Dreams for Real
39
Finally Bela sat back down after Rendra persuaded him.
“I'm serious about what I said, after mom advised me, I realized maybe I should be sincere and can open my heart, even though it feels very difficult.” Rendra's down
Bela sighed “Huff actually I am also confused how to answer your question, if you ask me to wait for your heart to be sure to be with me, I am not sure answer yes. What if your heart is not sure later? Then with my wait how?” bela
It is true, if Rendra is still not sure how he feels, of course all that makes Bela hesitant to agree to Rendra's question.
“You're right, if you don't want to be okay, I'm just here to convey that my feelings are calm and not think about this much anymore. I am ready to receive whatever your answer” said Rendra seemed resigned
“Now let me talk and you listen”
Rendra nodded and was ready to listen to Bela's reply.
“I don't know what to answer, if you ask me to wait I'm not sure I can wait let alone with a time that doesn't know when. You are right, your love for your wife is indeed great and you must give a special place because no matter how I ask for a place in your heart will not be able to replace your wife. I love Kayla, it's true that I regret it because I'm stuck with this situation, a situation I never wanted. If you tell me until when I have to wait for your heart to be sure, because I can't wait without certainty from you” said Bela
Rendra looked at Bela, he saw there was a bit of disappointment in his eyes, moreover he had to wait for Rendra.
“Can you give me the decision to wait until when?” keep up Bela
Rendra seemed to think, he had to give time until when.
“Let's just say, I want us to be in a relationship” Rendra's remark made Bela surprised
“Connecting? How could? You are not sure of me, ' replied Bela
“Because I'm not sure, you should be able to convince my feelings, I just need time to be able and get used to it. You want ya” said Rendra begging “I want us to be in a relationship for a month, if my feelings are still normal you can leave me”
“So easy you say mas, then how about I feel? If you're not sure then ask me to leave you, what about how I feel. I'm sure you know what it's like to wait without certainty, do I have to do it” said Bela who began to resist her annoyance and anger
“Not so”
“Then what, you want me to stay there for you while you? I was confused as to what mas” Bela turned her face that seemed to hold back her tears
“Give me time to think about all this mas, if you ask me to wait for you sure, then I will also ask you to wait for me sure that later my wait will not hurt my heart” continued Bela
“Well, if it does want you, I will wait for you to answer my question” replied Rendra
“I want to go home, no more to talk about?” ask Bela
“Let me inter”
“No need, I took cab”
“It was night, because I took you I will deliver you”, said Rendra
“Already arrived, I got off” said Bela
“I came home yes, I gave you two days to think about your answer” said Rendra
Bela who opened the door and was about to come down broke her intention and said something to Rendra.
“I asked you to wait for me to be sure why you gave me time” said Bela
“Yes I want to know your answer immediately, because the sooner you answer the sooner I can also decide what I really feel”
Hearing Rendra's reply, Bela sighed.
“I will keep waiting for you for two days, because after that I will return to Jakarta” said Rendra
“OK, I will answer your question in two days, but whatever my decision you have to accept”
“OK I will accept all your decisions” replied Rendra
Finally Bela got down from Rendra's car and Rendra went straight to his apartment.
Bela laid her body on the bed, and she remembered Rendra's words.
“What should I answer later, can I wait for you. I thought you would express your feelings but, you are not even sure of your feelings” Bela closed her eyes
While Rendra in his apartment cleaned his body so that he was fresh and cooled his brain. After taking a bath, he sat on the bed staring at the window, looking from there that the sky was cheerful, he joked with the stars twinkling. Rendra looked at the sky with a blank look.
“I was wrong to ask him to wait for me to be sure, but why did it turn out this way. I don't want to be rash to make a decision, enough I lost Goddess I don't want to feel the loss of another, let alone Kayla happy to be close to you, Bela.” Said Rendra to the sky he looked at
Indeed, if the affairs of the heart are very sensitive, it can make it difficult. If only the heart could be controlled by the brain, maybe there would be no such thing as heartache because all is thought by reason. But the heart sometimes contradicts the intellect, the person we love so much can make pain but the heart still survives, as complicated as it really is.
Rendra chose to close his eyes, he was agitated because he was waiting for Bela's answer. Will he give her time to convince her of his feelings, or will he leave. Which woman can wait without certainty, no news has made her uneasy. But it all depends on Bela, whether he will maintain his heart that began to feel with Rendra, or he will use his mind so that he does not feel pain in his limbs.
Rendra was still in Bandung, he would wait until Bela answered his question. Rendra also contacted Kayla and Mayang, if he would return to Jakarta the day after, after his affairs were completed. If Bela answers yes, Rendra will tell his mother even though he has not started a relationship with Bela, Mayang would be happy he does not need to find a woman for Rendra and try to match.
The next day Rendra left for his office, he accidentally did not contact Bela for the next two days, he gave time for Bela to think about the answer. Although Rendra wants to know the answer immediately, but he must be patient.
In the office he saw Bela who was busy with her work, he did not greet her and through Bela. Bela who realized that Rendra did not greet him made him lose concentration.
“No greeting this morning, huh basal” grumbled Bela
Rendra went straight into his office, Erik who did not know that Rendra was in Bandung and just saw that when Rendra passed his room, Erik went straight to Rendra's room to greet the boss.
