
Pov renata's
"hemm.apparently working in the office still can't make me forget you, if I'm okay, maybe I'm still struggling to get you."
I threw this tired body on the couch, it felt so tired all day just thinking I was doing.
I looked at my phone, I swiped it until it misrepresented the face of the man I loved so much.
"faiz are you happy with her, do you remember me a little, ah stupid I am, is not she really not like me, then how she remembers me," I cawed at myself.
I looked at the clock on my wrist, now at 12 pm, the worm in my stomach seemed to be dancing to be fed, don't want to think too much about me grabbing my bag and then go looking for calm even if only for a moment.
"renata where are you going" asked the father when he saw me coming out of the room, it looks like he also just finished miting.
"rena just wants to go out for a while well, bosen inside continues, hungry rena want to find food first,"
"You want to accompany me?"
"yes if you're hungry too?"
"wait a minute I'll keep this first" he said, showing some maps in his hands.
"yes,?"
I followed my father from behind and got into the elevator, and when I got downstairs, my father and I headed for the car parked in the office yard.
"where do you want lunch?" ask me when I am in the car.
"in the cafe, yes" I answered briefly without looking at my father.
"what it's like to work in an office are you happy enough, or just feel bored, I see no change of your face, still the same as this morning.
"everything needs a processwell, isn't that what you say often."
"yes, I hope you're much better in the future,"
I just nodded, not wanting to talk too much, until we arrived at a gray cafe combined with white to emasan, hem.
Dad parked the car and went down to open the door for me, I ignored it at all and went out without saying Thank you.
Dad didn't mind either, but I knew he must be sad.
I looked for a comfortable seat until my father arrived and sat across from me.
"what do you want to eat" asked the father when the waiter came to bring the food menu.
"anything well, the important thing is not spicy and can make me full." I replied looking towards the window, because I was sitting by the window.
"unfortunately you're not eating, are you just going to watch the mas."
"so nia already eat mas, niah drink juice deh, already full because if you eat again."
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"it's like Faiz's voice, is he here"
There was a faiz sound while I was still busy with my thoughts, I just circulated the right view, faiz was here, he was even sitting opposite the table with me.
But my heart ached when I saw him with another woman.
Maybe that other woman is his wife.
my gaze could not be separated from her, but I remembered that she was the same woman I had met at the boutique back then.
it turns out she was the one who married Faiz.
"honey let's eat, aren't you very hungry?" my daydream paid to hear my father's voice in front of me.
"yes well, dad eat too" I replied trying to cover my face that was warming up.
"mas I'm sleepy."
there was a voice that he was sleepy, a voice that sounded so spoiled.
"iz? I'm here if you don't want to see me, can't you feel my presence."
I ate quickly, not wanting to linger in this cafe, after I finished leaving my father who was still enjoying the food.
Selflessly, I stood up and went out regardless of the call from father.
"because you're going where I haven't finished eating yet"
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"rena wait for me in the car, spend first father's food later father's sick eat just a little."
I sent Dad a message so he wouldn't worry
"why not wait for dad, do you feel uncomfortable being here"
I read Dad's message, it's not easy to run away from him either.
"later to explain, eat first and wait in the car."
After the message was sent, I put my head back on, it felt so heavy, maybe I had too many thoughts lately,
Unconsciously my eyes closed to forget everything.
Just a few minutes into my sleep, I felt someone get in the car.
I looked me in the eye and saw, it was my father coming in, I thought someone else.
"why not wait inside, don't you get too hot in the car"
My father asked maybe he had not realized that behind him there was a faiz.
"it's hotter inside, well, even the hot horn makes me cry."
I throw my face towards the window.
"because Faiz and his wife are in there until you get hot"
I turned to look at Dad, I thought you didn't know Faiz was inside.
"where do you know, and if you understand that there's a faiz inside, why do you just shut up and not say anything" I said looking for you with questions.
"father is not deaf, until father does not hear their conversation, father is silent, because father understands you must not like it if father discusses it."
again I avoided the gaze of my father, I was so ashamed, crying for a man who was married to another woman.
"please learn more strongly, there is still a lot of happiness out there for you, man not just him, message father fight for him who loves you, and stop fighting for people who never think you exist."
Hearing my father's advice, it seemed like there was no harm in trying it, anyway in terms of appearance and material, almost everything I had, I was sure I could find another happiness.
"Thank you dad, rena's gonna try"
I see you smiling it feels quite happy just to see him smiling like that.
Dad drove his car away from the place, hem.it would be better like this, than there would only leave endless wounds.
"dad?"
"hem.." answered Dad, stay focused on the streets.
"daddy don't get bored all day just work on it, don't you think about getting married again."
Dad parked the car but didn't get out.
"what's up? Do you want to have a stepmother, or are you tired of being followed by a father hem."
"hhhhh.didnya father not tired of being a stalker, rena just want father to continue life without feeling guilty to the late mother."
I don't know why I laugh at him, but there's nothing funny about my question.