Brother Gemes

Different cannot be the same

"I go to the toilet first. You go to the canteen first."

The break has been going off five minutes ago. Tera asks permission to go to the toilet and lets Noa into the cafeteria alone. Both of his best friends may have sat there and they may have ordered food.

"Do you want me to go to China?" tawar Noa's.

Tera shook her head slowly. "You go first. I'm following."

"I wait. What the hell?"

Noa was worried about him.

In the current situation, when their relationship with Sandy is not good, Noa is afraid of something that is not desired.

"Don't want to ah. Go to the canteen." drive Tera away.

He pushed Noa's arm as soon as possible to the cafeteria. Noa approached Tera again until Tera's back touched the wall.

"Noa, letting you eat. I just want to go to the toilet for a second. I'll be followed." Pinta Tera.

Noa was forced to comply with the request. He nodded his head to comply with Tera's request. Before leaving, Noa took the opportunity to kiss Tera's forehead. It was only for a moment because the school residents were mingling outside the room. And he did not want to invite the scorn of many people.

Tera smiled then entered the toilet. Noa rushed to the canteen. Before joining Dimas and Ahmad, Noa ordered lunch for Tera.

On the tray are now available two dishes siomay and Tera's favorite mango juice. Noa took the tray to the table where Dimas and Ahmad were enjoying their lunch.

"Lur, where's bini lo?" ask Dimas.

"In the toilet." Noa answered.

He keeps a tray on the table. Just waiting for Tera to come here. But Tera was a long time ago. His mind was getting chaotic as anxiety struck. Tera said only briefly but after Noa queued siomay long queue Tera had not reached the canteen.

"Aren't you worried? Time in the toilet too. No need to rest" said Ahmad.

"Hm, I'll suck him up" Noa said.

"Bibir lo why, lur?" ask Dimas.

Ahmad turned his attention to Noa's wounded lower lip.

"Yes, why?" appoint Ahmad.

"The same story you two are in shock again" replied Noa kalem while pointing at the faces of her two best friends alternately.

Dimas was enthusiastic until he forgot his yellow rice.

"Try story. I'm curious about that."

Ahmad was excited. "Yes, boss. Fugitive story."

Noa was astonished by their interest. But he realized that something was still in the shadows.

"In Tera's bite." Noa explained.

"Udah.it's doang?" ask them to gather.

Noa nodded. They feel sorry for being so enthusiastic. Noa's explanation was not in accordance with their wishes that they might expect Noa to tell something at length.

Noa looked at Ahmad. The one in the face even shamed. Ahmad turned his face in the other direction without knowing his hand stirring the meatballs.

"Mad, why? Stir the sauce using a spoon instead of using your fingers." said Noa.

"Eh, wrong. Ck, uh...."

Ahmad was misbehaved and he awkwardly noticed Noa and Dimas.

"Lo's weird, Mad." said Dimas.

Ignoring them, Ahmad again stirred his meat sauce, but this time he used a spoon. His phone vibrated briefly indicating an incoming message. Ahmad read the message and replied with a smile.

"Why lo, that was awkward now I hear you grin."

Dimas was astonished by Ahmad's drastic changes.

"Huh? Oh, I'm talking to two people again" said Ahmad.

Noa asked too. "Who?"

"Ehm, Imas the same.euh, yes it is not discussed." replied Ahmad.

He shook his hand as he answered more fully.

Dimas looked at Noa with astonishment, Noa gave a shoulder not because he did not care but Ahmad did not allow them to know his privacy.

Because Tera long time did not approach Noa to the cafeteria, he finally decided to go back to the toilet. To be honest, he was feeling troubled.

Dimas without being told was already knowing that Noa would go to the toilet. While Ahmad still lowered his head while replying to the chat that did not stop coming.

Noa walked as fast as she could, when she reached the door of the toilet that was not closed perfectly, she heard the sound of someone talking.

From the gap of the available door, he peered inside there. His sense of vision was greeted with scenes of views between Sandy and Tera. Sandy was talking and the faithful Tera was listening.

