or the reason I stayed?
- Amora, Temanggung 2019
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At the zero-kilometer point of Temanggung City, Amora sat firmly with an empty view. He let some shadows appear into an endless spectacle. Amora clutched the end of the handle on this long bench, squeezing it slowly while displaying a smile as some small children looked at it with a puzzled look on their faces. The camera is on the side. Letting it sit quietly without having to feel the warm embrace of his ten tiny fingers.
He's looking down deep. Closing your eyes while holding your breath. The feeling of tightness reappeared. Gnawing at his heart that still felt ordinary. A confession that managed to shake his entire body, weaken his joints and muscles, as well as dizzying the head. His knees were shaking at that time, he still remembered very well.
" Egie's sister is a long time, yes" he muttered pretently feeling embarrassed. Though he felt like he wanted to go home immediately and spill these damn tears on his favorite soft mattress.
" Dreaming, not afraid of the tambet?" someone patted her shoulder gently. A little head down to make sure he's not wrong. He sure is not wrong people, the clothes worn are still the same as the clothes before he left. Elie Laksmana, the man who became Amora's bully was stunned when he saw the cheeks of the kingpin who had always been the target of his hands were now wet, red, even his nose was looking for respiratory air.
Elie pulls Amora in a soothing warm embrace. Gently stroked the head covered in the pashmina hijab. A moment later his listener's senses caught a so heartbreaking stifling sobbing. The grip on the tip of his jacket strengthened, accompanied by a chill that appeared on the surface of his sturdy shoulder. The figure of this underclassman he knew as a hyperactive figure, before he knew the name of love, usually he would tease the girl and make her laugh, but Elie knew, but, this problem can no longer be used as a joke.
Love is so complicated, no one can escape loving without feeling the pain of a speck. When you choose someone as the king who acts as the main figure in your heart, there will be tears crying over your decision.
On the other hand, there are even many people who choose to lie at the expense of their own feelings, choose to be silent and act as supportive, when in fact deep down, deep down, there were thousands of regrets alighting, asking why he allowed this pain to stick tight. They still chose to stand, others lamented.
" Already, don't think about it, you deserve to be happy, but he's not the reason behind your happiness" said Elie with a touch that is getting more soothing. Amora was just silent while closing her eyes tightly. Fetch all the words that come out of Elie's mouth.
" Daf, you know? Loving you is easy, and hard to accept. There are a lot of possibilities going on, and it has to demand that I accept all of this. When you choose to be with the others, I must be able to realize, that this is just a one-sided feeling, that this is a love that claps one hand. I have to erase this grand taste, everything is extinct"
" I can be selfish, but the underlying thing of true love is willingness. If it is you who are not chosen by God to be the reason I settled, at least you are the reason why I studied. Learn to understand the meaning of a sincere feeling"
