DINDA'S REGRETS

Episode 58 Worry

In the room Dinda is still pensive.He does not feel sleepiness anymore.His chest feels tight.Not in denial if he feels jealous when he sees his own husband with another woman be it only masalalu even his now it's gone.More than just a photo.

Isn't it very difficult to compete with the one who is gone and also the one who was first present in the life of the husband? If the mass is still there maybe he can still make the husband completely forget her.But this is gone, it must always be remembered in the heart.

Why is he jealous?Has her heart started to accept her love?Accept the presence of the husband in his heart? No, this must not happen.How can he live with someone with a shadow of his past?

Dinda becomes worried about her feelings.He really does not understand why now it is not easy to trust someone's love? or can this be called a sense of trauma created from her mass until she was pregnant? that regret still exists.

Dinda bit her lower lip very strongly so as not to let out sobs beside the in-law.Dinda got up towards the bathroom to wash her face, trying to shed her tears.

Seen from the reflection of the bathroom mirror, the eyes reddened and appeared dark circles under the eyes because until 3 am I was not yet asleep and my face was full of tears.

When she came out of the bathroom, Mama Rahma woke up."Is Mama awake?"dinda asked with a distinctive hoarse voice crying out.

"Yes Mama was looking for you Din, Why are you?Why are your eyes so red?"Ask the mother looking suspiciously.

"Ah yes Dinda can not sleep Ma, Maybe because until this hour has not slept, so Dinda's eyes are red." Dinda reasoned that the mother-in-law was no longer suspicious.

"Yes, Mama call your husband first who knows you can sleep because there is your husband."Mama Rahma came out of the room to call Toni.He felt if her daughter-in-law needed her husband.He knew if the daughter-in-law was crying in the bathroom earlier.

How'this?intending to avoid why he was told to come here..Help Dinda.

Mama Rahma and Toni enter the room.Toni approaches Dinda with worry.

"Why you, baby?"There was a worried voice as Toni spoke.

"It's okay."Answer Dinda coldly.

Mama Rahma saw that it became awkward between the child and her daughter-in-law and then came out of the room.When Mama Rahma was out of the room, Toni approached Dinda.

"Why you, baby?"Answer Toni gently.

Dinda just shook her head, she couldn't talk to her husband.

Dinda lay down her body on the right side where the in-laws slept earlier.Alagain Toni was confused by Dinda's attitude trying to be cold to him.The end is still fine.

"Are you angry because you overslept?"Toni could not see his wife acting this cold.

"No, Sleep.Dinda is sleepy."Dinda stretched her body against Toni.Unlike usual Dinda slept far away from her.

Toni approached the wife, In the embrace of his wife, kissed the head of the wife.Dinda treated like it became warm, who would not fall in love if treated as sweet as that?

But Dinda is still worried, almost intending to completely stay away from her husband because she cannot be with someone who is still alive with her mass shadows.

Dinda did not move or say anything, she pretended to sleep.Dinda still needed time to consider her heart.He was really not ready to talk to her husband.

Two hours later, Dinda and Toni both can not sleep, they just close their eyes but the mind continues to ring.Dinda turned her body towards the husband.Toni.

Toni was pleased that the wife turned her back to him.He still pretended to be asleep.

Dinda stroked the husband's cheek with her thumb.Without the command, tears had already dripped down Dinda's cheeks.

"I'm sorry, Brother.."Said Dinda with a hoarse voice.

"Dinda doesn't know this feeling of love or just because she's used to being together, forgive Dinda if Dinda has to hold her heart back so as not to feel pain anymore.Dinda can't live to be the third person."Connect with Dinda again.

Dinda kissed Toni's forehead long enough with tears continuing to drip until it dripped on Toni's facial skin.

"I've started loving you, but I decided this feeling was gone.Sorry."

Dinda slowly released a hug Toni walked out of the room.Tak forgot she wiped her tears.Dinda walked towards the room of the Mother.He needed the embrace of the Mother now to calm the heart and mind.

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Toni opened her eyes, she was very surprised at what she just heard.His wife apologized? his wife loves him but why should he hold back? And his wife also said to be the third person?What does the wife mean? What happened when he fell asleep on the couch.

Toni's eyes reddened, she was afraid of staying away by Dinda. In staying away again with his beloved person as in the past. How could the wife confess her love but at that time the wife decided to eliminate the feeling in her heart.

Toni is really afraid of being left back.The feeling of being devastated in the past is ringing again in her shadow.How her former fiance died in her arms. Events in the past seemed to imprint in his heart to cause deep trauma.

Does Tony love Dinda?While when Dinda's heart aches and decides her heart goes away, Toni remembers when she lost her ex-fiance. That is what Dinda is doubting right now.

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The clock has shown at 05.30 local time.Dinda still cries as much as in the arms of the Mother.He is confused how to.He is worried and he doubts the love of the husband for her.And he thinks about how the fate of his heart that has been begin to love her husband if he is still living in the shadows.

"Propay nduk, tell me your husband's past."

"Dinda was afraid of Mom, Dinda was afraid if she had to undergo marriage with pretence again.Why Dinda received Toni's brother when it became Dinda's husband, better Dinda herself Mom."Dinda does not know why she feels so sick, it varies a lot when she finds out her ex-husband has a lover.

"Already, try to talk carefully with your husband Din, now it's morning.A morning walk is very good for old pregnant people.Here wake up your husband take a walk."

Dinda just nodded.

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TB