DINDA'S REGRETS
Episode 102 of Dinda Larasati
I'm No longer a Virgin
What to do when I have tasted the sweet promise of men, I have fallen into seduction and drifted away in his empty promise. I was touched before I was memorized.
Loss of honor is a painful thing, when he has been forcibly snatched or maybe because of a caliphate alone. But the crying was useless, because it would never come back. Wailing or grieving for too long is also a waste.
I kept convincing myself that losing my honor wasn't the end of everything. I lost something precious, but when God gave me the chance to improve, this is the opportunity God gave me to change.
Trying to calm down, because I'm still a whole girl. Learn what happened yesterday. What passed by there's no way I can go back. Regret him by really improving himself better, with earnest regret. For if it were not so likely I would fall again into the same hole big enough to repeat for the umpteenth time.
I'm not worried about which men will accept me later, just focus on the self-improvement that is done every day. Because the man who loves me sincerely, sincerely, will accept me as well as my past.
And finally I found a man who accepted me, accepted my past, and most importantly accepted my son.
For You Husband.
Thanks though.
I'm Dinda Larasati. A woman from a million dark pasts full of regrets. I don't want to talk about my past journey anymore. I just want to live the present, multiply the good memories with him. Yes, he's my husband. Toni Sanjaya's.
I know him from my ex-husband. Even up to now I don't know the reason why my ex-husband had to present a bodyguard for me.
Does my ex-husband not think that love can be present because it is often together? Why does he let me always be with my bodyguard.
After that first moment, I enjoyed the game that my handsome bodyguard had mastered, I don't know if my bodyguard game can satisfy me or because I haven't touched my ex-husband in a long time.
I have guilt about my ex-husband. Am I afraid of being found out?
Hugely. I'm so scared.
I'm guilty. I sinned.
But I'm entangled again.
I repeated back.
This second time I wanted it too.
I miss her. Not just touch. But I miss her attention, I miss her love gaze.
Am I in love with her? The answer is I don't know.
Be honest. Ever since I got married to that guy. The one who sows promise and I easily fall asleep.
I no longer know love. I misjudged love until I didn't understand my own heart. I can't deny that I'm comfortable with him. Can it be called love? I don't know.
Until the waves hit our wedding, I took another wrong step. I shouldn't have isolated myself.
I have to face again with someone who has long been heart-wrenching to me.
I honestly say, I admire her. The good looks and sincerity that I was given made me waver.
Who am I in love with?
And who do I choose?
My bodyguard or is he the most wanted school?
So this time I answered is my bodyguard.
My crazy Bule.
He's Toni Sanjaya of American-Indonesian descent. Mature man.I love you.
I'm really lucky to have a Bule husband. Isn't that something of an accomplishment for a local woman? Complete package again. It's just that if he speaks it still uses the default language. But it doesn't matter. Most importantly he loves me.He accepts me as well as my son.
You flat-faced, serem, your fearsome baritone voice and eagle-eyes with sharp glances shed my guts.
You are attentive, patient, and always feel your position is threatened by one name.
Sorry if my heart was ever divided. Sorry if my heart ever double. This time there is no more.
Let's join together to knit love.
Straighten tangled threads with love in the heart.
Wading the beautiful household ark.
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"Sister.. Dinda kangen ma -."
"Sister is also kangen. It's been 4 days in winain." Cut Toni as Dinda speaks.
Dinda heard him crackle.
"What the hell, brother.. Not ready to talk either. Dinda's kangen sister's cooking. Fried seafood rice is not kangen sister."
"Tomorrow morning is okay, baby? this morning there is an important meeting from the Bumi Karya Company." Toni replied unkindly to Dinda.
"Yes it's okay. I will not be going to the office later.."
"Can't be like that. You have to go to my sister's office." Toni doesn't accept Dinda not stopping by the office.
"Dinda's schedule is full today." Said Dinda lightly.
"Full schedule? should I help Zaki again?" Toni asked in a disapproving tone.
"Bu-not brother.. Dinda today wants to see Dr.Lita and go to the boutique."
"Dr.Lita? is there a problem in your stomach, baby?"
"No brother.. Actually, Dinda wants to consult on pregnancy." Said Dinda.
"You pregnant?" tanya Toni was surprised.
"No dear.. Just a consultation."
"Sister come along." Toni's face turned flat as she remembered something.
"But brother is busy. Let Dinda alone." Reject Dinda because she doesn't want to interfere with Toni's work.
"Say you want to introduce Zaki to Dr.Lita as your husband right?"
Dinda was aghast then laughed as she also remembered something.
"Where might Dinda be. Yes if you want to come. And Dinda asked permission to brother 2 more days Dinda come to the reunion.." Dinda put on a cute face looking at Toni.
"Reunion?" Soon after, Toni began to worry about hearing the word reunion. That means Dimas was there too.
"His way at the Hotel Brother." Dinda begins to convince Toni.
Toni just quietly went out of the room carrying the handsome baby El after he bathed.
Dinda took a long breath. He was sure this would happen.
"Oohh my husband..." Dinda chases Toni out of the room.
Tony sat in the dining room. Dinda is in the kitchen right now occasionally peeking Toni is busy with her iPad. Not forgetting the flat face adorning his face.
"Woy.. I'm looking for a lo." Reprimand Zaki when he sees Dinda peeking at something into the dining room.
"Damn. I'm looking at my music." Dinda replied in a whispering voice.
"Why lakik lo. Marahan again?"
"No. He's mad I want to go to the reunion the day after tomorrow."
"Because of Dimas? You're a playgirl."
"We're one species yes bang.. And I've been converted."
"Tau ah me. Said lo Din's husband."
"Yes-yes."
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