BLACK PEARL'S

CHAPTER 28

بسم الله الرحن الرحيم

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When I got home from the obgyn doctor, and I found out what he said to me. His lies about the drug. I was disappointed of course, and thankfully Aisyah didn't come in. It was just me there. Of course I don't want anyone to know about my family. My job as a wife is to cover up her family's problems.

Arriving at home, I saw his car parked in the garage, it turned out he had come home so I had to wear my cherry mask covering the wound of my heart that I could not describe anymore. I can't cry anymore, I wipe away the tears that cheeky back betrayed me. My heart hurt huft. I breathed heavily and then exhaled it. Until in the middle room I flipped my veil and said greetings cheerfully as usual, usually who greeted me aunt Maggie this time different he was my husband and uncle Anthony.

Resisting the feeling of being hurt is not easy, so I say and mumuji you guys are great who can withstand all the turmoil and complexity of life while still holding a smile and grateful.

You're terrific. I don't care how long I've been standing here, because my heart still hurts and my mind's on top of this. Until he came and I opened my heart even though I was not open about what happened. Leaving him alone there.

Until the evening before it seemed like he could not stand my attitude which was quite quiet today. He took me to our room, locked the door and looked at me from top to bottom.

“kamu why? He urged me to talk and I just kept quiet.

“Hanna!!’ repeat, I remain the same I do not answer, because I believe he already knows without me having to tell.

“why you should ask when you know it yourself. In fact, I would be surprised if my husband did not know about my daily life.” My answer is rhetorical

“oke.. Why did you go to obgyn doctor?” asked her to the point, I smiled cynically of course she knew. What he could not do with his money and power.

"And I'm very sure you came home quickly because you want to know about this.” said ambiguous.

“say!” demanding that he stand closer, I retreated until I knew I was stuck with a wall holding me behind my back and he was in front of me with his hands and feet imprisoning my body.

“does he grow.. here?” the question was angry, those blue eyes blazing like fire, his hands rubbing rough my stomach a glance then returning to imprison me. I laugh at myself. And self-pity.

“if he” my challenge. He froze, even he stopped breathing and then a second later he looked at me full of wrath.

“open every day you always choke me with contra sepsi, drugs that you say vitamins but in fact I was fooled by my own husband. Happy dear.the doctor regretfully said I am not pregnant. But when I came home, my husband was very unwilling for his wife to conceive. Why other people seem to pay more attention to us while the closest people to ourselves do not mind it. Even happy not if your wife is not pregnant” I said at length with calm emotionless.

I held onto her waist and squeezed her clothes firmly withstanding the turmoil I wanted to clear but it was a pity that I couldn't do that. Only tears betray me, they don't want to stay where they are.

“why sis..why silence.safe...I'm not pregnant..please.my feelings are of course not important because here only your feelings are important. Your demand and enforcement attitude are very important.” I laughed but my eyes cried, looking into her eyes that were also looking at me.

I could not guess the contents of his head through those eyes, because it was too thick and enigmatic. Such a black pearl was so dense and had a sharp gloomy color.

“so don't want it yes you, if I become the mother of our child.” My defense was broken, I sobbed with words I didn't really want to say. I feel like he's upset or just my feelings.

“do you not mind if I was picked up by mother someday by our child your flesh and blood? Heum... I'm greedy again yakan.. but papa I do not accept, maybe one day there will be a man who wants me to contain blood... hump..”.

He silenced my lips with a rough kiss, very rough as if he wanted to convey something through his kiss. He was angry why.I should be the one who was angry. I was short of breath I was out of oxygen but he was still clenching my lips violently, I was biting his lips hard to bleed and then he let go of his kiss, I guess my lips were covered in blood. He also rubbed his bloody lips and looked at me with warning.

“don't you ever think of marrying another man, because I'll never let you go! Until I lose my mind though I will never let you go!. What is mine is my absolute right. So don't even think about leaving me and marrying someone else. Because I'll make sure I kill whoever he is who will never be your future. Because your destiny is here in front of you until we no longer breathe in the world.” he shouted furiously and then punched the wall beside me and left the room by pounding the door until thumping loudly.

My body was falling to the ground crying out alone. I was too bad to think of him, or is this the truth. ?

Yallah I'm confused yarab. please servant” beg me. Stop crying Han.. meet the creator so that bad thoughts and heartache does not be a chance your lust instigates you until you exceed the limit’ my inner memory.and it is true I rushed to the bathroom, I am, I wudhu’ and my heart is calm.

Then prepare with a state of a heart that is bitter but I must focus so that I am not sad and menzdolimi yourself and others. Prostrating long and venting pain, the emotions held in the mind were now shed in tears.

“strengthen servant yaallah.give the heart of servant tranquility.” I pray in my bow with a whim.

‘do not mourn, indeed Allah is with us (QS.  AT-TABLE: 40)

Remember that God does not always allow the sky to cloud, there will be a sun after, it will look so bright the sun after the clouds no longer cover it. The earth looks green and fresh after the rain. Neither will God's life leave you alone in trouble, he does so only he wants you to remember him, perhaps we are so ignorant that God rebukes us. Or we are too negligent when walking in obedience and stop in the middle of the road, so God subhanahuwatala reminds us again to keep moving closer to him. Because after you cry he will give you a smile of happiness. Be patient. nothing is in vain –sia if you want to wait and last a moment. \#bookpen.

‘True color after difficulty there is ease’ (QS. AL – INSYRAH :5)

There is no difficulty if we do not complicate ourselves, there is no heavy burden that will befall us if we will not be able to do so. Everything that happens, God will give you guidance and a way out. Nothing will be permanent, let alone trouble. As we were given the MTK problem by our teacher, actually the teacher knows where you can do the problem, of course the teacher gives his students problems with difficulties in accordance with his ability. Moreover, the all-knowing God as to what we can endure from what he tested and gave us.\#bookpane

... ‘I do not burden someone but according to your ability’ (QS. AL-BAQARAH :286)....

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