Cannot Be Touched

24. I CAN'T STOP

Ting tong...

Sia continued to squeeze the bell of Jiho's house, she was worried about Jiho's state of fear of anything happening, especially last time on the phone her voice sounded so sad.

Ting tong...

there's still no movement.

"Well, why did he open the door for so long?" Sia Gerrutu.

Sia continued her actions.

Kriet (sound of the door being opened).

Jiho opened the door, looking at Jiho's grim and sad face.

"Ah, Jiho, are you okay?" Ask Sia curious.

Jiho bowed listlessly.

"Ma.excuse me. This is all my fault........"

Not done talking yet, Sia had already cut it off.

"Walk yuk, you need entertainment." Sia said quickly.

**

The Indoor Cart Bar.

At a bar table Sia Lee pours soju (drinks of alcohol) into a small glass.

"Drink" said Sia while thrusting the glass in front of Jiho who was sitting next to him.

"I can't drink" Jiho refused her, she was still with a grim expression.

"If I ask for a glass, I promise I'll take care of you, if drunk" Sia continued to persuade her.

Jiho turned his head towards Sia, looking at Sia with many meanings, after a few seconds then he looked towards the glass and picked it up.

He's still thinking.

"Drinking liquor in a bad mood, it helps a lot" explained Sia.

Jiho then drank it with one gulp, glek.......

Sia spoke back,

"It's okay to drink liquor in times of severe stress, sometimes you have to be honest with your feelings, I know you're very sad to lose that goldfish, you know, I'm also sure that the happy fish lives with you, so don't be sad, Jiho" Sia explained, looking down.

Bruks....

Jiho was already unconscious from drinking one glass earlier, he had already collapsed on the table.

Sia was shocked to hear the stubborn voice of Jiho who was now half asleep on the table.

"Jeez Jiho...Jiho..are you okay? you're okay, right?" Sia panicked and startled, she immediately shifted her seat slightly towards Jiho.

Sia Lee embraces Jiho's shoulders and tries to resuscitate him by shrugging Jiho's shoulders and head.

"Thanks to your head, my God, it must have hurt to hit the table, your head hurts?" Ask Sia..

Jiho slowly got up from the table.

"She's dead......" Said Jiho while holding his head.

"That's dead because of me"

Sia Lee made it.

"Is he drunk? he had just had a glass of soju, he was drunk again, but if so..the dish is ready!!" Inner Sia.

"For me.hiks..I'm sorry goldfish" Jiho cried.

"Good dragon, he's very fragile when he's drunk, and he doesn't care about being touched, then I have to try him....." Inner Sia in heart, while embracing Jiho's shoulder.

Not yet anything Jiho keeps babbling.

"Why? Why did all my dear ones leave me, my father.my mother.and now that goldfish.hiks hiks"

Jiho cried as he pleased.

"Your mother?" Sia asked Jiho, he had already let go of his embrace on Jiho's shoulder and now he was back sitting next to Jiho while listening to Jiho tell a story.

"Yes my mother, my mother was a writer of children's stories, when I was a child, she used to read the book next to me, it was the happiest time of my life, then when I was 8 years old, suddenly my parents divorced, my mother left and I lived with my father, Huuuh" Jiho let out a long sigh, and occasionally his tears dripped.

Jiho continued his story.

"I read the book over and over again, hoping that she would come back again.hiks hiks.gadly my father remarried, I think he wanted me to have a surrogate mother, my stepmother was young, my stepmother was young, and dad rarely came home because of his job, my stepmother he was too young to have a marriage with a widower who already had children, since then I was taken care of by him, I know it was quite heavy for him, I know it was quite difficult for him, and from that moment on, the oppression begins"

Jiho recalled the memories of her childhood with her stepmother.

"Sick kid, do you know why your mom didn't come back? because you're so dirty, stupid kid, your mom doesn't want to go back to a dirty kid like you, so that's why your mom left you.ha ha ha ha ha" her stepmother laughed wickedly.

Little Jiho kept crying.

"So I wash my hands repeatedly, I'm sure if I clean my mother will come back, every time she says rudely, I clean my hands as clean as possible,at school I didn't even want to shake hands with my friends because I was afraid of getting germs, which is how I kept my distance from everyone else, and then I realized, no matter how clean I was, no matter how clean I was, my mother won't come back.hiks hiks" Jiho's tears are running down her cheeks.

Jiho was silent for a moment, Sia Lee let him not want to disturb first.

After a few seconds of silence, Jiho continued.

"But I couldn't stop this habit, and just after I graduated high school, my father died of illness"

Jiho recalled his father's words before dying.

"Jiho I'm sorry, I'm a bad father, all this time I've been troubling you, I'm sorry Jiho" said the father, holding my hand.

"I was very sad that time, I went straight to the toilet to wash my hands because my father was holding my hand, Hiks hyks.I felt the warmth of his hand for the last time, but I couldn't help it, it was like dying, I couldn't stand it, I honestly didn't want to live like this" Jiho said, wiping his tears.

Sia Lee doesn't talk much she's just being a good listener.

He was stunned by what Jiho had just told him.

Jiho was still bowed sadly he did not dare to raise his head upright let alone look at Sia.

After they felt quite calm, Sia then took Jiho home.

They take a taxi home, and when they get to the apartment building, Sia holds Jiho out of the taxi.

Sia continued to pick Jiho who was still under the influence of the drink walked to the second floor, the floor where they lived.

Till they're at Jiho's door.

"Have we arrived, watch your step, Jiho try to get up for a moment, how much is your house code?, try pressing!!"

Sia tries to resuscitate Jiho, fortunately Jiho regains consciousness for a moment and presses his house code.

They enter Jiho's house.

Bruks........

Sia laid Jiho on his unconscious discophone.

"Fiuhhh..Eventually, geez, it feels like my shoulder will be broken, now I'm sorry about the commotion Baryu and Sihwan at that time, But everywhere, I finally know the secret"

Sia then sat on the sofa while looking at Jiho's handsome face.

"By the way she really can't stand alcoholic beverages, I didn't think she'd be like this just because of a small glass of soju" Sia kept watching Jiho who was sleeping on the sofa.

Suddenly.glek...

Sia's face flushed like boiled shrimp.

"May I touch her, just for a second? Well Sia don't do that, you can't use people who are no longer conscious, ta but the chicken is here, and do not know when this opportunity will be there again, fine ten seconds only" Sia said in her heart, as if there were angels and devils debating, her mind churned at the sight that awembawexed before her eyes.

Sia then approached Jiho closer, closer and closer so that there was no distance between them.

Sia slowly stretched out her hand, her heart deg deg so fast, a nano nano feeling appeared just then.

"I can't stop" Inner Sia.

"Sorry, Jiho, just for a moment, please" Sia then touched Jiho's smooth cheek..

Feeling the delicacy of his touch on the cheeks of the handsome man, suddenly Jiho's hand held Sia's hand.

Sia was startled instead of playing, her eyes bulged, Sia's cold sweat started coming out from shock.

"Don't........" Said Jiho while holding Sia's hand, without opening her eyes.

"Don't leave me.please"