BLACK PEARL'S

CHAPTER 63

بسم الله الرحمن الرحيم

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I woke up at exactly 3am, looking at my wife who was still sound in her sleep, I was stunned to see her pale face. Closer to my face and kissed her forehead slowly muttered an apology softly not wanting to disturb her sleep and when she woke up she was afraid of me and it really squeezed my heart to hurt me.

Finish berwudhu’ I spread the prayer mat facing the qibla. I sinned by abandoning prayer on purpose and drinking the drink again only about my fear which was not proven to be the fear that harmed me. Kneel long cry full of sin begging for forgiveness for breaking it. Begging for mercy for hurting my wife and acting up to no one to be grateful for her grace makes me feel guilty for my baby..

“ forgive servant yarabbi.”

Finished with my prayer, I sat in the chair beside the bed Hanna stared at the large mound of her stomach, gazing with teary eyes and somehow since when my hand was there, my heart was racing, it was soothing, it was calming, amazing and moving.

“maafin dad” lirihku.... “not dad never wanted you son... dad just feel fear that you should never feel, not that I don't accept you, but I'm afraid I'm gonna be a bad father to you. I love you sorry for the initial reception. I just don't believe I can make it like this.” Then I looked at Hanna.

“you know.. just thinking about getting married is not always thought because according to the father has a relationship with a woman only father considers it very troublesome but the destiny of God is extraordinary and makes father married and funny again father so loving your mother..” I bit my lip holding back the sobbing.

“then do not stop until there God predestined by giving the father a surprise again by presenting you in the mother's mouth, when you know the father was disappointed because your mother did not tell the father, ever since you were a kid and I just found out you were this big, I panicked and worried about not being able to be a good father to you.. and baby I'm sorry you hurt you the last thing you never wanted to do now I have two precious pearls…” I said full of regret and then kissed his long distended stomach with full of feeling, haru, a little afraid and feel amazed.

Until I felt a swab over my head, I froze for a while and then took my face away from his stomach and looked at him who had opened my eyes, I kept silent in anticipation not to disturb his calm again.

“kak...” call him soft, he is calm no longer hysterical like yesterday I sigh in relief and then I dare to hold his face and cover it in my cheeks.

“sorry I'm the coward Han... make you back hurt like this. Please forgive me... You know I panic when my selfish side speaks where I don't want to share you with others. You know we're just getting started and I still want us both to enjoy this world of baby trouble I want it just not now, I still want to reconcile and settle the past without dragging you into my past that is so complicated and dense as the dark black stuff. Yes I'm selfish not to share you with anyone. But I realized that baby is a gift for me and then I started to feel afraid that I could not be a good father I was afraid to hurt him. Sorry I for my selfishness Hanna” obviously I made him cry.

“kak Rys.. Have you ever thought I'd let you be a bad father, we'd both learn to be this, learn to be a good father, you think I'm not afraid, I am afraid I cannot be a good mother. But I have you we learn from each other, and there's still about 6 months for us to learn to be good parents. We your family all about you are ours too, indeed the past is yours, but we can help to get out of there.” Soft talk. A little squash came out of his mouth.

“i also do not want to share you with others.but the context is different, we will be parents who certainly we will share love, affection and a sense of protection for them, he said, because instinctively it will be there as we do. And that is the feeling that comes as a parent. My feelings for you will not change inshaallah and those feelings will branch out by presenting that feeling to them” he said then carried my hand over his distended stomach.

“not you. but three babies, chio kita” I was wide-eyed, 3 yaampun amazing petite body seems to accommodate 3 boys masyaallah’ my amazement in my heart.

“3 new man eh..” I chuckle though it looks stiff really this is surprising.

“we will learn together and live this by enjoying it do not think too much about something that makes kkak afraid and it becomes a boomerang for his own brother. And it will hurt my brother. Calm and dhikr we will pray together to become good parents.” He said and rubbed his hand over my hand that was still in his stomach.

“I call them Chio because they are the most beautiful gifts for us, the fruit of our love” told him.

“sorry for the incident that night that was so rude to you and made him hurt by what I did.

“I forgive brother..there is no right to affirm your heart to forgive you even though Allah is all-forgiving and forgiving, and, I who is just a normal human being is arrogant by not forgiving the father of my children” he said that was so soothing soul, anxiety and fear that now overflowed when you see a smile on his face, and I gently rubbed her stomach as I felt her stomach twitch. I looked at him and he smiled and smiled back at him. I went up and lay down next to him, he hugged me and I hugged him, I missed my Hannaku, there was a little barrier down there but I loved it.

“just mind you are more contained and sexi.” my god even though it is reality, making him hit my chest, I laugh at him who is wrong.

“ said your doctor curusan. so we have to fight to raise the ideal body of pregnant women twins according to the doctor's advice later.” said me spirit.

“eum.. can I ask?” he asked and looked at me doubtfully. I locked his gaze and nodded for sure.

“I accidentally read your message from Ms. Monica was your secretary.” she told me the contents of the message and I started to understand the next day I got out of the car with monica and she ended up in the hospital. God, I hurt him with misunderstanding and of course because of my ego.

“message that there means Hanna, we will meet the client at the hotel exactly that client request because our client does not like the crowd, so if you want to kepoin tuh not half-that you read Monica's last message

” is obviously me and he pursed his lips flat.

“and why Monica got out of my car we not only both have Rendi there too. They were in the process of dating Han. Rendi's car broke down in the middle of the road so I all took them. Anyway for what I look for other women at home is still intact not inexhaustible.” said I feel amused myself and he laughs ouh my world back my inner self seeing him laughing is the most beautiful thing I get.

“i also do not endlessly love you” he said and looking full of love.

“sorry already drunk and make you disappointed, again.” he nodded.

“but if you are angry never run away again. berwudhu’lah so that anger does not rule the heart. Like a fire if we want to extinguish it but we add more fire in it then the fire will be great, but if we extinguish it by spraying water then the fire will be extinguished instantly as well as with anger, if we serve and follow our passions that are harmed not only we others are harmed. But if we dismiss the anger as hard as we can and berwudhu’ is not we who lose we benefit usually when angry can destroy anything but if we choose silence and berwudhu’ the reward can be from us berwudhu, it is a loss if you follow lust” he explained and I nodded in agreement.

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