Dilan Picisan's

Apologies

Raden approached Dilan. He raised his hands high. Dilan reflex closed his eyes in fear. If Raden were to slap him, he would hate him even more.

Deg.

Dilan's heart felt like it would be dislodged when Raden's big hand even stroked his head gently.

"Sorry papa" said Raden.

Dilan gasped to hear it. Slowly he lifted his face looking at Raden who was looking at him wistfully.

Then he was again stunned as Raden pulled his body. Raden hugged Dilan tightly as if channeling the ultimate longing.

Unknowingly, Dilan's tears fell. He sobbed slowly.

Raden increasingly grabbed the tiny body of his daughter.

Dimas who just came from the office helped mendelik see Raden who hugged his sister.

He glanced at Anjani as if asking. But her mother smiled.

Iyan biting her lower lip held the sobbing almost out. With his sister Malika.

"sorry. Maafin. All this because the behavior does not know papa. You get insulted at school" said Raden sobbed.

Dilan is still flinching. Not forbidding and not returning Raden's embrace.

"Kalo dede' wants to hit papa please. Papa will not be banned" Raden said again.

He loosened his embrace. Then framed his daughter's face.

Dilan looked at Raden with a hard-to-understand look.

"Why??" that's all Dilan said.

Raden. "Why what?"

"Why new now?? WHY??" Dilan was no longer able to hold back his sobbing.

"Why are you apologizing now?? Where did papa go yesterday? Diran's brother time needs papa. Dede's time needs papa. Where's papa?!" his jolt.

Dilan banged on Raden's chest. Raden let his daughter vent her anger. He deserved to be hit. If necessary, his whole body will be allowed to be beaten by Dilan, for the sake of his son to forgive his mistakes.

Dilan so aggressively hit and punch Raden strapping body.

Dimas approached to stop Dilan.

"Udah deck," said Dimas.

Raden just wanted to hug Dilan back. But Dimas first grabbed the girl's body.

"Bang, sick bang," Dilan's fight sounded heartbreaking.

Dimas nodded his head further strengthening his embrace. While stroking Dilan's back and mane tried to calm down.

Raden held a sob with his fists in his mouth. After seeing the live stream from the official account of Dilan school, he only found out if the child had a problem. And what makes him pinch is the news about him that makes Dilan exposed to the sap.

He is truly very sorry.

"Dilan" said Raden.

Dimas loosened his embrace. Dilan was still as breathless as he could speak just staring back at Raden with his red eyes.

"Papa's really sorry. Sorry for making the old papa mistake. Sorry for not coming on your birthday. I'm sorry that your brother's dad is gone forever. Sorry because papa often gets angry with you. Often snaps you. Often bandingin you the same Iyan Ika. Sorry because papa can not be a good figure for you. Sorry, papa can not be your first love, papa even become the biggest destroyer of your heart. Papa is really sorry," Raden knelt in front of Dilan as well as Dimas.

For a moment neither Dilan nor Dimas responded. But Anjani approached and told Raden to stand up.

"AA'. Don't squeal in front of Aa's children'! Sok stood up," said Anjani.

Raden. "No Jan! I got down on my knees for forgiveness from my kids. I have been evil all along with them. Including you,"

Dilan looked at Raden who was kneeling as he put his hands together, closing his eyes.

He glanced at Dimas who bit his lip. Then throw away the face of not wanting.

Still with tears that keep on shedding. Dilan squatted to align his position with Raden.

"Well me one reason, what made you realize??" dilan. "Let me rate, is it true papa emang regret that,"

Without any cue Raden immediately pulled Dilan his hug. With Anjani. He hugged two women who were so precious in his life.

"Thank you" said Raden.

Dilan widened her eyes as Raden suddenly hugged her. Then back to the pattern when Raden spoke.

"There is no word that is most appropriate to express the reason why papa regret is in vain you. You Anjani, you are the most precious woman in my life. The most understanding and mature woman I've ever known. You're a parent who makes me always envious because I can be close to my children, thanks for wanting to survive with me,"

Anjani is crying now. He also returned Raden's embrace.

"Dimas," call Raden.

Dimas who was unmoved in his place so looked down at Raden.

"Thank you for being a champion papa who has taken care of two precious women papa. Just one thing you asked for, don't be a jerk like papa. Remember!" kekeh Raden made Dimas throw his face.

Raden took Anjani off for a while and hugged Dilan himself.

"Thank you dede' nya papa. Thanks for being angry, papa. If you are not angry, not reckless, do not pull out your teardrops, papa will not know what you really want. Papa will continue to be an irresponsible father to you. And now once again papa is the cause of you being underestimated by people. Sorry," Raden said.

Dilan gasped faintly at Raden's words. He subconsciously returned his embrace.

I don't know how long he hasn't felt the warmth of a father's embrace. Kangen with a protective figure and the first love of every child in this world.

But, again there was a corner of his heart that spoke. Defying his sugar cane Dilan with the warmth of Raden who had been evil to him, Dimas and Anjani.