"Gue loves her" Sandy said in a tone full of emphasis.

Tera was silent. He's speechless. Didn't say anything to reply to Sandy's statement. Then the next scene, Sandy wiggles Tera's arm.

"Gue love him. It's not so bad." said Sandy.

"He belongs to me. You can find a heart that doesn't have possession." Tera replied.

"But I want him."

Sandy said that with a little scream.

"Lo can't take what belongs to someone else" Tera said gently.

That soft speech got the attention of Noa. Indeed, Noa is more and more amazed at the way Tera confronts Sandy, alone without asking for her protection. Even Tera had not previously told him the things that always bothered him. He was worried alone without involving Noa.

"Gue wants Noa."

Sandy kept shaking Tera's arm.

Noa saw Tera release a check on her arm.

"Lo is like me. Lo some kind of mirror. I can see myself as I was before I had Noa. You want a couple like Noa but that's not love, Sandy. You are just envious. You want the same dapetin as mine without bothering to find a similar love."

Tera didn't reply to Sandy. He just stared at the face covered with emotion. Sandy breathed a rough breath and left Tera.

Noa avoided the door that would open. He moved by hiding beside the toilet wall.

Sandy walked in a hurry with a hunting breath. As she walks towards Noa, who is still hiding, Noa pulls Sandy away from the toilet.

Sandy rebelled asking Noa to release a powerful check in her hand. Noa continued to pull that hand towards the back building of the school. Arriving there, he threw Sandy's hand and stared firmly in the bead of his eyes.

"Have I ever given you hope?" ask Noa at the beginning of their conversation.

"Gue doesn't care about hope." elak Sandy.

"You don't want to get happiness. Because prayer is hope. And you don't care about hope. That's why it's hard to be happy." Noa said.

"-----gue never felt the love of lo, Sandy. There is no feeling of love that flows from your heart to me. Tera said, You just envy the happiness of Tera. Lo feels the same fate as him but does not have the same destiny." he continued.

"But I.." said Sandy.

He had trouble continuing his speech. Noa did not interrupt Sandy's words. He waited but there was no continuation of that speech.

"---- you want to be happy, find your own happiness. There is a different path for every human being to happiness. You can't match the road Tera took. You can't find happiness from me. It's never gonna be the same as Tera felt, Sandy. It was just an instant way to be happy without taking the trouble to struggle in the search. Even if we are together, you will not be able to get Tera happy. It will never be the same. You are just envious. It's not love, Sandy."

Noa uttered the whole thing in a gentle tone so as not to hurt Sandy's heart again. Sandy blinked, she called Noa's attention.

"Sandy, someday you can be like Tera. But not with me. Because at any time, my heart is only for him. You can definitely get better. Lo it's good. A kind-hearted person covered in envy. Throw away that envy" Noa said.

"But, Noa..gue likes you" said Sandy Lirih.

Noa shook her head while smiling understandably.

"No. There's no feeling, Sandy. I never felt the slightest bit of love. There's nothing. Lo present when I'm upset. You've always been attentive through your comments on my social media since I was open about my feelings for Tera, the person I was headed to at the time. You're here just to cheer up a beautiful kayak."

"Sir, Noa. I like sam-..."

"Sandy.gue isn't bi-..."

They interjected each other.

Sandy says. "But I..."

"But as time goes by you miss a person who can love you. Along with that stale, you try to express that which is not a sincere love. You just miss the affection. And you saw my sincerity for Tera. You want to kayak him. You feel the same fate and want to be the same fate. I can't, Sandy. I can't be your instant guy to get to your happy lo it. There is someone who can be happy. Let me be with Tera. Because even if we were together, you and I would not have the happiness that Tera and I feel. Love is not that instant. You can't brew fast with the taste you want. Love is still in progress, still on the way. You have to wait patiently." said Noa.

According to Noa, Sandy was only jealous of Tera's achievements because of her endless patience and hope. Those who have solitude. I feel the same loneliness.

