
It's a break in the canteen. I just stared at the batagor in front of me, occasionally stirring without intending to put it in my mouth. I'm still thinking, where's my fault with Reno so he's silenced me. From school, to school, he remained silent, even when I spoke to him he only answered once in a while. Where's my fault, honey? Eaaa.
Instead of redundant, I finally put the bricks in my mouth. Chew it, swallow it, and it's processed by my other organs, and finally.
“Tumben didn't see Reno?”
I just cleared my throat in response to Salsa's question.
“Why Lo, break up?”
I'm shaking. Lazy to reply, just chew batagor in the mouth.
“Why the hell? Supposedly, I was upset because my number was blocked Zain.” Salsa is back.
I don't intend to reply, put a spoon of batagor back in my mouth.
“Most Reno has got a new one.”
I stared intently at Sesil who just said. It's relaxing, but does he know his friend Sadang's warning will happen. What's more, I still don't know where my fault lies. Is it possible that what Sesil said is true? Ah, it's impossible! Well, can't be ... or maybe?
“Cause of his eyes, ntar I plug.” Sesil casually devoured his meatballs.
This friend of yours!
“Psychopath!” sassy ku.
“Gue is not a psychopath.”
My eyes narrowed to face Sesil . With his leisure again he put meatballs into his mouth. I was surprised, he did not look at me and continued to eat with wisdom, but his eyes and ears seemed to be able to perform unexpected attractions. Plus, his once-talking mouth could make even a stone split and smash into pieces.
I choose not to respond again, put a spoon of batagor back in the mouth.
My eyes looked at Reno and her friends who had just entered the canteen. For a moment our eyes collided before he threw away his face and turned back to the body of Rendi, making these eyes no longer see him. I took a rough breath and turned my brain back. In the past, when I was a kid, as I remember Reno would just shut up when I ignored her. But the question is, when do I ignore it?
They sit on a canteen bench in the corner. My eyes kept watching Reno, while he was just throwing his face away when our eyes met again, again and again. Yeah, again. Because Reno was only a few seconds away from me and looked away again. What the hell does he want?!
Tuh, right. His eyes are staring back at me, let me guess if I'm gonna cut my face again. Kan's!
All right, I'll clarify the current situation. The spoon I held, I put it back on the plate, or rather slammed it. The students in the cafeteria looked at me. I was indifferent and walked on the table in the corner, more precisely towards Reno.
“Renren,” call me in front of Reno.
Reno bertehem. But I don't look at me.
“Ren.” he is silent.
“Renren.” back I called. But there's no reply.
His other friends looked at me. Maybe I see the one I ignore.
Once more. “Reno!”
He glanced at me and then scooped the food in front of him into his mouth.
I looked at the other canteen residents. They're staring. Maybe in their minds I'm a cheap girl who begs attention to a guy. He looked back at Reno who was stirring up his drink.
“Ren.”
He's silent.
My eyes are heating up. I immediately ran out of the cafeteria, embarrassed if people saw me crying.
Bruk!
“Akh.”
My hands are hot because of the meatball sauce that just hit my hands.
“Sorry, brother.”
I looked up at someone who said, Zafran, then nodded.
“Ara who must apologize.” I lent her ten thousand dollars in exchange for her spilled meatballs.
He refused and said that I didn't have to change. I kept pushing, he finally accepted. I walked back outside the cafeteria occasionally shaking my still hot hand.
Choose to go to the UKS. Then ask the ointment medicine on the PMR officer so that the hands do not blister because of the heat of the meatball sauce.
“Sini, Ra , let me medicinein.”
I nodded and approached Mina. I just remembered that he was a member of the PMR. I sat in the gurney next to Mina. Then, show my hand to him. Mina painstakingly rubbed the ointment occasionally blowing it. I smiled, Bang Refan is not wrong to fall in love with her.
“Makasih.” I stared at my hand that had been covered with saleb, it felt better than before. The sale is gel-shaped and transparent, so it is not uncomfortable if used.
“Iya, equally.”
The hooded girl walked up to the closet and stored the medicine. Turn back and smile.
“Abang Ara likes you, Min,”.
His feet stopped walking, a look of surprise on his face before he resigned and passed from UKS. I flicked my shoulders, then walked out the UKS.
“Bloon basis."
The voice made me stop walking and look at a guy who just said, Rendi. He leaned against the wall of the UKS with his hand put in his pants pocket.
“Means?” I was a little annoyed with his words just now.
“Ck, Do you realize that Reno is jealous?!”
I stinged at him. He exhaled, pulled his hair back and stared at me fiercely.
“Lo cheating, right?!”
I kicked his leg, because the emotion heard his words. He screamed and squatted and rubbed his legs that I kicked. He looked up, his forehead wrinkled at me, then stood up and ruffled his waist.
“Ara is not cheating!” Press me.
