Bondage of Love

Honest but Lying

"Mother Misha, Xander seems to be angry with me."

"I've given you advice to be honest."

"I'll be honest, but wait for the right moment."

"The exact moment you mean. Ra, our partner will be angry if he knows the truth from someone else."

"I have to how to mbak?"

"Explain everything and apologize."

"If he refuses how?"

"You must be glad to accept it" Kamisha said.

"I'm afraid he won't love me."

"No so? whatchu mean?"

"Actually the relationship between me and Xander just happened. He never told me his love."

"What has your relationship been like? I don't understand at all."

"It can be said to be a close friend. He wants to know my family and introduce his family. So I think Xander has a special feeling for me and with time he will love me completely."

"You lied to me about your love story. So why did he introduce you to his family last night?"

"I thought he was going to propose to me there, so I agreed when he was going to introduce me to my parents, but I didn't think it was all ruined."

"I need an explanation of Xander's feelings for you. I don't want your feelings to be played with by her" Kamisha said. "And you, I hope to be honest with Xander soon."

"Now go to sleep let's continue this conversation tomorrow morning, I need some time to think."

God, what Xander did to my niece. Some time ago he said he really loved and would prove his seriousness. What made him change his mind. He knows everything about our family's past. I need to call Alex.

Kamisha picked up her phone and immediately made a call.

"Hello sir Alex, good night. Sorry to bother you."

"Can I help Misha?"

"How's Mr Xander doing?"

"After the event he left."

"Can I talk to him in the morning?"

"I'll schedule Misha."

"Hmm did Alex know about Mr. Xander and Kyara's relationship?"

"Not really know."

"Does Mr. Xander love my nephew?"

"If the matter is better, then Kamisha asked directly with Mr. Xander."

"Well, thank you for picking up my phone. Good night." Kamisha ended her call. Kamisha did not get any information. All he got was Xander still angry at them.

It seems like I have to see her tomorrow, I can't let my niece be played like this even though Kyara is not being honest at all.

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This morning Kamisha's head was very dizzy. First because of the tiredness and the second thought about the problem of his nephew. There is so much she wants to talk to Kyara. Luckily, this morning he was off work. He broke his promise to meet Xander. He could not think of such a sick condition.

"Ra, let's talk at the cake shop. I'm afraid Axel heard our conversation."

"Good mbak."

The two of them headed for the cake shop that was currently closed. Holy permission not to leave because there is a family event.

"Have you managed to contact Xander?"

"Not yet."

"Try it again later, maybe last night he was still angry with us." Kamisha took a long breath. "Ra, there's something I want to ask."

"What is mbak."

"On Harvey."

Kyara's face immediately turned frantic, it seemed like she knew the direction of Kamisha's conversation.

"Is the man who impregnated you Harvey?"

"Buknan mbak."

"Don't lie to Kyara. When I came to Jogja and took Axel, I investigated it. Please don't hide anything from me anymore."

Kyara began to sob, her tears rushing. Recalling the bitter memories that ruined his future. Even the man would not take responsibility.

"I'm waiting for your explanation, Ra."

"Maybe it might be easy to say that because it is not the mother who experienced it. It hurts to remember that incident. How the villagers always scorned us."

"I know it's heavy, Ra. But if you want to share your burden, it will be easier. Forgiveness is the best way and moving on with life is the right decision."

"Well, it's true that Harvey was Axel's father."

"You told her that she was pregnant at the time?"

"No, I didn't tell him."

"Why?"

"He warned me not to tell him that we used to have a relationship. That's all he did because he already had a wife and he thought I'd marry Xander."

"Tell me about you guys back then who knew I could help, Ra."

Kyara closed her eyes, she took a deep breath because what she was about to tell me was not something good but a bad memory.

"When I knew Harvey, I was still in the third grade of High School. Many village girls were very happy with his arrival because he had a handsome face. We got acquainted because at that time Mbah Wijaya wanted to buy land whose realtor was mother. She was so kind to me, treating me differently from other friends," Kyara paused her story for a moment while wiping her tears.