They are like a reflection, so that if one of them feels happiness immeasurably then the reflection also wants the same thing. Wanted fate in a completely different destiny. The path of life does not have to be passed exactly by every person in this mortal world.

There are times when the road is so difficult to pass by many people who feel the same difficulties of life. When one has gone through that predicament and gained appreciation for his patience, it is not the same as the other. Maybe the process is different and takes more time requiring patience.

When the same path cannot be passed with the same happiness, should not seek another path to achieve happiness at the end of the painful journey.

Because choosing the same path and wanting to end up the same with the same happiness will not be able to come true. Happy at the end there is only waiting for someone who becomes his destiny.

And Sandy has missteps. So making it happen is the best thing. He can't reach the same end as Tera. If it's Tera's property, it can't be exchanged or given to Sandy.

Maybe the happy end of Sandy is still waiting on the other road, and at the other end of there the happiness of Sandy is still patiently waiting to be picked up by the owner.

"Noa, I love you..Noa." great-granddaughter Sandy.

"No, Sandy. The feeling of love is happy not torturing you. I finally realized after Tera returned my love. And you only care not really love." whispered Noa.

Sandy was about to grab Noa's hand but Noa's treatment was avoided. Leaving was something Noa had to do at this moment. There is no other way but to avoid love that is not earnest.

Love grows because caring may still survive but when caring is increasingly eroded over time then the love is eroded to thin.

In his silence there was no gust of wind. The crying sounded very clear. Making Noa's concern rise up and be moved to get back closer to him.

"Sandy..."

Noa extended a hand to grab the body that had collapsed from deep pain. Sandy raised her head not wanting tears to keep on dripping. Perhaps this was wrong, but Noa could not bear to see the painful scene before her own eyes.

The voice that always filled the days of Noa interrupted the movement of her hand to grab Sandy.

"Noah..."

Looking at the origin of the sound, Noa restrained the movement. Tera looked at Noa and Sandy alternately. He came near them. He grabbed Noa's hand to stay away from Sandy.

"Here wake. I'm helping you."

Instead, it was Tera who then grabbed Sandy's arm. Unfortunately, Sandy refused Tera's help. He brushed aside Tera's two tiny hands.

Sandy stood together with Tera's outstretched hand back to grab it. But he touched Tera's hand. Don't want to be touched by that softness.

Noa also distanced Tera from the figure of Sandy. Anger covered the goodness of his heart. Anger covered his eyes that goodness existed. Only by holding Tera can Noa do to protect Tera from Sandy's rampage.

Tera turned to Noa, what a beautiful sight in a situation that was filled with anger. Tera is like a tree. Tera is like thirst-busting water. Tera is like a cold wind that blows a relief.

Sandy ran away from them. Noa was getting closer to her lover. But that does not mean not to care about the figure of Sandy who is tidying up.

It's not her job to strengthen Sandy. Because if he does that, Sandy will feel tossed and she is not a false hope-giver. A faint hope could not be reached even at the touch, it would only hurt more than it currently felt.

Tera hugged Noa tightly. "Don't love the others. I've tried to be the best."

"Even you are always the best at all times." whispered Noa.

Tera held on to embrace Noa tightly. His breathing was felt in Noa's chest. His ears are so attached to Noa's chest that the heart is still beating with excitement because the soul mate always encourages him to continue to thrilling love that feels eternal. And that's what Noa likes the most. Because Tera would listen to the beatings just for him.

"Our fool is impossible, my dear." whispered Noa.

Tera. He smiles.

"Yes. I believe in love and a soul mate after you've shown me the earnestness of that feeling."

"Nothing is impossible, my dear. Hope exists. A humming of hope that we know is prayer. Will not leave us in trouble. There will be someone who will get up perfectly. Talk about perfect. I know of perfect love. Same with you." said Noa.

"Darling it is the same with you. Love.." said Tera flirtatiously.

"Hem, I always have...."

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Tbc