Brother Gemes

Don't go away

"Thera...Tera wait."

*What's the use of legs when you can't walk to your destination, if you can't run after your dreams.

What good is a hand if you can't reach for hope.

What's the use of 'heart' when you can't share all the flavors in life*.

*What's for the heart if each beat just signifies you're alive but feeling dead in life.

What is the use of breathing when every blow is just an empty wind of hope.

What use to the eyes when you can only see what you long to stay away from, leave you can't reach anymore. A back that's getting away, pain for you*.

Heartbroken but not desperate. There is still a speck of despair left. There's still a taste of happiness that should be felt.

"Stay away from me. Don't bother me anymore."

When the heart flies high in the wind and dropped with the rain that is getting louder. Where the hell are you?

Puddles.

Treaded, avoided, and away, wallowing in one hole until you dry up.

You don't want to be there. Then will the stagnant water go away when it is not desirable to be there?

No. gabe.

"Go away.or I'll make you not perfect anymore."

*Don't let me go. Don't say that again. Let me stay here. I want to be like the perfect man with the perfect love.

Don't avoid me anymore. Remember you, when I put this whole heart in the space of your heart. I give my heart fullness in the emptiness of your race. I won't ask you, don't give it back. Keep it well there*.

"Please !!! There's a copet !!!"

Still standing here like a sickle. Begging through the eyes. Won't move in the slightest to save a second of memories while I still have a chance to look at your face.

That shout.invited everyone. They're approaching. Judgmental. And so it happens, a body that hurts. The whole body feels real pain but the other pain is more dominating.

The crowd dispersed, two hands trying to reach.

*He is?

Can I reach?

Wake me. Take me to a place where hope is real.

Darkened. All dark. Get me out of here. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be in the dark anymore.

Chilly. Warm me.

Be ill. Heal wounds.

Grab my hand. Don't loose. I'm afraid*.

"Noah."

The bright light was back. Caught the sense of sight. The blurred figure now increasingly looks real.

"Sandy?"

Ogre. The words were the concubines of the wind.

The owner of the name smiled.

***

Sandy positioned Noa to sit comfortably. Noa looked around, all she saw was a white-painted room. It's a hospital. Special smell, allowing.

"It hurts."

Sandy touched a soft bruise on Noa's face.

Sure, it hurts. There are more sick. Sure exists. Shapelessly torn.

Noa nodded, looking down deeply not wanting to look fragile.

Sandy sat on the edge of the bed. Look attentively. Clasping Noa's hand.

"Well you see something?"

Hearing the remark, curiosity came to the surface, one sentence from which Noa wanted to know. He lifted his head and looked at Sandy's face.

He nodded. Sandy exited the room and returned in a wheelchair. Sandy puts Noa in a wheelchair and takes her out of the room.

Sandy took Noa out into the open at this hospital. He hugged Noa from behind and put his hands on the neck area also coiled on Noa's chest. It shows the star-studded sky. Flashing as if teasing a lara heart.

"About the top. Show me one of you."

Slowly, Noa moved her hand. Lifting a finger and pointing at a lone star. A small star, alone as if shunned.

Sandy took out something and raised her hand parallel to Noa's finger which was still pointing at the starry sky. Replicas of the star were like side by side with one star Noa pointed at.

"There are two.lo not alone."

Sandy grabs Noa's index finger and lowers the hand, giving the replica of the star to Noa's hand. He hugged Noa's body. So tight was his embrace behind Noa's body.

Sandy says. "Don't keep going again. Every road has a crossing. I crossroads for you. I'm not a shortcut for you to keep walking to your destination. I'm a new road that you're about to cross and something's there waiting for you right now. I'm waiting for you, Noa. If you are patient with him. I'll be so patient with you."

Noa is unable to speak. He was just bowed in, there was no heart to tell him what to do.

Sandy switched positions, kneeling before Noa. He clasped his hands tightly together and moved them slowly hinting to call attention.

Looking at Sandy, Noa waited for every word Sandy would say.

"Gue love you, Noa." said Sandy.

That sentence is like a reverberation. Clearly sounded. Repetitively. Echoes of the song of introduction to the soul that is now tidying up. Again, elegance is heard. Closing your ears is useless. Pain piercing the eardrum. He can't afford.

Noa again bowed, not wanting to look ahead where pain still awaits with his faithfulness. Now it is like dying in life.

"Gue wants to rest." said Noa.

Sandy nodded. He got up from his kneeling position. He pushes a wheelchair, takes Noa back to the hospital room and helps Noa lie down.