“Kalo no cheating, why hug?” he looked at me lightly, “Mesra really again.”
What the hell is he talking about?
“Ck, don't be plain pretentious! I saw Lo yesterday hugging a guy in front of Reno during the parking lot! If you are not cheating what is its name?”
I patted the eel as the brain turned back on the scene yesterday afternoon, as I hugged bang Rey and left Reno parked.
“Remember, right, lo?!”
I looked at Rendi a little fiercely. It's fault! Just try he did not complain yesterday to Reno if he did not bring a motorcycle. Maybe yesterday I'll go home with Reno, about me not saying goodbye and go straight home with Rey, it's forgetfulness.
“It's wrong Rendi!”
He seemed to be unable to accept my words. It's true it's his fault!
“Lo who cheated! How am I wrong?!”
“Ara is not cheating! It's bang Rey! Cousin Ara !” I stared fiercely at the guy in front of me, “clear?!”
After saying that, I passed towards the classroom. As he passed Reno class, he stretched his hand in my way, letting us be a spectacle of passing students.
“Awas!” my voice was a little high, because it was still emotional with Rendi.
Reno's breath sounded harsh. His hand pulled my hand to follow in his footsteps.
“Sit!” he said when he arrived in front of the white bench of the school park.
I sat down and followed him. He sighed.
This hand was taken over by him, “Still sick?”
“Gak.” I pulled my hand again.
His forehead creased, looking at me sharply.
“Ngapain removable?” he said he pulled this hand back to hold it.
Back I pulled a hand, “Ngapain jealous?”
He exhaled, then leaned on the back of the park bench. His eyes glared at the clouds that looked white. Is beautiful.
Silent.
“Not have a reason.”
I turned my eyes from the sky back towards him. He sat down from the back, looking back at me.
“Why did you leave yesterday?” ask her with a slightly puckered forehead.
“Lupa.”
His body returned. This time not on the bench but on this shoulder.
“Reno feels at nonalin.”
“Ara is not indifferent, even Reno is indifferent.”
He chuckles, “Iya-iya Reno is wrong.”
That's dong! Women, right, are always right!
“Now Tuesday, just another Sunday.”
A sunday?
“Why with Sunday?” my many.
He looked up with me bowing to him who leaned.
I pinched his waist. Before my hand pinched him the second time, he ran away, I immediately chased after him. We laughed at the simple happiness we created together.
***
“So how?”
“Jam two in the afternoon, Lo go home and bring dad, we find clarity with everything, because usually grandma at two o'clock is home. Yeah, right, Ra ?”
I nodded in response to Bang Refan . Zain nodded, then sipped his drink into the toilet.
“Yes, I went to my father's office first,” said Zain then passed out of the cafe.
“We go home,” says bang Refan .
“Ara with Reno.”
Bang Refan nodded and passed away leaving the cafe where we discussed a few hours ago.
“So where are we?”
“Ke KUA aja,” answered me a little chuckle.
We decided to go home after a long conversation.
***
I was sitting in the living room with my mother in front of me, and Rissa. As we promised earlier, at two in the afternoon we will make everything clear.
Sometimes staring at the door. Waiting for Zain to bring father.
“Why the hell, Ara ?” ask grandma, maybe he was careless to see the behavior of his grandchildren.
“Iya, sister Ara why?”
I just shook my head. Anyway, I have to wait patiently for clarity from grandma about what happened. Don't come because I can't resist the emotion of clawing at the girl's face in front of me. It's all so messy.
“Udah come?”
I shook my head in response to the new Bang Refan coming down the stairs.
Not long after Bang Refan sat on the sofa, the bell rang. It must be Zain and Dad. Immediately I stepped towards the door, slightly running.
There were two men standing in front of the door. Zain and dad. I hugged my father and said sorry for my treatment at the cafe. He forgave and rubbed the head. I'll let them in soon.
Grandma's face looked shocked when father and Zain reached the living room.grandmother cried, father ran towards grandma bend his legs in front of grandma while saying sorry continuously.
“Sorry, I'm granny ”
Grandma was silent in her tears, clasping her hands as she tried to reach her
“Dad .”
“Grandmother .”
Serempak bang Refan and Zain.
Then the father and grandmother looked at their son and grandson.
Zain ran and hugged grandma . My twin cried as Grandma hugged him and told him she loved him so much. So did bang Refan who hugged dad.
“A handsome father's son has been big.” father rubbed the head bang Refan occasionally throw kisses, he shed tears.
I sat on the sofa staring at the girl in the opposite chair who looked down. As he looked up at me, I threw a cynical look at him. He went back down, squeezing his fingers. Hmh! I'm sick of him.
“For us, unite,” said bang Refan.
Dad nodded then hugged his sons together. I looked back at the girl.
“Nak, come here join,” call dad.
I smiled and immediately stood up, then drew closer to my family. As I was about to hug the four people I loved, a hand also came from beside me. Kulrik keside, Rissa. This girl! Don't you have any shame?!