"Can you continue?"

"Still mbak," Kyara replied. "We were friends for a month until one day he took me to the rice warehouse and it happened. We both regretted why we had to be persuaded by the devil. At that time I thought it was impossible to get pregnant" Kyara said. "The mother's business experienced the decline of many lands that the mother sold was disputed and problematic, the family mbah Wijaya felt deceived which caused them to be angry when they found out Harvey was close to me."

"So they're trying to separate you?"

"Yes right, Harvey told me to go back to town. She was going to study abroad at the time I didn't know she was pregnant. The mother's case continues, the mother tried to compensate the land dispute but because there are too many numbers the mother can not pay again until due."

"So Harvey didn't know you were pregnant?"

"No way, when Mbah Amir came to hold them accountable they refused. And also didn't tell Harvey about my pregnancy. We're really missing contact."

"The pity of the father at a young age who is no longer even bear a heavy problem like this."

"All the neighbors gossiped to us and Misha who was already indifferent would not feel how much we suffered at that time."

"You don't know what - don't comment like that Ra. Don't assume I'm hands off your problems. Maybe you didn't know that I was helping your mother's problems, too. I admit I rarely go home but I always try to help with your problems. Even until now I am still helping and not off hand especially Axel's problem. You don't think I'm being looked at by people. They think of me as a woman who had a child out of wedlock, and even now the accusation is still often directed at me."

"Sorry, ma'am."

"That's no problem for me. I tried hard, trying to get on with my life, trying to enjoy everything God gave me. And you know what it's because? because I learned iklas, learned from the past, learned not to complain."

"I can't accept all that yet."

"Study. I'm sure you can, '" Kamisha said. "The first thing you have to fix is to be honest with Xander, apologize and start your relationship all over again."

"If he doesn't want to?"

"You have to accept it because it's a risk to your dishonesty."

"Well, I'll try to meet him today."

"It's good that you can make a decision."

Kamisha and Kyara return home.

"Mommy why is your face pale?"

"Mommy's a little dizzy, baby."

"Axel take her to the doctor?"

"It's Axel's Sunday, no doctor is open. Mommy's gonna take a break for a while who knows if she'll recover soon."

"All right, let's go with Axel."

Kamisha rests in the room. His mind was a little relieved to hear all of Kyara's explanations. He can't bear to tell Axel who he is considering Kyara and Harvey already have their own lives.

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"What are you daydreaming about, son?"

"Of course."

"Kyara?"

Xander was silent without answering. "What would you do if someone lied to you?"

"Listening to their explanation, they certainly have a reason to do so."

Xander sighed, he gulped down the coffee that had started to cool.

"Kyara lied to you?"

"Looks."

"Kok seems like, if he lied to you there must be a reason."

"Why isn't Kamisha being frank with me? that pisses me off."

"Are you actually referring to Kyara or Kamisha?"

"Kamishah."

"Oh common Xander. Don't confuse me, who is actually your girlfriend?"

"Kyara, ma."

"So why are you angry when Kamisha lies to you? what did he lie to you about?"

"On Kyara's mother."

"Snack."

"What a weird thing, ma."

"Yes, your strange. You should be mad at Kyara, not Kamisha. The one with whom you have a relationship is Kyara. And that was Kyara's mother too. Who wouldn't admit her mother was also Kyara. How angry are you Kamisha, how many things."

"Either I am angry with Kyara but more angry with Kamisha."

"Now you ask, how do you feel about Kyara?"

"I don't know either, it just seems to flow normally."

"Mama's sorry."

"Make what?"

"Perhaps the insistence of mama so that you immediately have a companion brings you to a complicated relationship" said mama Attalia. "Make sure you feel."

"If you were me, who would you choose?"

"Kamishah."

"the reason? she's a single parent, her husband's out of nowhere."

