Don't Degrade my Status

Self-conscious

The TV is still on, and the mama is fad about moving her channel to a gossip show.

" This time there is bad news from the universe of Bali. One of the famous businessmen in Bali wrote that he would divorce his wife and marry his best friend. Zayn Akbar wrote the news on his Instagram account. Very dear right, we all know that the son of the daughter of a big company in Bali is married not for business. In fact we saw the happy postings of Arumi Latif with Zayn Akbar. Let's see the flash." said the presenter and the next show on the show.

Image and caption Zayn with Emily who looks happy.

Everyone in the room looked at each other and looked at me. Rey turned off the TV and approached me.

Gently rubbing my forehead into my hair and building me up as promised because it will get a gift.

I opened my eyes and looked around me. There's another pair of sweet old men. One is a middle-aged man from outside Indonesia and the other is a beautiful middle-aged woman from Bali who smiles at me.

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At Zayn's house

" Zayn what are you doing huh?! Are you going to kill your own parents?" detha's father snapped at Zayn after finding news of her divorce with me.

" Why maintain a relationship while the person is dead! And now Emily is pregnant well, I don't want my child to be born without a father." Zayn said

" Till in time I won't approve of your relationship.!!" snapped the father again and the mother cried to see the quarrel of her husband and children without being able to speak one word.

" It's up to you, Zayn will still marry Emily!" reply Zayn

"You insist, I pray you are not happy to marry that woman!!" snapped the father again and pulled the mother and took her away leaving Zayn full of black riding.

"All because of that damn widow!" snapped Zayn cursing loudly

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" Rey, mama wants to talk to you." take my mama

" Yes ma. Mi, I'm out first." said Rey

I was alone in my room after my return 2 weeks ago from the hospital. I reached out to the TV remote control above the room drawer and pressed the on/off button and I watched the broadcast on TV. About that afternoon at 6 o'clock more there is always a broadcast of the life of a homeland celebrity that I always watch every day before I have an accident and kidnapping all this time.

After several segments I saw and heard one news that confused me. Yes, because at that time I lost my memory. even I couldn't believe the news at all, and I couldn't believe if Rey and our parents conspired to lie to me and didn't know what he meant.

" What's up Mi?...... What's the matter, dear?.. "ask Rey and mama together.

I just held my head tight which hurt a lot. Rey and Mama looked up at the TV and saw the news again. The news that the court gave me some summons but I didn't even come and no lawyer represented me.

My head hurt even more when my picture of Zayn and Emily was on the TV screen.

" Who am I? Wh who? " ask me by squeezing my hair and head

Mama hugged me tightly and our sobs broke. Rey couldn't hold back her tears and she went out and called the family doctor and called Papa Latif on her cell phone.

" Pa, can you go home now? Arumi's sick" said Rey

Papa gasped at Rey's request with a crying voice and papa said yes.

Everyone gathered in my room. The doctor checked my condition and gave me a sedative.

" Sir, ma'am I ask you please don't force arumi's mother to remember her past. If the patient asks you can invite him to talk, take him somewhere so that his memory aroused. You can also provide some evidence to help her remember her past. But I press not to force. That's it ma'am, sir please still give me the medicine according to the prescription I gave. Excuse me for saying goodbye. The doctor said and left to leave us in my room.

" Ma, you must take action and speed up Arumi's divorce. Ask your lawyer to help you." papa asked

" Rey, papa, please take care of Rumi during this case. Papa please." ask papa by clenching his hands in front of Rey

" Pa, you're not an om and aunty anymore. But I consider him my parents. Rey will take good care of Arumi here. Rey leave it all to mama and papa, " said Rey

Papa and mama hurried to take a quick motion.

In the morning, I began to wake up from the sedative because of the sunlight that dazzled my eyes.

I see Rey sleeping on the long couch every morning. I approached Rey and I grabbed her by the face.

" If I hadn't lost my memory, would you have stayed by my side, Rey? I remember a little bit that I didn't love you before I lost my memory. And now I'm comfortable, I love, I love, and I don't want you to be away from me. But I was afraid that when my memory came back I lost you, lost the joy of being there for me. I'm afraid of that. If I can choose, I want to keep losing my memory and forget all the bad memories of my past so you can stay by my side Rey. I don't care if people think I'm making you an impingement, but I'm wrong, slowly I remember everything, everything I've experienced in the past. But Rey, I'm not sure I ever loved you and that's still me. I hope you love me too, Rey. "i said softly because I didn't want Rey to wake up from her sleep who always took care of me every night.

I didn't realize, actually, Rey had woken up from her sleep. As I was about to leave, Rey pulled my hand so hard that I fell on top of her. We looked into each other's eyes and smiled until Rey kissed me warm on the forehead.

" I love you so much Mi, so much. It's been a long time and I don't want to lose you anymore." said rey in my ear after kissing my forehead.