
"Val, I love you."
For a moment I was stunned to hear her, her voice soft, but it was clearly heard by my ears and my heart.
I continued my steps to leave him, although my mind was thrashing, suddenly these lips were moved to smile, happy tears just came out, I did not understand why I felt my steps became so light, I did not know, just because of the sentence that came out of Surya's mouth earlier. I know I don't hate him, I'm so in love with him. God brought me to two different people with different feelings, because I was so stupid I couldn't feel how to love. God gave me the example of Reno and Surya. Yes, it's clear who I love.
That sense can only be briefly felt when logic solves everything. He belongs to someone, he belongs to my brother. I can't hurt my sister.
All the way home, I was just like a madman who sometimes smiled to himself, sometimes silently glaring. Surya's driving me crazy.
When I got home, I took a shower and changed clothes. Surya's words were still ringing, making me feel guilty towards both my parents and my sister. I have loved my sister's lover. This can't happen, I don't want my sister to be hurt.
The taste that had just burst, now turned extinct. I have to kill that feeling, otherwise my family will break. I'm sure Surya can love my sister. At least I know that it turns out my love does not clap one hand. If they get married, I can get out of here.
I was still struggling with my thoughts when my mother called me.
"Wal..."
"Yes, Ma." Gelagapan.
"What do you think, from earlier mama called kok ga nyahut."
"Ga nothing, Ma. About the work." I said cover it all up.
"Tomorrow Cantika want to go home, he said to take us to the beach picnic."
"Well, Val agrees, Ma. We haven't been to the beach in a long time."
"Yes, the day after Cantika wants to take Surya too."
The deg!
Hearing Surya's words, I became silent. Shut up and feel my unsettled heart thump.
"The next day we went to the beach. There's two red days, right?" Said mom.
"Yes, Ma. It's up to mom." My word.
After making plans, my mother looked sleepy. Papa had been sleeping since I came home.
"Ma, mommy slept first. Val's still not sleepy." I said.
"Yes, Son. Mama sleeps first yeah, you don't sleep last night."
"Ok, Ma."
Mom went to her room. After Mom closed the door, I opened my car.
***
The next day, Cantika arrived home. We hugged each other, but I felt a bit at ease with her. Maybe it's just my feelings, feeling guilty for her.
After she let go, we talked in the living room.
"Big brother why the hell? Not usually?" Ask.
"Ga nothing." Answer's short.
"Sir, you know. As long as I'm dating Surya, there's something weird, huh." He said again while cleaning the face using cleanser.
He took the most care of his face. So his face can be kinclong, different from me who ogah-ogahan. Maybe that's why I don't feel pretty.
"How weird?" My toot.
"He never took me anywhere. Come on, watch it, or just eat where it is."
I felt strange to hear it too, as far as I know Surya is a caring person. Like when I was sick, he was a very caring person.
"Sister, if the guy doesn't care that character or not love?" Ask him to me.
"Maybe it could be character. Well, Surya used to be right to say love is not the same as you?" I don't understand this is a question for Cantika's problems or my personal curiosity.
"Hehehe, I was the one who really loved him, and after a week he agreed." Said honest.
His honesty made me understand everything that happened. But this is a matter of the heart. There's my sister's heart I need to keep. My mind is stirring itself. Cantika does not know what happened and must not know.
"Maybe it's just a character, he might not love you if he accepts you." My words calm him down even though my heart is uncertain.
"Yes, too, brother. Even at work, he's cut off from me even though I'm his secretary, brother."
"Maybe he's doing a lot of work, Tik."
"It could be, or she's got another girl huh, sister?"
As if at that moment my face paled like I was caught making a mistake. Sorry your sister, Cantika. I didn't know he hadn't been paying attention to you all this time. She was watching another girl, and that was me.
"Don't think badly. Maybe there's a guy like that."
Cantika talked to me while busy applying moisturizer and serum or what it was. He doesn't seem to be serious about his problems either. Ah already.
"Sir, that's why tomorrow I take him to the beach. She didn't want to, but when I said I wanted to take my family with me, she agreed." He said while putting his skincare into the pouch.
I sighed and headed to the kitchen, making a glass of warm tea to calm myself down.