I want to forget all this for a moment. Closing his eyes, that was all Noa could do. Wishing his soul to be brought to the dreamland to explore the infinite beauty.

Feeling Sandy's hand, warms Noa's hand but can not spread to the heart.

A thread of tears dripped and the pain squeezed the chest even more. Blackmail feelings. Deplete happiness. As if I had forgotten there was a smile. As if forgetting the sound of laughter that is always heard.

***

A few days in the hospital, Noa was finally allowed to go home. He was brought back to Kosan.

Kang Acep who usually bring so attention and not much to talk. Kang Jhon is also not far from the behavior of Acep kang. Rima is rarely in kosan. He is a nature lover community.

His two best friends always accompany him every school. Sandy, she's always been there. The one who these few days is always trying to fill the void in Noa's heart.

'Tera.gimhow's it going? I don't know. My two best friends never talked about him and I never asked them.' Inner Noa.

Today kang Acep went home to college tonight. Rima is still busy with her community. Two of Noa's best friends haven't returned to school. There's still an hour left for them to reach the boarding house.

There's only a kang jhon in kosan. He accompanied Noa who still could not move much.

"Gue bosen, kang." Noa muttered.

Kang Jhon smile. "Lo's going out? Where's where?"

He was getting ready to go to college.

"I don't know" said Noa.

"Udah rest. Let the spit heal. Oh, yes I left first yes." said kang Jhon who smiled and went from kosan.

Go to Noa alone. He tried to get up, change his clothes and leave the boarding house.

He wants to meet Tera. At least, he wanted to see Tera from a distance. Just wanted to look at Tera's face. Just sec.

He had already ordered a taxi. The vehicle was waiting in front of the car. Noa tells the destination to the taxi driver.

On the way, he saw a child selling flowers. This traffic jam invites the child to knock on the car glass. It offers flowers and Noa is attracted to one color.

One thing that caught Noa's attention was the blue rose. Noa bought a floret for Tera. The taxi continued on its way to Tera's house.

Arriving in front of Tera's house, Noa came down and placed a blue rose in front of the minimalist house door. He returned to the taxi to wait for Tera to return to school.

Often Noa glanced at the clock that coiled around her wrist, counting the seconds waiting for Tera to reach her home. An hour passed and Tera appeared from a distance getting closer to her house. That figure that Noa missed. The figure he wanted to hug tightly without ever taking it off again.

Noa continued to watch him until he reached the front of the house. Tera saw the flower that Noa put there. Tera took the flower and inhaled its aroma.

Tera did not enter his house, he sat hugging his knees at the door of the house. He looked at the blue rose, occasionally inhaling its scent again.

One smile escaped his lips. A sweet smile, inviting anyone to smile when they see it. Unfortunately, this does not currently apply to Noa. The smile on his lips never appeared. It was as if those lips refused to carve a smile. Stiff to smile even at a glance.

Noa still faithfully watched Tera. Looking at his face through the car glass. Don't want to blink, don't want to glance at other objects. Noa wanted to be satisfied looking at Tera's face. It was as if tomorrow he couldn't look at her anymore.

'Gue here Tera.'

As if called, as if feeling noticed. Tera looked towards the taxi that Noa was riding in. He looked inquisitive.

'Gue here Tera.'

Again. Noa repeated the sentence in her heart and Tera now woke up from her seat. His eyes kept on the taxi. Looking not a bit.

'Gue here...'

Tera started walking towards the taxi that Noa was riding in. Walk closer to Noa. He is now behind the glass of the car and even knock on the glass slowly.

Noa looked at Tera's face at close range, the face she always longed for. Just stymied by a glass, that figure that he longed for.

Noa reached out to the windshield, one finger touching the glass that was blocking them. Tera is still tapping the glass cab. Unfortunately, this glass is only for viewing from one direction. Tera had no idea what Noa was doing in the cab.

Noa's finger touching the glass moved slowly forming a single symbol.

One 'love' symbol is clearly visible on the glass. Delivering the entirety of all the words you want to say.

Tera looked at the symbol that imprinted on the windshield of the car. He stopped tapping on the glass of the taxi and instead he made a love symbol on the glass. Adjusting from what Noa previously made there.

Finished making the symbol, Tera gave one kiss away through her finger and attached it to the former love symbol that she made. He slightly rewinded his body, away from the taxi that Noa was riding in.

"Sir, let's go."

The taxi left Tera's house. Stay away from her figure back there. Just keep the body away not love.

***

Tbc