“Already, let's Rissa also come,” said Grandma gently as she stretched her hand on Rissa.
“Ngak!” my yelling.
I was pretty emotionally carried away by Grandma's treatment of him. What is really special about him?
“Araa!” press grandma.
I stare at mother. Why is he yelling at me? Does he love that girl more than I do?
“What, grandma ?! Want to be angry with Ara ?! Grandma lied, right, about her?!” I pointed at the girl's face.
“Ara ,” shriek grandma , she then looks down.
He hugged me and looked at me sharply. What's with them?
“Who is this girl?” ask me to look at Rissa.
Grandma pulls Rissa's hand closer to dad. It's screwing me over here. What .... What really happened?
“She's son Zahra.”
“My son.” dad hugs Rissa and kisses the girl's head.
What the fuck?
I pulled Rissa's hand and pushed her to the floor. I smiled at him looking at him in pain. I'm too sick of seeing it!
He ran up to the girl and helped her up. Hmh!
“Child bitch aided!”
Plaque!
I held the heated cheek. I was stunned, just this time grandma slapped me and this was for the sake of the girl.
“Ara ,” slim grandma. I clapped his hand which was about to grab my face.
Looking right in the eyes of the woman who gave birth to me. I'm disappointed, I'm really disappointed, knowing this meeting would be like this. God would have better keep us apart forever.
“Grandmother apologized, son,” sheave.
I'm shaking. Looked at everyone in this room. My eyes stopped on the bang Refan . I ran and immediately hugged her. Bang Refan cupped my face and stroked it.
“Still sick, hmm?”
I nodded with tears flowing. My cheeks are really sore and hot. The first time in my life my cheek was slapped and the one who slapped it was my own round. Because of that girl! My hands clenched when I saw the father who treated the girl well.
“Obviously we are, why does grandma belain him to the extent slap my sister!” bang Refan said with a completely flat face.
I hugged him tightly. I know he's very emotional.
“You all come with grandma then you will know everything.”
Bang Refan nodded to take me following grandma out of the house followed by everything.
***
“Udah, don't cry anymore.”
I felt a swipe in the head. In this car there's just me and bang Refan. Others use Zain cars. Including that girl!
My hands clenched, holding in anger as I remembered my mother slapping me just for her sake.
The car stopped right in the yard of the mental hospital. Why here?
Bang Refan's out, I'll follow his lead on Zain's car.
“Come granny ”
The woman who raised me walked ahead of us. Stopped right in the room I was guessing was a sick person's room.
Grandma opened the door slowly. Showing a nurse who was coaxing the mentally ill patient's meal. The patient threw all the stuff at us. My reflexes are backwards.
Grandma came forward and hugged the patient, miraculously the patient stopped raging and silently accepted a bribe from the grandmother.
“Mother.” Rissa came forward to approach the patient, about to hug.
The patient pushes Rissa by shouting, lunges at Rissa's body, and slaps her. I'm smothering my mouth. Rissa sobbed, receiving every blow the patient gave her. Grandma injured them and again calmed the patient down. After the patient went to sleep, the grandmother took us out and sat in the garden of this mental hospital.
Grandma explained everything. I finally knew I was a little sad to hear Grandma's story. Grandma said that the patient was Rissa's mother, Ara's best friend first. Mother divorced with father because disappointed with the father who impregnated his own best friend, or more specifically his mother Rissa raped by father.
I kept apologizing as long as you told me. The word grandmother happened because between father and mother was once no love, mother said she was betrothed to father, whereas father love her mother Rissa.
Until that night happened. Dad was drunk and didn't realize what he was doing to Rissa's mother. He is late in his love. Forgetting about us waiting at home, when I was a year old.
After Rissa's mother said that the child she contains is a father's child, the mother is disappointed and asks for divorce from the father. In fact, the new father is aware of love for the mother after divorce. I'm not responsible for Rissa's mother.
Mother Rissa depression will be gossiped by the community. He pulled over from the city, moved to the village with his grandmother Rissa. Wishing to live in the village would make it more comfortable. But in reality, in the village he gets more insinuations even though he is not judged. They live poor to gossip the neighbors in the village. Until Rissa's grandmother died, Rissa's mother was completely insane.
The search for grandmother was not in vain, he got the news that his best friend was crazy and left his son in the village. Grandma took Rissa's mother to the mental hospital we're going to now and brought Rissa home.
Grandma said she didn't want to lie to me about Rissa, she was just afraid I'd hate Rissa and couldn't accept the child of her father and best friend. Although my heart has not completely melted away from it, but my hatred for Rissa is starting to be fragile.
I finally hugged Rissa. It must be hard to live life among people's gossip. Added to her crazy mother. I can't imagine if that happened to me.
“Ara apologize,” my word.
The girl I was hugging nodded with a sobbing.
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