"First because she's a tough woman. It is not easy to care for a child alone. Second he was polite and well mannered with the old man. Thirdly smart, he can get things done quickly. You already know for yourself what the performance at the hotel is like. Fourth, she is beautiful both from within and from the outside. Kamisha is a sincere person. The problem of single parent or husband we are the same - the same do not know. We're not investigating either."

"What about Kyara? mama doesn't like it? he's my girlfriend."

"Kyara is beautiful but when seen, the aura of her face does not radiate. It is like keeping a secret, a burden of trouble. At first I gave her a good grade but once I knew she didn't acknowledge her mother, my grades went down" explained mama Attalia. "Find them, give them a chance to explain why. Be a wise man, Xander."

Mama Attalia went away leaving Xander sitting pensively alone. It seems like he will follow the advice of his mother.

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That afternoon Kyara managed to make an appointment with Xander at a cafe. He did not say goodbye to Kamisha because mbok Sri said Kamisha was resting in the room.

"Sit down."

"Thank you Xander."

"Drink what?"

"Lemon tea."

Xander called the waiter and made a reservation. After the waiter leaves Xander and Kyara shut up for each other until the order comes.

"What do you want to talk about?"

"On my mother."

"What's that?"

"So that bude Ayu yesterday was my real mother."

"Why don't you admit it?"

"Because in the village it is customary, that if a child and a mother have the same weton or birthday then the child should be discarded. It's just symbolically. So frankly all this time I was raised by my grandfather his name was Mbah Amir," Kyara said. "The book went away because it was divorced from my father. So it was Amir who took care of me. To be honest I'm not close to my mom and used to call her bude." Kyara made up the story again.

"You didn't lie to me?"

"Why am I lying?" he said he was trying to convince Xander.

"It could be to cover up another lie."

"I'm not that bad as Xander."

"I'm just guessing, because you've been lying to me all this time doesn't rule out the possibility that you'll lie to me again."

"I beg you to trust me this time, Xander, please."

"Of course."

"How about Misha she lied to you too, right" Kyara said. "She's just quiet, not even giving an explanation of what's wrong with you."

"Don't bring anyone else, it's our problem" Xander said.

"I love you Xander, you love me too, right? so I beg you to forget this matter and we'll start a new chapter without any lies."

"Come on Kyara, I can't seem to. I have to make sure I feel for you first."

"You don't love me?"

"I don't know, I admit I'm too quick to make a decision and I think we'd better be friends first."

"No Xander, you can't do that to me. I already love you. I beg you to forgive me, Xander."

Kyara started to shed tears. Xander actually did not have the heart because this was also not the fault of Kyara one hundred percent but also supported by doubt - doubt in his heart.

"I forgive you Kyara."

"Oh thank goodness you're willing to forgive me, let's start all over again. I promise I won't lie to you again, Xander."

"We started again from the beginning of this relationship as friends, Kyara. Maybe with time I can get to know you better and fall in love with you."

"So you haven't loved me all this time?"

"Let's know, at first I admired you. Admired for your nature, amazed at your passion and hard work. And I thought it was love. But the more I get here my feelings for you are different and ordinary."

"Well, Xander, I appreciate your decision. But let me keep chasing you."

Xander just kept quiet without giving an answer. Because loving people is a personal matter. The important thing is that he has honestly told Kyara, that right now it is best to be friends.

The conversation between Xander and Kyara ended. Kyara is determined that she should be able to get Xander's love.

He returns home and finds Kamisha accompanying Axel to study.

"Where are you from, Ra?"

"From meeting Xander."

"How did he react?"

"He's willing to forgive me and start the relationship all over again" Kyara replied lying.

"Uhuk... uhuk."

"Mother Misha is sick?"

"The common cold. Everything you're telling me?"

"Everything except Harvey and _____." point Kyara at Axel. "I'm not ready, give me some time."

"Yes, I appreciate your efforts to start being honest with Xander. I'll rest again my body feels weak and hot."

"Yes Misha, get well soon."

Kamisha went into another room with Axel. Kyara looked at her departure with cold eyes. I'm sorry Misha I lied to you, I want Xander's attention to be without any competition from anyone.

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