Slowly Dilan hands down to take off the embrace given Raden.

But, whether the hallucination or not was Diran's figure, her twin sister looked beside Iyan. He smiled softly at Dilan. In all white clothes. Diran is tall and his age is still like the last time Dilan saw four years ago. He nodded with a smile on his face.

"No papa. Brother is fine deck. Sorry papa, ok? During this time papa also suffered," said Diran figure who looks rather transparent.

Dilan pecked with round eyes. "Sister??"

Raden increasingly embraces the tiny body of Dilan.

Slowly Dilan's vision blurred. Until the smiling figure of Diran in his eyes disappeared.

Iyan. Closer in haste and a worried heart saw Dilan slowly closing his eyes weakly. Face pale.

"Dylan!" peekkik Iyan's.

"Sister Dilan," Malika was no less worried.

Raden felt Dilan's body degenerate and lifted him up. Bring Dilan to the room.

Followed by another.

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Dilan blinked his eyes. His pupils moved through the room.

Ah, this is his room.

Then he glanced at his side. Raden held his left hand tightly and fell asleep on the side of the bed.

Then next to his right there is Dimas with a similar position. No less possessive.

He frowned as his legs felt numb and heavy. He glanced down at how surprised he glanced at Iyan also sleeping on his leg. With hands grasping the fingers of Dilan's feet tightly like being massaged. Or was that guy just massaging her?

Unknowingly the corner of his lips was interested. Seeing not only one, but there were three guards guarding him. I don't think he needs anyone like this.

But for a long time he was sore. His hands and feet tingled as a pillow by three large men at once.

Dilan jerked his leg making Iyan's head hit the corner of the mattress.

"Aww," Iyan jumped in shock as he rubbed his forehead which was likely a lump.

Raden and Dimas wake up.

"Have you gone off the deck?" ask Dimas for the first time.

"Hmm" replied Dilan.

"I'm sorry, because papa you're so gini" said Raden feeling guilty.

Dilan cleared her throat then threw away the pretentious face.

"You really feel guilty papa must fulfill dede' request'!" dilan.

"What?" ask Raden spirit. Mau Dilan asked for the end of Monas will also be given with pleasure as long as he gets sorry from his son.

"Beliin dede' putu every day," not Dilan who spoke but Iyan.

"Shan anyway! Strangers know," ledek Dilan.

"Emang yes??" ask Raden.

"Ck, no! I want papa to cancel my arranged marriage with Gavi." errat Dilan.

"So it can't papa," Raden refused to make Dilan frown.

"What then??" dilan Protest.

"You've been taken the same as Joan and Aunt Lati" Raden said casually.

"Paan. Taken-taken up! Am I electric?!" sulang Dilan's.

"Token times," Dimas' chirps got a toyoran from Dilan.

"I just don't accept yes, as long as you are fooled like this. If you want to apologize from me, you're out of order!"

"Yes yes. Papa will talk to Joan." Said Raden stroking Dilan's hair.

Make Dilan scatter. "Really?? Promise?"

Raden linked his little finger with Dilan. "Promise,"

Dilan smiled widely and hugged Raden.

"Thank you pa. Don't change again yes" said Dilan sincerely.

"Yes,"

Simply put, Dilan was just waiting for her papa to say that one word. Pardon me! And Dilan was not hypocritical, although he was sick with Raden's treatment but Dilan could not lie to his heart. He's happy.

"Why don't you get angry being treated like you're the same papa?" One night Dilan asked Anjani.

"Honestly, tea mom was disappointed. Mom's angry. I want to run away from reality, but mommy wants you, Diran and bang Dimas tea needs mom. If I give up the same mother loses. Giving up does not mean losing, de'. Instead, the mother chose to accept the fate that has been given by the same mother. Maybe god's testing mom again. To what extent can the mother survive," the answer Anjani gave made Dilan Dilan frown.

"Dede' doesn't understand what you're saying,"

Anjani smiled gently. "You don't have to understand. But, one day if papa dede' tea apologizes, I want dede' tea sorry. Can you?"

"Can't be Mom. Brother Diran so go because of papa,"

"Your brother's tea died because he was sick again'. Don't get me wrong, papa,"

Dilan remembered Anjani's words first. Did he forgive Raden?

But Raden seemed to have realized his mistake.

Dilan hugged Raden. Opening her heart again is okay, right? Diran also came even though it was just an illusion. But he had dreamed of Diran. His face looks shining. It seemed like this was what Diran wanted as well.

Iyan and Dimas compactly smiled looking at it. Then they looked at each other for a while then glanced and distanced each other's faces.

"Cih, what a handsome ass! Potang dapet Rindu," dumel Dimas in the heart.

"Dead me. More disinisin same bang Dimas," rutuk Iyan membatin.

Looks like them, errat. More precisely Dimas looked cynically at Iyan like there was a common grudge against the guy.