
I got out of the car and watched around, not much had changed everything was still the same, I walked towards the door and knocked on it.
Tok tok tok tok
I peeked through the window there was no sign of anyone coming out,
Tok tok tok tok
"Assalamu'alaikum.bii?" I said a little scream but still no one opened the door.
"auntie where the house is so quiet" I muttered, still knocking on the door.
"bi Assalamu'alaikum.ini rania bi, niah go home" I said again but still nil, no one opened the door.
"neng rania huh?" asked one of the neighbors to come up to me, maybe he woke up because I was making noise.
The hero mother and the faiz mas were all standing beside me, while the aunt's neighbor was seen walking hastily towards me.
"god this tea is really neng niah, why new home oruh neng, kasian aunt neng, since neng rania left for the city and did not hear at all aunt neng became sick." obviously the fat lady made both my knees shake.
"then is aunt okay bude, where is aunt now? Why didn't he open the door for me." I said in a voice that was already shaking.
"who is patient may not be a soul mate anymore to be able to meet with the late."
"degs?"
like being struck by lightning without being cloudy, I was instantly limp if the person I wanted to meet had gone home to Rahmatullah.
My whole body was shaking but there were no tears in this eye patch, there was only a sense that could not keep up with the situation.
Several times mas faiz or mother tried to support me but still I was unable to stand.
"in the event that I went home to see my aunt, I also wanted to introduce my husband to my aunt, Why? Why not give me a chance for just a minute."
I hit my chest that felt tight, it was hard for me to be sincere, but I still had to do it.
"pardon me?" I said with a cry that I could no longer hold, I spilled all the clamor in the arms of the man I wanted to introduce to auntie, not caring about the confused face of the woman in front of me, I just wanted to cry without asking any more.
"istighfar or neng, eling?, all happened by the lust of god" said the woman trying to strengthen me.
"bude when's aunt's death?" my question is still as hot as it is.
"one week ago, he had a high fever and finally died" explained bude fatma who I knew quite close to aunt.
"then, where Mba went, she should be in this house"
"the day after his mother died, he went somewhere? Even in not doing thanksgiving for leaving her parents."
"god.."my voice grew increasingly poignant hearing the story of the bude fatma.
I looked at my mother-in-law, as if she understood the meaning of my gaze.
"don't worry son, before we go back to the city, we'll give thanks first and go home, stand up and strengthen your faith, I'll take care of everything and you won't have to cry anymore." said my mother wiped my tears.
"hey dear already.There is still a mother here, you are not alone, are we not your family also hem?" my mother said that she put my nose in a fit of anxiety, though I saw her eyes also glazed over.
"this is the key to the house mba rida, I deliberately took one secretly from neng Ranti, so that if neng niah returned home can enter" said bude fatma handed the key to mother.
Mas Faiz took the key and opened the door, me and the others followed when the door was open.
My eyes were flooding back to see a picture of my aunt with me when I won a poetry contest.
"auntie must have suffered no one to take care of aunt's sick time." I murmured softly again feeling the tremendous tightness she cried.
"sssshut.sadly, prayers are not only so that aunt gets the best place, do not cry it and then you will be sick." said mas faiz clutching my body that feels very tired, very tired, and, I fell asleep after crying too much.
"den looks like neng rania tea is asleep, let me clean the bed first so that neng niah tea can rest" said bude fatma hurrying to clean my room and also mba room will be ready for us to sleep.
At 5 am I woke up, thinking back to the words of bude fatma, god.perih once realized aunty is no more.
All this time only auntie would consider me family, other than she no longer wanted to look at me as part of them.
I forced myself to get up, perhaps by taking a bath and washing my face with water my feelings would be much better.
It only takes 15 minutes I have finished performing dawn prayers, do not forget also I say a prayer for aunt to be calmer in nature there.
I saw Faiz, he was still sound in his sleep, maybe he was too tired on the trip yesterday, I covered him with a blanket and then moved on my suitcase containing souvenirs for aunt.
I took it all out and put it on the dresser.
"auntie see? It's all for aunty, auntie knows I've been looking for all this for 3 hours until my feet get cramped,"
I sat in front of the dresser looking at all the souvenirs, "must I do all this" I muttered wiping tears with the back of my hand.
"hiks...hiks...this is all for you bi?, why did auntie leave instead? Aunty won't see me coming home,! Hiks..hiks..! Niah told you it's gonna be okay, why is it hard for aunty to believe?"
I heard there was movement behind me, but I didn't care, most of all the faiz who had woken up.
"sayaaang.." he whined at me and hugged me from behind with his head down.
"what's up?" ask me with my voice that is discordant due to crying for too long.
"let's go to sleep again, I'm still sleepy, are you going to me?"
"mas niah want to help mom cook for the afternoon study?" I said stand facing him.
"temenin mas sleep first, later if the mas have slept you can come out?" he said he put his head on my shoulder.
"yes let me accompany," I said to invite him, if refused mas faiz will continue to whine,
Mas Faiz jumped onto the bed and patted the space he had left, lying next to him with his hands under my head.
"i can't sleep either,!can I be ashamed of my mother? Not that this cook is still hugging the doi." My mind is stuffy because mas faiz hugs me very tightly.
"mas won't let you get tired under these circumstances, so I won't let you out to cook." Inner mas faiz tightened his arms, hemm.