
After I got home, I opened the fridge and sipped a glass of water,
"Change first, Val." My mother welcomed me.
"Yes, mama."
I saw my mama setting the dining table with some dishes that smell appetizing. Instantly my stomach was rumbling.
After changing my clothes, I remembered the blue envelope from Surya. I took the letter, opened it with a thump trying to guess what it was.
*Dear Valeria.
A good name, as good as his performance. I'm trying to be as smart as you are by approaching you, to be able to understand that difficult lesson.
But, when you helped me to achieve my wish, I broke you. Really, I feel guilty. And I lied about saying I was drunk, I didn't know what else to do. I'm sorry Val.
Trying to be with you doesn't make you happy either. Ii'm sorry.
I'm transferring schools out of town, you don't have to look for me, I'm just gonna haunt your feelings, ruin your life.
Please forgive me again, a word you think is easy to say, but that's all I can say.
Solar*
I squeezed the paper, yeah, he can go. But me? Is he thinking of me?
I was screwed then, slapping my own cheek, how stupid of me! I should have known he was a man who was never responsible.
I cried as I cried as I lamented my fate, but I held back my crying voice so that my mother would not hear it. My mind is mixed with shit.
Geck! Geck! Geck!
Door knocked.
"Wal..." My mother's soft voice called me.
"Yes, ma." Quickly I wiped my tears. Look in the mirror for a moment.
Chequek.
I opened my room door. Mom was standing at the door. His smile turned to shock as he saw my eyes were still wet.
"You... Crying, son? Why?"
"Mh... Stomach pain, Ma." Answer lies.
"Gee, Ma. may be sick because the beginning of the month." Lying again.
Mama fell silent. Mom seems to believe me.
"Yes, you eat first, later after eating, make rest."
"Yes, Ma."
My hunger has disappeared. But I just don't want Mama to worry about me. Mama's cooking, which usually tastes good, becomes bland in the mouth.
"Cock a little bit of food? Mama's cooking isn't good?"
"Honey boy, Ma. Just, that pain made my stomach feel bad."
"Let's rest, baby,"
"Yes Ma."
******
Lia was stunned to hear my story. "Val, so that's what's making a gaping wound in your heart?"
I nodded.
"A woman who has been taken away from her honor is a disgrace, Val. I don't know whatever the reason is. But you can't close your heart too, Val." Said Lia.
For a moment we were silent. Then I continued the conversation.
"But, please Lia. Don't tell anyone my secret. I don't want my parents to know and be disappointed."
Lia smiled and nodded, while showing her pinky to me. I welcome his pinky.
"Promise." Say us at the same time.
"You gotta promise me, Val. You will dare to face those bad memories. Face, Val. Everything has happened and now don't let it have a bad impact on your life again, make it a life lesson, Val."
"Yes, I'll try, yeah."
I hugged Lia, "Please, Yes. With this I am somewhat relieved. I've been alone all this time with my problems."
"Tomorrow if you go home, maybe it's a little different, Val. A lot has changed drastically in our city. Hopefully it can help you forget the old atmosphere."
"Yes, Yeah. Hopefully."